Confidence again?

Hahas, feeling euphoric right now at the moment. Judo training was abit boring. But talking with hia di-s rocks. hahas. This is what good friends are for, ya? ROFL. I guess it wasn't love that make me happy, it was the confidence that came along that did. =)

I will back pace my day later. Feel like chatting with her right now. Too bad she went offline, ya? Wanna talk to her about some private stuffs, but I wonder if she's ready not. Jiaying, I still feels that you wanna stay away from me. Somehow. Maybe I just think too much. Hahas. Nevertheless, I think you still read my blog just as I do to yours. So... =)

Rather weird day. Slept at 2am last night. Woke up at 645? Cool! =) Idled abit before doing my stuffs. Selfish Dad dont wanna give me a ride to school. =( Wasted abit of time at home before I left my house. Late Late!! Who cares? Met Amalina on the way at Woods MRT. How nice. =) Talked abit, but after awhile, nth to talk liao, so I kept quiet and she listened to MP3. Aww. All the way till class. Walked in like some big shot. woo hoo! I am. x))

Transferred myself from Jap 2 to Personal Development. How cool is that. I can slack for 1 module le. =) COol, so I had 4 hours break today. Torturing. Brutal. BME HUB LOCKED. BULLS!! Ate slowly. Vinvin dear went for his Jap2, how sad. (yeah..going act cute gay style.) Anthony ate with me and Alicia. yeah and now people think she's my girl. wtv. Talktalk.FinBreakfast. Went to look for leonard for the transfer thing. Waited for an hour bah? sit around talking , while Alic make her Mermaid Band. -.-

Some guy came to look for her. Interested in her. Bigger size. HipHopDressing. Turning Alic off. I joked about "Oh no, dont look at me.. nth between me and her. Take her. take her." Alic laughed her head off. OMG. BEHEADED WITH LAUGHTER. x)) Leo called me so I left her with her hunk and went ahead to the dojo. Slept that for an hour? I think. Then Xinyi called me. To help Delphi to do her survey. Oh yea, I helped her with 3 in the canteen earlier already. Nvtless I didnt reject to help, so I took 8 pieces. -_- oh well. Got her number because of that. =) hahas. Flirt.

Went back with leo to SEG as he's having lesson, mine's at an hour later. Sit around. Vinvin dear smsed me and we met outside class, and so did Alic. =) Hahas. Slept like 50% for the next 3hrs of lectures. Cool =). Went for Judo straightafter. Delphi came to dojo to get the forms. She's pretty. hahas. okie. I sat around and look at wanshi lead the 1 new member as well as pris. Command of English is bad. I had a hard time trying not to laugh at it. Wtv.

new member = ZhiLing. Quite cute, small size. Impatient. Very enthu. Very..er.. hmm , should get to know her more. Just know she's quite impatient that's all. She wanna learn and learn. btw, she's a yellow belt. just tt she forgot all about it and is relearning. oh well. No prob for breakfalls. I think the rest managed to teach her throws.

Went for dinner after that. Silat training and rehearsals + stunts were cool man. Then we mimic-ed and did alot of lame stuffs. GAYS ROCK!! Plenty of fun. but I still think of Jiaying. =) Cockles for dinner again? WTH? Judokas are addicted to it somehow. God bless them. The cockles I mean. I ate alot too lar. This time only. Pretty good at this too. x)) Then, we went home. btw, scott brought a gal to dinner. LoL. NICE ONE SCOTT!! YOU HAVE OUR SUPPORTS. hahas.

Then went back to Woods. Chatted with Zhaohan and Leo. Cool. Age doesnt seems to matter. Talked about crap. We swore to the Road Deity. We are sworn brothers now. If we dont honour this swear, we will each lose a "car" by having a car runing over it. =) ROXORS LAME!

Ciaos. Confidence Rocks. I'm vain too. =) Horoscope = Leo.

thurs nite

Haha, guess I had been too free today. Took a whole day of rest. Only to find nothing to do at home. Terrible feeling. Start to miss her again at night. haha. Nvm. This will go. Judo training drained too much yesterday. =) I wanna go for Judo on Friday again. Being busy, would be just fine. =)

Being too free sorta set me on fucked up mood. I wanna snap. I wanna.. and I wanna... and.. blahs. Secrets again. =)

Why do I feel like I cant find something to talk about. With... anyone at all. Except for zhaohan, takki for dota.. starting to feel drained emotionally when I strain myself to find a topic. No. I don't know. Feel like isolating once again. No.

Don't dare to express anything. Don't dare to do anything. Don't dare to ask anything. Don't want to change anything. I'm not brave enough, to confront with the consequences. Failures make me fear. I think I'm worn out, again.

I joked to cover up. I lied to hide. I can't run because I don't know where to go. I...

hahaz =) aloha.

Morning

Ha! Forcibly woke up at 730, then I fell asleep again. Thank God for this sensation. Hahaz. -_- Woke up again at 930. OMFP! hey, lessson at 9..er... and I'm still on bed..done nothing. Okie.. Im missing this 3hrs lectures. Cooooool!! and Hey, we are talking. Cooool!! -jellyfish-

Went to take a shower. And oh yeah. I forgot what I wanna blog again. HS. Just feel liking blogging la. =) Anyone wanna take care of me? I'm a 80kg toddler who has nothing much to do and wont grow tall anymre at max height of 178. Nah! No. Zaty. I know you will volunteer. No..I'm racist. Hahaz okie.. This is just a joke. >_<

Just so bored with current affairs. (wooaah!) Think I shouldnt be bothered about foreign affairs. ( =P running a government. ) And, yeah.. Whatever. Err.. See you guys on KCDC. Bye Bye!! -_-

Judo

Wow, Judo orientation was fun. -.- See.. this could save alot of time by using just one line. =/ hahas. Btw, yeah was there earlier. Read the previous post. Bored. Nothing to do. Hahas. Saw her running away again.

Can't believe that those freshies were so blur not to come in to the dojo to check. Guess they are afraid to. hahas. Poor juniors. Shy. The turn-up rate was rather sad. Dont think there is even 50 people. Guess they went for the other clubs and then stay there already. =] God bless them for missing out such a good club. LoL!! There's more guys than gals though. Contradicting with the fact that there was more XX that signed up for the club.

Begin with normal warmups. Tumbling. (down the stairs. ROXOR. no) Sensei came in. Paused. Continue. Then we do some breakfalls warmup. Cart wheel. Blablah. (Join the NYP Judo Club for mre information. =) hey, this gotta work with the sign up rate. =)) Tiring. Francis came. bad premonition.

Wasn't exactly tired. I think I just need more sleep. hahas. Training my full without distraction, increases my endurance. Water breaks sap you of energy. Trust me. The freshies got to join in. How fun. hahas. Being thrown. Wahahaha. This is weird. I believe all of the above weren't interesting. Let's talk about the freshies.

They came in, rather confused. Lost misguided souls. yea, they need someone to guide them from the sports hall entrance. =) and yea, they havent break their ice. Let me break them up into pieces while we get to that shall we? Met a kendo pal which I made during the orientation. Nice. He seems to be joining liao. thanks to me. =) I'm cool. x))

We could see some couples. But I'm sure none of them will join. I saw a few during last year's orien(shortform frm now on). This is a lonely club. Awww. LoL Just kidding. The exact reason could be that they dont interact with others when they are with their mates. yea? agree? Then they will think that "hey! this isn't fun?, let's do something that will be fun for both of us"..yeah sure, go home and mate.

There are sweet and cute looking girls. Wonder if they will ALL join. Emphasizing on all. hahas. Despo. Woohoo! -_- One really catches my attention. Including pris of course. She nearly fainted. -_-.. You need to get used to it. I get giddy alot of times too.

I think I wanna cont.. but.. Judokas requested dota. Seeya again.

-Those who protect themselves, knows not how to protect others.-

crush

=) Blogging in school nothing. There isn't anything much for me to do now except for waiting for judo orientation to start. =_= hais. Wonder if she will be coming. Went to read her blog again. hahaz, actually, had been wanting to see what she writes so that I can know what she feels. sorta closing off from me recently. hahaz.

Anything goes. I'm someone who thinks crushes can last. Crushes can develop into something more. But.. hmm, girls. oh man. -_- Gotta admit Im quite a flirt lar. Do develop feelings easily. And so does get hurt easily too. Is this immaturity? hmm, have to ask my friends once in a while to decide for me. Maybe they are just too kind to say Im so immature bah.

Bottomline is, I dont know if I will be liking another girl soon. My feelings. Oh well. Screw it. Whatever. When you are finally fine with being my friend, come back to me again. Then, I will know. No point hypothesizing now.

And.. Anyone, if you find me hateful, let me know. I hate myself at times. And well because I know myself more than anyone else. Changing is always good, but it isn't easy.

And, Oh yea. I don't understand why do you have to avoid me when..yea, after you answered me. *Wonder if I'm having problem expressing this point..alright.. I will stop. *

Remember.

One wrong move. and its a checkmate. Nothing helps anymore. But still, I hope we can have another round. Nevertheless, there will be others. The odds of meeting the same is so diminished. That's what hope is about. =)

Today, rather funny. Lots of stuffs happened. hahas. I'm keeping myself positive. Nah, don't wanna return to that state again. hmm.. private stuffs. Lots of it. Controlling my emotions, so I won't get hurt.

And, starting to have the tots of experiencing pain. =_= like.. breaking a arm or something. Dont go Ewww.. or.. Oh no..Joseph going sadist. Nah. It's just that..well, curiosity. You cant say you can endure pain unless you really experienced it before, ya? =) hees.

Blog again. Tomorrow. Judo Orientation.

late.

Haha. Slept late last night. Woke up late. Not exactly late. Damm. Look at timetable. Grrr. Stupid LamLam lesson. LoL.. Dont go liao. weee. rest til 1pm. hahas.

Emotions running wild. I controlled too much before. I can't feel like I want to now. Wonder why I can force myself to laugh, or just try to force some tears out. Digging into past sorrows. haha.

When I say hurt me to make me forget. I don't mean it. I was just trying to say, please dont allow me to forget, you are too important to me.

I was just trying to be harsh. but not to harm. Now I realised, I wouldnt do this anymore. Hope it won't be too late.

feelings

All began from the club crawl. The feelings. Mutual. All so fast. Far too similar to that again.

Would had been fine. when I chose to follow my feeling. Another guy appeared. Confused. Panicked. Did stupid stuffs.

Selfish. Hurt both. Regret now. Why did I repeat the same mistake over again. It shouldnt had gone this way.

The feelings. Mutual, still there..right?

11

Lesson at 9am well then.. I left house at 9 something. ROFL. Usual me. Late. Nvm. Went for Elearning. WTH!? 1 hr just to solve one simple physic-like question. rofl. think too much till cant solve it wor? all the thousands of answers out there. =_= Then there is the lame electronics thing again. repeat the same stuff as last week. crap. Then biomaterials, well, still okie..at least ended early.
No lesson from 12.45 onwards. ... went to look for JY. lol. Saw her and her sis. And I think she felt awkward. =_= stayed with her for awhile til she left for lesson. haha. Then, I went to slack at the library. oh yea. went back to eat first. My friends shoo-ed out of the biomed hub. wahaha pesky first year. having lesson there. LoL Wait and wait. Read a storybook. Cant finish it. About some Othman. Politician. =_=
Hp died. Went to cca clubroom area. See kendo ppl. See Leo, Anthony, Janice. Jaw dropped. LoL hahaz. asked leo to go kendo with me. Haha. JY was nearly late. anyway, their training has some similarities with Judo. but they are more organised. Fierce sensei. Expensive club fee. lol. Ithink. =X Disciplined. Nevertheless, Judo rocks. =)
I dont wanna go into the details. But now I know the footwork. as well as how to draw a shinai. And some stuffs lar. My jap sucks still. grrr. Sent JY home after that. Seems weird still. Whatever. haha. Ciaos.

Green blog

Hm , did a change of skin. When did I get so hardworking...yeah.. someone pushed me to. =] hahaz yeah, that JY again. diao. x)) And, well.. maybe I should blog more lar. Was so fascinated by someone's big big blog achives.

haha, what should I write about? This is weird. haha. No longer feel depressed anymore. Maybe its due to the school's opening. Maybe something else. Seriously, I not that frank nor straightforward. haha,so... somethings are still best kept to myself.

Had been talking alot on msn with JY, pris and the nonsensical Zaty who never get bored of me. x)) haha.. and no, I'm not flirting lar. Of course, if you guys talk to me, I will glady chat...but I think you all will feel gayish bah? wahahhaz

Playing maplestory. <--- yeah flame me. hey, because it can waste alot of my idle time and I won't have to put up with stupid allies on dota on euro Bnet. (for more infomation, www.eurobattle.net) haha being sleeping late still. Talking. Talking. Minesweeping. Grr!! haha I wonder if she will ever get bored with playing with me. *worried* rooooll..

haha, I'm omitting private stuffs. bleh. maybe I will be more open next time. Introvert mah. continuing read my blog, and remember to tag. but..yea, dont be like HER!!! *vomit blood*

I will blog more from now on. Quite fun. And yea, being happy. Aloha!!

Saturday`

Waaaahaaaaa... Good afternoon. x)) I woke up at 9.15.. *OMFG LATE!!!!* *take briefs throw in toilet and get towel* *hmm..zz..hmm... today..Saturday...* OH YEAH!! NO SCHOOL!..zzz.. cant sleep back after this. Went to check my torrents. Ooooh...GS destiny completing soon. x)

*cut**

Okie, I think I tried to write what happened in the morning. But, its messy and I can't really understand what I trying to write. *having this problem of expressing myself lately* I had been tiring myself out this week. Not intentionally. Sleeping late, and early lessons. Club Crawl.

My back is getting tired easily, my rib hurts abit. Too much breakfall. Nevertheless, Saturday sleep sorta revitalised me, as well as slowing down my pace. =) Went on for breakfast, 2 packs of chongpang nasi lemak + 1 otah. watch tv. watch GS destiny. play game. stone. roll on bed. slack. repeat. hmm this life rocks.. >.< hahaz go ahead and disagree with everything you got. =P

Crazy Jiaying.. yeah, she loves me. x)) hahaz must be love at first sight right? lol~ she's still uber hyperactive and abit fong lar. weeee, and she likes playing minesweeper. not with me though. gonna hate her for making me lose so many times. I used to hav records like 40+ W 3 L only. =( and stupid msn reseted it. *confused eh?*

*Was I been very obvious during the club crawl... how did she notice that? lol.. something.. yeah. I just cant seems to get myself to know what is it. haahz, you are the only one who told me that leh. The rest didnt notice as much. * this part is for Jiaying. LoL. Just for you leh. =) wahahaha

Actually, I just dont know what to write about. My mind is tingling with thoughts. And I feel that my english is getting from bad to worse. and most importantly, I cant express myself. And its getting messy.

aiadjakf ahakjbd aobjnw inkr nkdpaib fio albs ksfs knksneos t... Messy bah. grrr. brb. once I know what to write.

Wednesday-Thurs

Tired. Due to club crawl. As well as some personal matters,LoL.. Hahaz..Pris had been so close to me recently and people are thinking that we are steads or something. Going to school together, going back together. Haha, I see why we are mistaken to be.

But, we are not. We didn't reach that stage. Just very good friends yeah? haha If you aren't happy, let me know. I will accompany YOU to school too. But as I'm a lazy person, if you are too far, dont expect me to go, and please do know that I have a very high tendency to be late. your choice. x)) haha..

Club crawl had been messy. Too many stuffs, communication breakdown. Floods. Dao people. We managed to get 140+ people to sign up. Other clubs get numbers like 200+. Oh well. and, the people who signed up, 90% are gals? or so I heard. WOW. NYP Judo Girls Club. Kudos to all the desperate guys in Judo 2006. (hmm, am I? ) Next year, the girls would get alot of guys. Vicious cycle.

Managed to get to know some people from other club through the club crawl. The rarely seen Akikdo people as well as Kendo. I would know more if I socialize abit more. But..yeah, Im an introvert. Managed to click with a kendo girl well. Jiaying. lol, maybe because she was hyper-active (Sort of) and very friendly lar. and uber playful. =/ Like our Judokas. lol. Another friend ha.

I was very active on the first day. Thrown on the sports hall floor. Did alot of stuffs actively. Including defeating BJ again. wahaha. Im the worthy Gold medalist. Even though I only slept for 3.5 hrs that day. Slept after that at the club and then rehearsed again at night. 2nd day, I slept more. But..I felt so slack. I reached early. no one. Jeremy first.then Jiaying. then the rest came promptly.

Early performance. Late polar. Screwed up schedule from the Student Union. Messy performance due to some adrupt changes. Then, they removed the mats. Cant do anything without mats unless we want PAIN. and I was hurting due to day 1 already. sad. Slack. Ate. Slept. lol.

Man..ended.. how sad. back to normal school. =)

JudoJudoJudo=

Woah..2 blog in a day. Rare stuff again. Just to show how bored I am. =/ Judo from the afternoon til night. Not bad, it really can takes up my time but still, I think I wanna rent a unit near NYP so I can go school easier. but...think I would need a job too. And..would they agree. (job yes..but renting) =/

Damp lazy for transport and transport time.. might as well save the $45 a month on concession for rent. =/and..so I had been taking taxis all this time to school and back too. COol!? x))

Let's talk about today's activities. Well, sensei sure had his way with the club crawl performance, some great and crazy and fresh ideas. CheerS for sensei!!~ lol~ but still since its new, its tough too. As well as painful. *ouch* flip breakfall. rolling break continously. fun scenerio for self-defense.

My heart and mind is still running about. Unable to settle down on something. Unable to decide. =) hees. Whatever, the usual sloppy me.

Jasmine

I'm as bored as usual.

I went to read her blog once more. I wonder why had I feared of reading her blog in the first place. Her life is still the usuals too, full of fun and excitement. x) Good to see that. Had to admitted that Im jealous.(the fun and excitement part) I think she's the first girl I was so emotionally attached to. Maybe because during that time, my life was having a void and my heart has nowhere to go. Went well but didnt last long.

OMG!! It was all in my mind awhile ago..I forgot what to write now. I didn't continue to be her friend, sorta avoided her or stuff. =/ kinda bad, AND this is something that I rarely do. del her msn contact, stop viewing her blog. hmm =/ but I didn't block her. Think I was wishing that she will talk to me on her own. AND now I still don't dare to re-add her on msn. =/ wth..wimp.

Maybe right now, my life is still in the void. or went back to. x)) No aims. Nothing. Momentarily laughters. Games seems to be my only place. =) Void. Maybe I would start isolating myself, and then reset. easier said then done.

Jasmine LCM. xP I'm no longer angry or anything. but I wonder if you will see this. Sorry. *smile*

Happiness

Hey, seriously, I can't find anything to write about. =/

Last post, I sounded angry, sad, negative, disappointed. Or so they say. x)) hahaz realistic comments yeaH?

Happiness..how do I start this of? the feeling of being happy? It's quite random. Refering to its appearances in a person's life, or day. How many times do you smile in a day, or laugh, or giggle, or happy thoughts, or felt sweet, being praised, admired, treated to a drink, or etc. =/ You were happy, aren't you? Then when you stopped for a moment, when you are alone, when you stop thinking and look out for cars..how exactly do you describle that feeling at that moment.

Seeriously, I felt like I'm in that state now. <- double e is a mistake. I wanted to conclude that I'm sad, but i'm not. Lonely, maybe. Aimless, yeah. Bored, =/. BRAH! hate this empty feeling. So empty. Can someone just come into my life? or just kill me? or shall I kill myself? from malnutrition aka obesity. x))

Anyway, I blogged becus I'm rather bored. And I think I didnt stay in point with the title. But who cares? Life's without constraints. Good luck peeps~ AND don't worry about me. IF you do. AND if you do, DON'T worry about me. x))

Responsibility

hmm, recently I had been acting weirdly. or is it so?

The Judokas must be scolding me for being a irresponsible farktard who never shows up on time or never at all. Alright, yea, I'm in charge of the sandwich board. During the meeting, I was enthusiasfabjkda(enthu, I cant spell) about the whole thing for club crawl. All and all. Clearing of clubroom etc.

Missed Friday, Sat,Sun(was there?) meeting, very late for Mon meeting, didnt bothered about tuesday, was late on Wed but didn't go in the end, Thurs today too. Tomorrow is Friday again. They tried very hard to get me there, and it does make me feel bad at times. But the feeling just isn't right. I know I'm being irresponsible and stuffs. And I also know this kind of attitude is bad. So, seriously, I don't need to be lectured.

Commitment. I can't feel commited. Anything at all, except for food, water and air. Everything I do now is due to the spur of the moment. Sure, I can build you a vehicle..if I have the mood. This explaination doesn't help in removing me from the status "Irresponsible". But you have to realise that this word doesn't apply to me everywhere.

I bought breakfast for my mom this morning. ( eg. =P ) Responsible? I didn't clean up my room. (hmm.) I helped my friend to move her bed. (hmm.) I switch off the lights when I dont need it. (hmm.!! for a blue and pure world.) so...whatever. I seldomly get refers to as irresponsible in school too.

Thinking :
Irresponsible is a word, used by "people", that refers to not doing something "people" wanted you to do for the greater good of "people".
"Good to see you being so commited" would be a compliment.

=) Cya all irresponsible busdirt.

Dont Know.

Lazy to blog. Lazy to chat. Lazy to reply smses. LoL! L for Lazy.

Tues, went for a movie V for Vendetta with the Judokas guys. 8 guys! HA! It's fun. Joking around in a big group, but we cant find anything to do. Walked from PS to Somerset. Walked around in department stores. Looked at VCDs, food, and toys. wth. But it's fun. Funner than staying at home and staring at the computer.

Seriously, this few days, the outings spent alot of my money. I mean my allowance. Hence my mom is nagging. AND SERIOUSLY, all of this have to do with Judo. Birthday, AGM, clearing of clubroom, movie with judokas, doing something for the club crawl. wow. oh, there's also Judo training.

Wed, after Judo, I decided to go to polar's house to watch Initial D fourth stage which he had lost the disc on Sunday but Sensei Francis retrieved it and brought it during the training. Leo and Ks came along, and we watched the discs til morning. All 14 esps. =) kinda boring though. Polar cooked fr us!!

Slept for 7-8 hrs in the morning? my day just started. 6pm cya.

Monday Morning!

How refreshed. Been awhile since I blogged. Lazy to blog as well as nothing for me to blog. Same life everyday. Same nocturnal gaming spree.Until recently.

Slept abit earlier, waking up abit earlier. Somehow, I feel this way makes me feel better. (Though waking up in the afternoon is abit boring as its so hot and I wont wanna go out.) Judo Judo Judo this weeks for the Competition on Sunday. Yeah, yesterday. Sunday.

Inter-Tertiary Judo Championship 2006.
We are supposed to meet at 730 at CityHall o.O , while I woke up at 6 something. and yeah, meeting up with pals at 630. =_= I remembered that I was so excited that I can't sleep..well. Sleepy, teary eyes. Most of them was late for the 630 one.(my pals =D) so, I managed to beg my dad to give me a ride. 5 of us in a Proton car. waha?!

We managed to reach Cityhall in time and meet the rest, then we moved on to SMU. We were even earlier than the coordinators. >_< (Received NYP judo jackets!![made by us, not SMU] ww00t cool~) The games were nice. Just get better with each match. COol throws, great holds. Hmm..well, there are always some bad ones though.

Anyway, I won a gold medal for my catergory. not to be very proud of.

NYP wons alot of medals that day, maybe becus we had many participants. But stil, winning is another thing. =) Celebrated at Zheng Fa. x)) not exactly a celebration. just to fill our stomach. hahax. Played CS after eating with the Judokas. Well, it's fun playing with so many friends. haha. The joy and laughters.

Tired. Happy. =)

Tues

Well well.. yesterday was a fine day. Woke up late. and..was late for Judo. =) no one scolded or anything. ha! =P

Judo training was..well..interesting. hees. didnt really get me all tired. but it does hurt abit. Woke up around 3 something. Felt a sharp pain around my knee when woke up. Must be one of the bad throws someone or two did on me. Blame it on my bad breakfalling. x)) (and I had to miss today's extra training. =/ )

Judo competition coming in the next 2 week. Well, my performance is average, my stamina is unknown. I'm not sure... haha *pause* thinking of the promises she made for me. for the competition. haha sure planned alot that time. just a sudden thought *resume* I wonder how I will fare for it. Any medals? Let's not be over-confident. hees =) but it will suits me better to be that way?

okie..what's that word now.. Sianzationalised. got it. Going Judo does help abit. If only my knee is alright now..

Mondayblues..

Monday..rite.. 2am. Dont feel like doing anything. But it's so boring. Games get boring after some times. What is it that I should be doing to stop feeling bored?

Going out with friends would be a way, but what if all the friends and including you are lazy to. Hmm. Weird. Turning nocturnal already. Sleeping through noon. Waking up at night. Playing games til morning. Yeah. I know some of you will be saying its a boring life. Yeah. I'm starting to feel it already.

Judo training starts again. maybe it will solves this problem, or maybe just lessen it. Come to think of it. Basketball cca for 4 years in sec school. It was never boring for me. But now, basketball..it just feels like..its not the same. Not that much basketball friends to play with. Not that much competition. Not much of training. It felt so different now. But I know when I'm playing it, I am happy in a way. Naturally.

So..is everything else the same for me? I don't know. Dammit. Feeling empty again.

Monday

Ok..Due to popular demands. I'm back.

4 people. =) Good to have this kind of popularity without a need for scandal spamming or mass flaming of people. x))

Anyway, life's the same for me. On the track now. I mean..look. My track happens to belong to a 80s locomotive. It's slow. And waste alot of power. AND will produce alot of noise if you want it to accomplish something like moving from one place to another. x)

Gaming takes up like 70% of my life now. Not professional gaming. Just some weird group of non-sociable guys getting together online to play some no-brainer games to get the satisfaction from defeating and flaming some other non-sociable gays online. Pretty interesting..you will never know..

Great. What should I write now. Maybe I will just end here before I start on my failures for the recent exams.Well. Failures does not mean that I failed, just not getting satisfactory results. =) smiles.

ByeZ.

Monday

How long had it been already..since I blogged.

Haha.. Exam week, study week. Heck care. No mood to study!! wee~ games games games til morning then sleep. x)) Cool. Went out a few times. Well, not that fun. Maybe we chose the wrong activities to do already. LoL!

Sat was Joanna's gathering. Hmm before that I went to play lan with takki and polar. Not bad. Time passed quick. Then after some persuasion, I got them to come with me to Jo's gathering. Whew. Nearly entered Sentosa for no reason. Jo and gangs(plural becus there were really.) were eating at Harbourfront centre.

After that, went to Dhoby Ghaut. -_- planned to go karaoke at a special room which can hold 30+ people. 1500. WHAT!? mesos? NO! S$. what the... went down to Cineleisure Orchard. kk. The gangs split up. Pool. and Kbox. Great.7 ppl 1 pool table. After an hour, our group left. Went to eat macs. The ladies left. A giant came. Great!! Went down to Pardigram for more pool?.. This time..2 table. COol. But was really tired. My EYES BURNED UNDER FLUROSCENT LIGHT?!? wonderful. NR2 and we reach woods. Slept at 8 cuz I gamed. =P hees

Sunday!! Marina Bay!~!~ Woke up at 4? wahaha. Just nice. I was late. so were the guys who went with me. Leo and Polar. =P Zhen Fa!! COok Cook! Lotsa BaconS Lotsa OIL!!! We were deep frying stuffs there. This is new. Ha! Poor prawns. Tortured by Us!!! Oh yeah. This gathering consisted of 5 Judo Guys. No naming.. Arcaded after that. Boring shit! Hate arcades now. (Becus I wasted money and I cant win.) (addon: games are supposed to make you happy..not angry and frustated at the end of the day.)

Went Home. GAMED again!! til morning!!! hees. Then slept til 3pm. W00t. Great. I'm so bored now. Seriously, I need to find more stuffs to entertain myself...but not expensively. Screw YOU POOL!! AND YOU TOO ARCADE!! Maybe my body missed the sweats... Basketball. x)

815pm Monday.

Valentines'

Woot..Tuesday le..

Ha..The test on Friday.. well.. It's fine. Abit slow. Nevertheless, I think it will be an A.

Stayed over at aunt's on Saturday. Played til 5am. Slept til 5pm Sun. Went home. Weekends over.

Monday, missed school due to nuan-ness.

Interesting...Ha? Cant sleep well man. Just lotsa games to distract myself from sleep.

Hees. EPC practical today was crap..=) That's all? The girls brought chocolates for everyone. Sweet. Merci, Hersheys.. x)) Thanks Atirah, Natalia, Diana. Ha!

Happy Valentine's for everyone!..

Wed 0247. Nitez.

Thurs-

ha..Dont think anyone would read my blog..since it had been inactive for so long.

Went to view her blog once more. Maybe I shouldn't have.

Haiz..Need time isn't it. Guess I'm not so tough myself.

Biomodeling test tomorrow. With my capability, it should be an easy task, just hope that my mood won't affect my judgement. =) Os result coming out tomorrow too. Why am stil I bothered about it. stupid xinyi.

I'm tired..but don't feel like sleeping yet. 2am now? ha..go take a shower..

Hey..tag if you read! =)

NewS!

Jasmine Lin Ching Mei and Joseph Ng Jun Wei broke up on the 22th Jan.

Ha..think I have to let everyone know.

I always had that little hope of patching up with her, but now it's already gone. Mistake made maybe I shouldn't had allowed the break in the first place. Another might be I'm not good enough for her.

x) Oh well, that's all. I'm so crap. Impatience. Not ready.

Time to go on with my life..but I will never forget her.

Thanks for the final blow.

Tues..Today

Ha..Busy school today..Went well..just tired..

I think I still like her alot. I do like her alot. Don't ask me to stop wasting my time. Instead I need encouragement. Maybe you think I made the wrong choice. But.. right now.. I can't give up.

What should I do. I'm tired. No. I still can go on. til I lose the strength.

Tues

Hmm, Monday again. So tired.

Some stuffs happened. Well, dont intend to tell it to the masses. So I wont blog it.

Haven't give up yet. Gotta do something about it bah.

Today's lesson = 1hr of Comm skill giving tips for the common test. WoW!
Managed to connect to wireless in school now. Blogging as well as doing some work here.
Anyway, I'm bored. Maybe I will go back to Woods and walk around. ThinK of something bah.

That's all.

Friday

How I wish I have more time..An hour seems so short, morning is short, noon is short, night is short, a day is short, a week is short, a month is short, a year is..well..

Everything seems short to me now. Too busy. And when I have time to think about what I had done. Nothing much. Really. Maybe it's this small bits and pieces of things I manage to do with this short time mass up to something really wonderful at the end of the year. Or maybe when its too late for me to change it. No time limit. You never know when will be enough. I'm not refering to anything in particular but something that is so general that I have no clues about it.

Is it because even if you set a goal, you might change it when you never really hit it. Making it simpler or even difficult, you just never hit it. Change so frequently that, you were never be satisfied.

-paused- think-

Please ignore the above paragraphs. I'm crapping.

NYP opened the house today as well as yesterday. Ha! Took part in it. For my cca. JudO! Woah! Fun! Skipping lesson legally. Look at babes. Look out for shuai guys(potential gay partners) Nah. Wasn't really what I was doing. Just enjoyed the times I spent with the Judokas. Nothing special. In a small dojo. Throwing around. Rehearsing. That alone made my day. Friends. Ha!

Lamerage to the excess, as well as some jokers when we were rehearsing. The Judo performance was nice. Zhonghua Wushu was spectacular. TKD was abit..well...okay..but they do have nice backgrd music. Oh yeah! before that, I went for lesson. Ha! Surprisingly when I can be excused. Did biomodeling. NEW STUFFS! Thank god I went. and I got FULL MARKS FOR THE EXAM TOO!!! ROFLOLMAO!~

After all that, stayed around with a Judo gal and wait for her bf. Well..seems stupid..but she was using my laptop. shun bian had my dinner too.

Now I'm home. Tired out. Tml's PT. Should I sleep? or should I wait for...reply..

End.

Missing..

Wednesday 18th

Yo! Busy busy. Seems to myself that i had gotten back on track now. Not that slack. But am really tired. Is it tiring to be myself? or am I trying to be someone different. =X Anyway, I did say that I will change yeah? ( or did I?..hmm.. )

I went for Judo today again. 2 times in a week! weee! How long has it been? Although I go for lessons now, slack lesser, I stil play games. hahaz Cant stop playing. Oh! rmb I still haven't hand in my organic chem. oh well. heck care (o.0 slacker alert! ) =P

Okie, shall go back to playing game.

Seeya. ya?

Tired.

Monday

Okie..School reopened today. Missed the first lectures (2hrs) but went for the other one.

Kinda pissed my parents off for not going for the first one.

Judo after lesson(2 hrs after). It was a rehearsal for the open house on Thurs, Fri and Satur. It's fun being throw around and throwing people around. Kinda sadistic. Maybe tat's why I love it. x)) My performance = being the aggressor and being thrown by a guy doing self defence arts with Judo. WOW!

Ate dinner after it. Macs. Btw..had my lunch before going 2nd lecture.(like anyone of you would had ask. =/ )

And today ended. 12 midnight. Sleep early then.

(Please tag if you read my blog.)

Holidays

Starting to hate holidays. The pace is completely different. I'm a total different guy during holiday. Should i blame it on the holidays or myself then?.. Hmm.. *deep thoughts*

I'm drained. I have no energy for anything at all. Stil remember the book that I borrowed for Polalion. Talking about energies inside a human's body. Humans gain energies from others' energy. Energies in term of attentions. Good or Bad. Just attentions. Am I lacking from attentions? or had I been giving away too much of my energies?

LoLs! Funny for me phrase it this way. Well, I have no idea. Maybe I'm tired. Drained. x)) This few days. Games and games. Time passed quickly. No complaints. (from me. but there is alot from others.) No dates. No activities. No exercises. Skipping meals. Getting abit sick. Step out of houses once a day only. Life's simple.

Am I such a guy? Somehow or rather, I'm satisfied just like that. Stressless. But it's because of my laptop, because of the network connection,because of the power supply, because of the food, because of the water, because of etc. None are provided by my single-handedly. Just a spoiled brat now.

Good to get spoiled. Good to slack around yet things get done themselves. Good to get sick for reasons to slack. Bad personality. =_=" HA!

Seems to know what I should do for myself.

ANother Break!

Ha! Another week of break now. Actually, it should consider 3rd week of break, as I was slackinng through it. No mood for anything except for games. No mood. Games can really make me forget about the real world I'm in now. Games can be replayed when it was done badly or when you lost it. How relaxing it is.

Been seeking advices from people. LoLS! Interesting to hear from some of my friends. Their theories are good. From breaking up to holding on. Ha! From holding on to looking out for other target. x)) wonder what she will think if I tell her this. =P beetter nooot. lols -pause-

okie..just came back from meeting her. lols. She seems so sianz today. Must be due to too much high-ness the past few days. Rest more!! Im so wet now. The rain is so nice. hmmm..will I get sick? x)

=X

Why do I feel sad when I read her blog. Is it due to the background music? or is it the content? Maybe I should bother myself that much. Stop thinking this much. I do read her blog.

I...

24th XmasEve

Xmas..wow..Xmas Eve plan was to rot at home and see if I will turn into an undead. But Mr polar chua zhao han asked me t go over to Esther's house. I thought there were some kind of class gathering or something, so I agreed to go. Only until i meet him, then he tiold me it will be only 2 of us, and we were suppose to go there listen to carolling.

As we waited, (Carolling party were late.) we ate some scallops. WoW. Nice salty..hmm... We saw how much bikes her dad has, how many consoles they owned, how many HiFi they have in their house. Whew..Then we felt that we should play Xbox console while we waited.

Suddenly! A bang! A boom! The carolling party came silently. (Notice that there isnt any bang or boom.) 40 church members came into the little 4 room flat. wow. Then they sit down at the living room (some left standing,some gotta stand outside, some waited in the kitchen). Christmas Carol. My god. I cant sing. I didnt. =P HEes Listen to one of them talked about Christmas, Jesus coming to the world. ah..boring. the way he spoke. God bless.

After that, we had sme red bean soups. (so did the carollers) then we played Xbox. One round of Metal Slug 4 with zhaohan. If that game were to be played at the arcade, I and him would had spent hundred plus on it. whew. Bored. We take turns to play Star War Lego with Esther on the Xbox. It was fun. But I were sleepy. So I napped. Woke up in an hr time. Played abit. then the game hanged. Oh gosh.. No save. Sob. But I dont mind. SInce im not the one who played for the hr. haha

Sleept til morning. Cold. WOke up. Went to the living room. Slept on the sofa. Esther was plaing maple. wow. no sleep i suppose. hees We left at around 12 after eating some breads. and milo.made by Esther's mom. hees. 25th already. Shall make a new post.

New beginning..

It had been quite awhile since I blogged. I realised this is what I say everytime I blog.

I'm attached now. New beginning. Hmm. It had been 12 days by now. She is so sweet and nice, well, like what I told her, someone I wanted as a girlfriend. We really had fun during the first week, going out everyday together. Talked alot. Played alot. But why am I having such a bad feeling now.

I read her blog. Should I tell her? Sensed from her actions. Am I just too sensitive? Am I assuming stuffs too much? I wonder if she will read my blog. Don't think I wanna confront her with that issue. If it's really a bad premonition, I wouldn't want it to happen. Baka. Now, she's getting busy with her life too. Friends and cca, as well as school too.

It had been a year since... How I wish I can read her mind. =X Don't want this to ... No...

I will just leave it here.

Christmas coming. How should I plan it. What should I do. Been so passive for the pass few years. Man..it's bad. Think harder. I need ideas. hey. if anyone of you read my blog today on the 24th, please contact me or tag me with any ideas. =X So lame. So lame. So troubled.

Blog Blog

Rains! More rain! It's so nice to have a cooling weather. Well, it's cool and it's good for sleeping. Seriously, I can sleep all the way through a rainy day. Oh right, I'm here to write what happened in my life.

Friday-
Schooling as usual. Tough time playing with N3. grrr! School's over and I went to Suntec to meet my dudes. WCG? Seems boring to me. Playing is fun, but....watching?.. oh well. Alicia accompanied me there. Felt bad to have to let her go back on her own. Look: Suntec isn't near to CityHall Station and CityHall Station isn't near to Orchard. Well, she was still early for her date with her dear Michael Brandon Ng. She left on her own because my friends were still lagging abit there. x) Me and dudes(Eienkisu,no nick for him...Jingwei[how abt "Malaysian"=)],Fukushuusha,Polalion) went to Marina Centre to have dinner. And then, lan gaming. and then, home.
End

Saturday-
I played games til early morning and slept all the way til noon. Woke up, had lunch. Slept all the way til evening. Missed jogging by eienkisu. Ate. played games til early morning Sunday. End

Sunday-
Woke up nooon. Ate. Slept. Evening. Missed jogging. Playing. Sian. blog due to request for dsyw. End-ing.

Similarlities eh? yeah. Weekend's boring(to me).

Friday Morning-

Hey, midnight passed.

Thursday really isn't an enjoyable day. My whole body was so stiff. It aches. My head aches. Fortunately, no one trampled on my mood today, if not, I think I would had thrown that chosen one off the building.

Well..think I had overtrained on Wednesday training. My body isn't ready yet. damn it.

I really into Japanese language. Can't say I'm that lazy anymore~!

Anyway, Sayoonaro.

Tuesday

Aloha! Days passed like ....bacteria reproducing..whatever. Querying for any special events that took place. Not that I took noticed of. Except for my Fucked Up stamina after a month of passive smoking. %&^^$*(*&#@..

That Sunday, went out to have a jog with beloved Jiawen[a guy]. I finally realised I'm having problem breathing and my heart aches. Nothing sad happened to me lately. Hmm.. The same thing happened to me during my Judo training last wednesday. Sickening.

Oh! btw, I'm now yellow dan for Judo. NYP Judo that is. Er, Yeah. That's all.

Well did I even wanna mention about it when I don't know what to say. Man! Why am I talking to myself?

Sicking feelings are getting back into my mind. I'm not sure if there is anyone who know what I mean. The feeling. Argh! Maybe I should just concentrate on my works.

Sayoonara!

A week gone.

Time passed quickly this week. Wasted alot of it on game and complaining that I'm very tired. Procrastinator had not been able to finish any homework completely, but did enjoy the process of getting more knowledge. "Hey, maybe I'm not the stupid after all."

I didnt get to see any drastic changes in my friends. A month isn't enough to change someone [in terms of character and appearance]? but some of them got better/different/"unique" hairstyles. x)

=/ I cant think of anything to write. Maybe because I just woke up. Felt like I had been writing craps for the 2 paragraphs. Blog more. Is hard. Aloha.

*Smiles*

4am in the morning, I can't get to sleep. Gonna work full tomorrow too. So I blog.

I went through friendster. I went through the messages. From July 2004 til the time I stop receiving any messages. Time passed so quickly. I had already forgotten what I had said, what I had done for the past months, years. No reminiscence. Abit of regret. Abit of sadness. Abit of sweetness. Abit of agony.

My thoughts went back to the time before the O level. The time when I'm still different. Different from now. I had changed. Woah. How long had I not miss basketball? I misses it. How many friendships seemed to had paused or stopped entirely? I lost counts. How many new ones started? I lost counts too. Have I been losing stuffs? Am I getting better ones?

Hey, I got a job last Christmas. Hey, I'm working at a different place now. Everything had lingered out of my memories. When did I get together with her. When did I broke up with her. No. I should remember it. I should. So many stuffs. Too much. I'm starting to forget even now. I wanted so much to type it all down. What is it that I forgot?

I shall save this in case I forget to. Publish. Bye. Reminiscence. Day by day, moving on.

Work Work! Something for me?

I have been working the hell out of myself for the past 3 weeks already. Some knew. Some doesn't. Interesting. Hmm.

Not much of a free time to enjoy myself, unless if I'm talking about the restless nights I spent playing online with friends. That seems to be the only thing I can do after work. JC promos just ended. So had the secondary's end of year papers. Woah!..

BACK ONLINE!!~

Hey!.. I'm back.

Well..Actually being online for some time already. But, I was busy with stuffs. eg. gaming, chatting, whatsoever-deemed-important-to-me-and-you-need-not-know-stuffs.

I will be working for the whole month next month. Man, I won't be able to enjoy myself through the holidays.

Nothing much to update for now. Life's pretty dry.

Be back soon!

Missed-

Man, I had not been blogging for so long. Nah, I'm not that busy to miss blogging. Well, without a computer, I cant blog. So, if you wanna see me blog, please buy me a computer. Notebook or desktop. Anything? x)

2nd, I don't like blogging on a school computer. hmm, I have other things to do when I'm using a school computer. Reasonable because I wouldn't be in school for nothing. Anyway, I'm in school blogging now because people are so vexed when they cant read my blog after so long. *Famous Lami*

-Examination week-
Yeah, it's the dreaded week again. The study week was brief. Well, 2 days? Nah, 2 days to study? not even 100 days are enough. After all, I have so much stuffs to do. Work, sleep, meals, toilet breaks, etc...... x)) I assume I will be failing 2 papers already. damn. tough life. All hail the security guard for telling me that there will a retest. Whew..M i relieved. hees

-Life-
I'm not having the motivation for anything. Except for working. Except for money. Except for fun. Well, study isn't really my focus now(though it should be). Maybe it's just my excuse for not. I just can't sit down and read something and get it in my mind. 10mins maybe. But for me to finish the whole topic of a module of a course of a polytechnic of Singapore of Mother Earth of the Universe. Okie, maybe I missing some stuffs here. But..Whatever right? I can read your mindsss. So puny. x)) (Please forgive my rudeness . for being so frank. lols. just kidding eh!)

-Now-
I'm in school to rush a project.
I'm in a rush to finish a meal before work.
I SHOULD be in a rush to meet my friend after I eat.
I'm dily-dalying with my blog here.

Ciaos! Miss you all! x))

Back!

Sorry for being out of service for yet so long!

Haha, life's been tiring the past few weeks.. [err...when is the last time I blogged], but it was all time well spent. Man, if only a day isn't 24hrs, I would had accomplished more things. It had been near 20 days since I blogged! Mainly due to the fact that , my computer had crashed on me.

Alright..now to recap on my life for the past 20+ days. If I'm not wrong, I had finished 2 presentations,both badly done. Well, hope I can get some points for wearing formal[and tie?]. LolS! Wooo, it's so nice to hear others saying I look handsome in formal wear.
[I nearly did want to wear formal wear everyday after that. BUT I figured it will be too hot and I don't have much formal wears to change into every different day.]

Seriously, last minute projects won't end up well. Well, I went for Judo. and Judo. and Judo. Well, I think I skipped some. LoL. Had to rush my last minute project? and some gaming? and...? x) Judo, I'm starting to lose my urge for it. [My skills had been losing the standards.] I shall start getting serious with it. haha.

Last Saturday, it was physical training(PT) for Judo. 10 in the morning in school? Man..My mind was rejecting the idea of going in the first place. But the thoughts of training with my Judo pals, my body came first. x) I was late [ as usual]. How cute. Four people came for training. FOUR?! and that included ME!? Man! Where is everyone else? damn it. Er, and one thing..our trainer,Mr Dennis, was late too? LoL!

The PT includes a 2.4km run[record now:11.53], pull-ups[record:3? x)], err..Im not sure what to call that. Lifting logs? er, the one you usually get to see at the physical corner. [record now: 14...(it's heavy, and I had to do it continuously)], Sit-ups(20x3),Step up(20x3), Squats(20x3). Haha, and in some sets of sit up, we had to twist our body. Complain: Why do I have to carry the heavy log though polalion is bigger?!. Complain: Why cant I rest like polalion? x) okie..well.. Polalion did complete his first 2.4km run. hees. Im glad. But I guess it drained all of his energy for him to do anything else, as he skipped all. lol

After PT, we went for a short break at Macs, then we went for a swim. It was only a dip fortunately, and it was fun playing in water[and in rain]. [Raindrops feel like bullets(or pins) on the skin.] We had lunch after that, and I left them, to join Mr Dennis(well, let's just call him Dennis) for basketball. I must be nut to promise him that I will be going for basketball. I played well in the first few games. Top scorer-cum-rebounder and stuffs but during 5v5 game. I start having cramps. Thighs and calves. Damn it! Lost all those matches because of it.!!!! [I'm turning vengeful.] I reached home at 12.30am that day.

The next few days was a horrendous experience for me. My thighs are tight, my body is aching and well, some bruises here and there. I can't use the stairs comfortably. I can't move around that much. I'm tired. Luckily, there wasn't any physical or strenous activities for me.

This is too long already! Thanks guys and girls for tagging. I will blog again soon!

Busy-_

Whew, it's nearly 3am now. Alright. Blog. I have to apologize for not blogging for so long, as I was training hard. x) I took part in And1 3on3, so I trained everyday. Hey, I missed out on lots of stuffs because of it. Especially my Judo classes. (I must be hated by them now.)

Okie...People who know me, I have to apologise for not able to recap on what I did the past few, really few, days(S). As you know, my brain isn't big enough (due to a thick skull) though my head is big. Rubbish shall be trashed.

-Sunday-7/8
And1 3on3.At Downtown East D'marquee. What can I say. We lost. But man, I was really boring. I woke up early in the morning. Registered. Played the first match. Man! It was challenging! Their center is(I think he stil is thus the present tense) bigger than me. Stronger than me. Well, but I think I can jump higher and last longer(stamina ^.^"). I was trashed around by him. WooHoo! They dominated the first half. Yet, I was so relaxed. *Smile*
-Pause-
Comments on the basketball court, hoop and scoring system:
The damn court was damn damn slippery. The hoop and board absorb shocks.(Whack the ball on the board as hard as you want! It will go in anyway.) Scoring system..1 point when you are in nearer to the ring and 2 points when you shoot, well, around 1.5m away from the ring. What the heck! Give me a normal non-slippery court with a semi-circle 3-point line instead of a square and normal scoring system!
-Resume-
2nd half, we scored first by shooting 1.5m. Gradually, with me jumping and pushing around, we managed to cut down the lead. In the last second, I managed to score a 2point which tied the game. Penalty free-throw shootout.
-Pause-
We are allowed to shoot once at free throw line each. Final score determines by which team scored more.
-Resume-
Okie. I missed. The big guy missed. Their small guy missed. Jingwei hit! Their forward missed. We wON! Who cares, Fukushuusha hit the 2nd ball.

After that, their rowdy forward came to look for some little troubles. Jingwei, well I think he pushed him accidentally(?), are confronted. Com'on! Rowdy tried to elbow me in the game too. But he missed (-.-"), which caused him to be blocked by me! WahHa! I wondered why he didn't confront me. (Because he's smaller[size/age/maturity] than me?) Team Experience [we shall not be called the ballers(sounds like ball-less)] ignored him totally. He tried a flying plastic bag attack but it nearly hit a bo-chap camera man. x) He walked off, and then came back later with a prejudice for guys who squat to urinate. (Please ignore/ask me for details on this)

The 2nd match takes place 2 hours later. (WTFCUKTV!!) I was sleeping. Man. No mood to win anymore. Don't bother to talk about it. End! Team Massacres won. Not the worst name there. Team Bo Co Len?

3rd match. I checked the scoreboard, due to the walkover of the 1st team for the other 2 teams, we had definitely lost the group. So, we decided to have a friendly match with team You Yi! (Aww, Friendship or Yaoi ?) Okie, we lost. They have a nice shooter, but if I had wanted to win, their center doesn't stand a chance.(Objections, anyone?)

Wee, then we went home. At 5? 3 games only? From 9am to 5pm? Whatever. We enjoyed a nice shower.(individually) Ate at CWP then went home. We had wanted to LAN that evening. LoL!

Friday-8/8
School! Boring! PC surprise test due to overwhelming result for assignments. (What the heck?! Assignment scores was removed.) LAN at school. Computer programming. BORING!! LAN at school. Then, I went home early to argue with my brother. NO! I just wanted to do my project with the freaking computer! Bought dinner on the way home.
-End-

Tuesday-9/8 REACH OUT FOR THE SKIES~ 40yrs old lao bei bei!
Morning. Sleep. Afternoon. Slack. Evening. LAN. Night. Project work. Midnight til now. Project work + blog. After now. Sleep! + wash face + brush teeth + slap my brother on the bed + log off.

Nights~! Hi TriciA~!

Man-

Today's sucha boring day. I woke up considerably early around 11am. First thought : "Aren't I suppose to be at my friend house doing project?" Okie...slack off...Go online, talk to Vincent and tell him I will report to work at 12. Work = project.

OMFGBBQ(Oh My Frail Goat is Being BarbeQued)!! I'm going to hate my subject. So damn hard to find research materials online. (Maybe not enough efforts eh?) After awhile, I nearly fell asleep. So, I and Vincent decided to play some games, yeah? Just some. Around an hour plus. Hmm. Project ended at 3. Woah!

Then I bid Vincent goodbye. Dear Koksiang who was meeting me for basketball, called me to buy lunch for him. Apparently, he just woke up but yet readily agreed to play. Today, my body doesn't feel right. I showed such a noob me on the court. Hmm, must be because of my weak opponents. (hwahaha!)

Left basketball at around 6 and went to M'sia with my family. Man, we were stuck at the Causeway til 9? (and, it was jammed at the Singapore Custom. WHERE IS THE EFFICIENY OF SINGAPORE?) We got through Malaysia Custom within 10 minutes. If I was rich enough, I would had complained. (LOL!) Bought lots of movies and food there. W00t! I also bought Initial D soundtrack. nice. Tanning in your sunray. I like that song.

I watched one of the movie already. Really nice. Hmm. Well, that's all. Nitex.

GFGFGFGFGFGFGFGFGF!!!!!

Why-

It had been raining the past few days.
It's so cold that I covered myself with the blanket.
It's cold, yet I switched on the fan.
It feels even better now, under the blanket.
Rain stopped.
I threw the blanket on the floor and bathed myself under the warmth.

Had anyone see what had I really wanted to write?

Not really a sudden thought, but after reading Ruoying's blog.

Cherish and treasure. Love?

When we are down or lacking of attention, we will seek someone that will definitely be there. The blanket?

It feels so good with the attention of that someone. Warmth?

But we want more, we will make ourself seems poorer. Appearing all alone and left out on the outside, yet crying for more attentions and love inside our hearts. Isn't it getting colder?
More and more attentions followed, and soon we won't need someone to provide us with it anymore. There are other sources. Sun?

We will start to forget who that someone is. Someone who we had all been using. Someone who is different for everyone of us. Is someone on the floor now?

Pick it up and fold it please.

Forgotten!!

Whew, I had been busy the past week. Stressed out.(Not really) Just too much stuffs needed to be done. There's just isn't enough time for me to enjoy and do work at the same time eh? Unless if I'm calculating work=force*distance. Is this the correct formulae? *Ponder...* Whatever. By the way, I created another blog to place my pics. This template doesn't seems picture-friendly. I linked it. www.lamimage.blogspot.com

I had planned to blog what I had done and experienced the past few days, but my brain doesn't seems to have being working on those respective days. (or maybe my highly-evolved brain cells had filtered out nonsenscial stuffs of the days,which means most of.)

Thursday, went lan-gaming after school. End.

Vaguely remembered about Judo training. Definitely needs to polish up my skills. This is friday. End.

Saturday! Some sort of Appreciation Day at WGS. I went back because of my many friends going that day. But didn't get to talk much to them. Is that why I'm so down that day? Disappointed? Thanks Ruo Ying(I took a pic with her. oh chio!) and some friends who had noticed this. Maybe I'm tired too. I had a small gathering with a small group of friends.
At CausewayPoint. We had lunch together, but some of us ate during the refreshment time in school. Sat down and talked. Mr Wong(former english teacher) came to ate with us. Woo..Nice..Pastamania. Normal pasta with good sauce. ha.. Then we went to talk neoprints(?!?!?),regretably, Mr Wong had left. So, we took without him. Neoprints are just too small to hold 8 persons at a time? Eien kisu isn't noticable in those puny neoprints.(No, I didn't put the neoprint up. Too small. Plus I'm lazy to plug in my scanner.) After that, I gay-ed around with Jyass,(Picture at lamimage.blogspot.com*wont repeat the add again*) which was requested by RuoYing after taking pictures with me.Then, it was pool which I was too down to play properly already.
More friends stumbled upon us while pool, then I went to play basketball with them. Pool ended when everyone left, which is when "More friends" arrived. Trained 3-point shootings with them.(Hoping to go to the And1 3on3.) Not in the best condition as the ground is stil wet due to a prior rain. I got the best score in the end.
Played WC3 after basketball. Lancraft screwed up. Cant play with Polalion. How sad. So, it was only me and ks who played the whole night til 5am. End?

Sunday. Nothing much. Missed project time. Basketball.(shucked.I shouldn't had stopped playing for such a long time.) WC3 which cant worked again. Blog. End.

Thank you for reading such a long, tedious and boring blog entry. I'm too bored to make it interesting eh? I had also left out lots of details. Chat with me if you want to know? Last time, contradicting myself, I created a blog for images which I had updated too. www.lamimage.blogspot.com <--GO!

I need a girlfriend. Told by someone. LoL. I want love. Nitex.

Popularity-

Wow, my tagboard was flooded by Mr Eien Kisu. I shall present "Most Bored Young Tagger of the Week!" award to you. Thank you~ Thank you~

Hey Mr. Brightside, I think I'm just lucky to have kind lecturers and teachers wherever I go. Not that strict with me. Whew~! It happens when I start my day without a goal. It will be lonely me, going alone to school. Nah, no enthusiasm to start of my day. I would take more time styling my hair than showering. haha~ =X Brightside, let's organize a late coming party sometime soon(late) kaes?

I shall apologise to Pucca for forgetting who he/she is. I remembered your name but.. Oh well!~ =) Forgive me, my lovely.........tagger. Happy blogging~

Anyway, to the prestigious winnner of the week, I really didn't blog because you said it's fun, ya know? (I SHALL FLAME YOU!!!) I just start to blog when I'm bored, and there you are tagging me, pushing me on to continue blogging. Well, the effort isn't solely yours, but you sure helped abit. *Smiles*

By the way, is there something wrong with my English? Either here or my spoken? Which one is better, which one is worse? Eien Kisu, I'm very much affected by your tag reminding me of my failure during 'O's English. Well, I'm trying to improve on it. Thanks alot, my lovely...gay partner cum winner of the week.

--->blog of the day<----
Monday- Physical Chemistry(PC) and C Programming(CP) Tests
Well, I slept at 0400 this morning and finally woke up at 0830. As usual, I were watching Slamdunk (man! let me finish it!) and studied abit for PC.(A miracle? Ha!) As usual, I were late for my first period,(around 20mins) which was my PC test! *jawless* fortunately, they started late. They were waiting for us!!!! Nice lecturer again. Brightside, see? (wahahah!) I managed to brush through the test due to some revisions on the MRT.

After PC, we had our break then it's our CP test. I had no idea about it til I met some of my hardworking classmates. *No sweat* The test was easy except for one question which we rarely practice in class. Other than that, I don't think I will have any other hiccups. End.

Oh yeah! My dad's new car came. Proton Singapore. Wooo! Better-looking than the previous car, nice colour, spacious seatings and quiet engine. Nothing else that I can ask for. I had some weird feelings though. The car feels lower to the ground. Is this some ways to lower the CG or something? *Imagine getting scratched on the butt by the ground when it goes too low* Physics! Lovely!
And my family were trying to figure out how to insert a cd into the cd player.
"Can't find the hole"
"Don't anyhow press laarh~!"
"Read the MANUAL LARRRRRRRH!~~~"
*...........*
I, the genius of the family, managed to figure it out in the end. *Victory sign!(V)*

ZzzzZ, I'm still missing 2 hours of sleep. ByE!

Clarify-

Epitaph : Wished I hadn't been late.
I was referred to as The late Joseph on Friday by Mr Leeck.(nice name) Interesting lecturer. Hmm. No elaboration. I lost all drives this week. It was the end of the week already, yet it still feels like I had only been through one day of polytechnic. I can't absorb anything in class, usually late for the first lesson, and can't help but sleep after 15 minutes of lecture. I'm pretty screwed up, cause the tests are just around the corner and I still have some projects on my hand.

Hey..Someone help me.. I need to re-learn whatever that was taught this week. I seems to have lost the knowledge of the past few weeks too. Had I been reset? Darn it! Or am I missing something important in my life? Sleep? or Fun? I realised that some days, even if I didn't get enough sleep, I can still survive throughout the day without any rest. I guess it had to be the Fun part. Argh! Boring stuffs get out of my way!

Oh..By the way, I think I should clarify on some stuffs. Some or alot of people are thinking I'm attached now or something. Okay..I'm not. Firstly, I didn't "jio" anyone, neither female nor male. (Imma gay/sway ge. By the way, sway = unlucky.) Dawn, get it in your head!!! xP Seeing me eating lunch with some girl-friend doesn't mean she is my >girlfriend<. Neither is taking train home together or sitting together. Dotzz..seriously, they are not that fortunate to have me as boyfriend. ( I'm living in an inverse world of my own. xD *Trying to say that I'm not that fortunate,kaes?* )

Haha..yeah.. I know some of you are just trying to make fun of me. But some seems serious. Lol. Anyway, I wrote this partly due to nothing better to write eh?? as well as letting those serious dudes know. Whew, so continue to make fun of me with which ever girl. ha! It's fun yeah? *though childish hees :D *
Tata~

*SIngLeBoi*

Frequency

Ha! I seems to be attracted to blogging nowadays. The frequency of me blogging is going up. That's rare. Maybe I'm just getting bored. Or is it that I want to express my opinions here?

It's already late now. I'm finally feeling sleepy. It's a good sign. My life's getting busier. Less time rest..More stuffs to do. *grumbles* Maybe, I should take blogging off my "list of stuffs". Maybe.

Wednesday,
I lost some sleep due to Slamdunk again. Sleepyhead went out to eat with mom, and then lectures. The feeling is nice. I managed to hold back my sleepiness in class. Ooooh, it explains why I'm tired now. *Remove "sleeping in class" from "list of stuffs"* I nearly thought I had a mild case of insomia. Ha. Excuses. Judo was fun. Tough training today, but I enjoyed it. Ack. Gi stinks today, maybe because I didn't let it dry thoroughly. My bad. Compared to monday, I think I perspired more that day. Randori, I should try it often. *I think I'm having a serious case of talking to myself* Something interesting happened today after training. Everyone "pang seh" the sensei during dinner. WahAhA~! I enjoyed staying together with cca members after training now. I don't remembering having this much fun during my basketball cca in sec school. Gatherings and dinners together. Jokes and craps. Love and hentai. *WaHaHa!~* Cool bunch of people. Diverse my life.

NiteX~
*canseeaddiction2thou.waitin'4withdrawal* Uncertain...

Changes

:4am Monday 11-Jul-05:I was wanting to write about the book "The Celestine Prophecy" but my internet explorer had an error. Not wanting to waste the time to rewrite the whole stuffs, so I didn't. Anyway, I'm wondering if I should be writing in perfect English or should I stick to my old style of writing. Yeah, yeah, I know my command of English still sucks now and my grammars, writing and stuffs are still "gabra~ish!". (Hey gabrille..err..forgot how to spell le) I would be writing something like the way I had wrote in the bracket. Fun..............especially the .............. dots.

Anyway, I know my previous article sounds abit depressed. (It should you know, if not, it must be due to my command of english. haha) It seems to cause some of my friends worry about me. My aloof worked. Feeling better now. (Right? Pola? I think you are the only one who know what I mean here.) Thanks girls. I said that because my guy friends didn't express anything. (ha-ha) Girls are nicer. (THEY ARE!!) It's also partially due to the book polalion lent me. The Celestine Prophecy. I mentioned it earlier.

Since that article and the book, I starts to see things differently. Different perceptions. I should start changing myself. Expressing myself seems to be good. I think it will come out of me subsequently.(It's tiring to type like this.) The week ends with me going home alone, having nothing to do in school. I didn't go for the Judo session because I figured it might be boring. Photocopied 2 thick biomedical books for my project. Together with my leader. We were *pang seh* by the other group members.( %d^@&%c*&@@!include ) On the way to the station, I bumped into Wanshi and Xiaoyun. haha(cant hold back anymore.) They nearly convinced me to head back for Judo. Too bad for them, they will need someone else to pull me back. That's all for that day. Boring eh?

Saturday, I watched Slamdunk with my brother til I fell asleep at..around 5am. And yeah, I'm meeting people for project at 2 the next day. For no apparent reasons, I woke up at 10 in which I can't fall asleep after that. I only feel the fatigue when I was taking the train with my friend to Serangoon.(Going there to do project) Biomaterials project..tough.. 3pm..til 6-7pm..slogging.. Once again, I could feel the fatigue coming back. After that, we rushed off for our friend's birthday party. Happy Birthday Nicholas! LoL! Pretty late, cause it started at 6. We reached there at 8.30. And due to the loss of the address slip, we had to call him mutiple times before we finally figured out how to go his house. Boon Keng. Bendemeer Road. Remote to us. wahahaah~ I guess I missed most of the fun. I didn't feel that fun there. It's a party isn't it? Not as crazy as the birthday boy. Wahaha! Anyway, some people came at 9+. haha good for them! There's still food around!~ LoL Everyone left before 10+. I was thinking that they would stayed or "ton" or something like that. But I guess everyone have their own life. haha.. Just enjoy the company. (Weee..there is like 5 rabbits in his house. Whoa..It's comparable to my 26 hamsters in 2 cages. LoL. Cute animals.)
The day ended with me taking taxi home with my friends.

Sunday, early morning(12am-6am) , as usual I watched Slamdunk with my lil' brother. He fell asleep. I fell asleep. Simple sequence. I woke up early again. After doing the usual stuffs, I ate breakfast.(breakfast is not included in usual stuffs) I wonder how I survived til the evening without enough sleep, but I did. I fell asleep, watching Slamdunk during the eveing. The thunderstorm was terrific. *Eh..wake up..eat your dinner..if not I eat for you..* I was woke up by that sentence. LOL! 12am already..monday? or tuesday? Finally..got back all my sleeps from the previous days. Man..growing fat from all the supper-like dinner. Dinner for me is usually after 9pm. Lunch? What's lunch? you mean Breakfast? I had it at 11am.

Monday 5am, so I'm here now concluding my entry. LoL. Maybe I should go back to sleep. I had been watching Slamdunk before I came to blog. Full of life eh? That's all peps.

Solitary - Comfort Zone

Sometimes I feel that when I'm alone, I will become stronger. Emotionally. But, there will be an urge to find someone familiar. Someone I knew for some time. It happens when I'm not with my new friends. Everytime, when I want to try out something new, I will start asking my new friends for opinions. They affect my decisions. Something different from what I originally wanted to do. Regrets came in later. Wilful or not. Clever or not. Don't I want to make my own decisions?

When I'm left out, alone. The time which I make my own decisions. I do things that I had wanted to do. Instead of me sticking around my friends. Different things happened. For a moment, I'm happy. Then, I felt lonely. I wanted companions who share my ideas, who support my decisions, support me. I would look through my contacts, searching for someone who I can find, who I think will be there for me.

Family doesn't come into mind. It's my friends. Old friends which had went through years with me. Calls and short messages. Then I waited. Looking around me, I felt even lonelier. I feel like going with anyone beckoning me. Someone called me. My heart filled with hope. Hoping it was someone who was close to me. But it was someone new in my life. Someone who had pushed over my decisions. Is it time for me to let go?

Not that lonely anymore. But why? Don't I miss them? Didn't I just hoped for them? Someone called me because he just need someone to be with him til his special someone comes. Why do I care? Wasn't he just using me? Or is he lonely too? I am. But wouldn't I be alone again, after his someone comes? I will be.

I left alone. Holding on. Nothing. I wanted to see no more. Closed my eyes. Trying to make myself oblivious to anything. Anything that will make me appears to be a nonsocial. That day, I snuggled back into the warmth of my home. Early.

*Solitary - Comfort Zone*

Where had "you" been?...

2nd Week(End)

-End of Week-
Came to realised that my course had been such a snail. I'm hearing about projects from friends from other courses already..and here..we are still going through the basics. Hmm..oh well..Sure like that phrase..Suits someone like me. =)

Maths module suck big time, though the lecturer is damn nice and cute. but sometimes, he's just like that module.period. C++ programming is fun, but I just cant help sleeping. -,-" Manufacturing Engineering module seems redundant..for now? Had to cram with other people from other Engineering course.Meaning--> late and you shall sit on the floor. It's getting better already. People is pon-ing the lecture..so we can sit now. CoOl..isn't it? xD I shall not bother to talk about the rest. I'm tired.

My class...Hmm..I can clearly see the different clicks of people..there's around 5 different gangs..xD *that doesn't sound nice* xD I'm one that run around the groups. LoL! But it's quite tiring? Sometimes I would be a loner and walk alone. Somehow, I had that feeling that I'm the strongest when I'm not with friends. I have the tendancy to rely on friends. I wonders if that's a good thing or bad. I just wishes that someone will come forward and walk by me when I walk alone. =)

-Club crawl-
What a weird name for cca day. LOL~! I joined basketball, archery, judo, akikido..well maybe kayak too. errh..it's selection for now..I think..It's abit too much if I join so many..rite? xD Cool..wanna try it out. It's good to learn some martial arts. I can bash people up! WOoo~*Not true* Just hopes it starts soon..Make me a busy man..

As for Basketball, there's a selection. Well.doesnt matter much to me? I'm confident!! xP Even if not.. I can still join outside teams..which are stronger? ha!~ Well..hadn't been playing serious basketball for so long..til today (friday!!) Met my former team..Whye Nam..Now known as Admiralty Zone1 RC..Lol..Played 5v5 match..Nv felt this kinda of fatigue and challenge..I was wok-ed so many times..=D *wok = huo guo = rejected* Nevertheless, I scored some.

I'm suffering from the after-effects of serious bball games..Legs feel like it's cramping anytime. Body feels like it's burning from fever. stink? The last one solved easily by showering. xD wahaha~ bleh sucks..but really enjoy feeling this way..hees

Anyway..Ciaos..I will most likely update on weekly basics...Esp end of week..see how it will be done bah...=) haa

Paisehx everyone..Project Orientation Day 2 and 3 were taken off the shelf due to my laziness..Days had passed. *Smiles* Who's Pucca? LoL

Anyway.."girl-friend"..so nice of you to tag me..as well for Dawnie..hees Im bored..

Anyway..School's first week had started and ended..everything went well. I think.. Lessons are still as slack..Im slacking as well.. Drawing..because lessons are going too slow. Well, they are kind enough to think for those people who didnt take pure sciences and Amaths..Sweet people..And yeah! Some of my hateful subjects reappeared.

Amaths or is it Cmaths..Trigo and stuffs..oh well..guess I had to make an effort for it. Really dont wish to restart the module. Freak..Bio was alrite though..interesting stuffs..much more interesting than Secondary school. But Chemistry is like OMFG! 41 slides in less than 50mins..Although I coped..after a week..I had already forgot about it..man..I should just die. Spare me from the agony.

Friendships in school are also sailing well..Not much of a storm yet..peaceful. Heard lotsa stupid backstabbing stories from JC friends. Oh well. Pray that that doesn't happen here. w00t. Basketballed with some friends. Missed some activities due to a haircut. ha. and well.. old friendships are still surviving. All the nice ex-WGS..whew..

Anyway..hmm..ok..that's about all. Thanks~ Ciaos

=D

Orientation Day 1
Man..Today is a pretty nice day. Reporting there at 8.30am, woooo.crowded at the MRT station, and it reeks of smokes. Can they not smoke while waiting..oh man..whatever. Had quite a tense emotion because I had no one with me. Well..No friends came with me.. Oh well. I forgot to ask. So I went in blurrishly..not sure what to do. Managed to get my way to the counter that gave me a 02 sticker and a freaking thin strip of paper saying that it's important to keep it. *IMPORTANT?!?! WHY'S IT IN STRIP!* Yeah..We had to keep that for Goodies..GO DIES LAH! I think it's a trick..maybe they think we will lost it somewhere because it's small and they can forgo our goodies..MUST BE IT! xD

After the counter, I was made to wait behind it. Apparently, there is'nt enough sits. Errrr? What the heck? Then we were moved to other location, due to more and more BME(biomedical Engineering) people coming. Then we were moved again..towards the auditorium *Hmm..sits?* and made to wait outside. -.-""""" Wasn't that bad. Talked to a guy beside me. Hmm..not bad..we can click..xD Became the best friend I had that day. Wonder if it's the same tomorrow. =D *Talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk* We were moved inside the auditorium! yeah~ sitting on the stairs! w00t! *Talk talk talk talk talk* THEN we were sit at the mechatronics section..hmm..Gotta know a big guy called Robin..he's 189? and...really BIG guy..xD First realised it when I looked at his knee level..hmm..higher than me..gees..

Gone into the presentation..The whole place is cold..emotionless..The MC looked abit awkard up there. The audiences were silent. Freaky. Sakuran performing Jap cultural dances..Not bad..Then there is this guy..Forgot his name..well he's in Project Superstar top 24..as he says..Not bad..Singing wise..Looks good..hmm..He sang better in English than Mandarin. Good luck to him. After that..a pretty lame opening..and then.. dismiss..we were to tour with our group! Oh yeah!..after awhile..a long awhile..we released that we were abandoned..by the main group..that's lame! Freak..what the heck..LoL.."we" is a group consisting of 12 people I think. ha!
blah...Im tired of typing already...
tired..
tired..
tired..
Continue it together with Orientation Day 2
Nights...

ok

Thinking about it again, it's kinda stupid to just write one line after so long. I can feel the guilt.

Just a moment ago, I was thinking I should go get some sleep or something likewise. Guess I'm pretty much bored at home.

Alright..took some time and read zhao..polalon's blog. Orientation seems interestings, but I'm sure I cant sing like you did. XD I mean it. *evil grins* I did like the part where I can actually make friends. ha! because after all, most of the secondary school friends had went on their on pathes. *sobx* -,- I'm getting hysterical. ha..

Nevertheless, we did a small gathering at zhao...polalion's house on Saturday. Well interesting I guess. I was sleeping til 12pm. Woke up..and started downloading mangas. Then, Zhao..lion call me, asking me to go his house..that's nice. I thought. After that , I checked my phone. I saw fushaSiang sms-ed me. Or is it Eien Wen..Not sure so I called FushaSiang but he didn't answered. *anyway, Im supposed to go to zhaolion house by 1pm* Pissed off..but blaming myself..should had woke up earlier.haha Anyway, I was late when I reached there..2.30? That's more than an hour. But that's me. Hopefully, they hold no grudge against me. SOO I saw JiaKisu and FushaSiang there. I didnt know earlier. In the sms, he told me they are going to library.

So we watched Battle Royale 2 at his house. *There is girls there too, we are not gayish enough to gather with girls* *I guesses....zz* Xinyo, Kaiyun and Lynard were there too. ha..Haven't seen them for quite some times already. Xinyo was bored through out the movie. ack! Come to think of it..BR2 has more story to it than BR..kinda enjoying it..wonders why Xinyo don't..maybe she likes to say more bloodsheds. *PSYCHOTIC BITCH!! ^#%!! * But she's the kindest. Took a picture with me eh. Appreciate that gestures even if she deletes it later. xD Oh yeah..I'm going through the story of BR2 because I don't wanna spoil any of my readers about BR2. Go get it from Polahan if you want, ok?

That's pretty much all. I had been screwing with names and nicks this time. ZiaO~!

Yawn

2 more days til my orientation..finally, my life will move on to another stage.

Bio med

Ok..I got into Biomedical Engineering. Im happy about it. Im lucky as nothing bad happened to me. I handed in the enrolment forms. That's all. Eien Kisu wil like this short blog entry. *off*

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OmiGosH! Why do I feel that my blog is lonely..Hmm Anyone coming anymore..Hoping for people to tag me or leave some comments you know.. haha if not.. This blog wil die from an uncurable disease known as Depression.
Dont crap with me about how blog cant be depressed because they dont have emotions k? Cause I wil tell you " I said it was an uncurable disease because I cant find a correct emotion to cure it" LOL!! *Just bored*
Oh..Anyway..Just reformatted my computer.. w00t! finally..My computer's period is over.. hope it wont come back next month..xD Damn Jiawen..Nearly thought you screwed up my computer..But thanks anyway..None of my other friends help..man! Leave me when I'm in distress! F**k All Off **u! K** C** Wt*!!!!!! w00t! Ping! Muack!
Hey dude! There's really nothing important going on in my life! so i wil just end here! if you want details of my pathetic life, please contact me sometimes later. Tagboard!

Sick

Damn mY computeR..Alright.. It's just old I guesssss.. 128 ram..slow..so what's the use of this computer? Damn dAmn daMn! Will need money to get a new computer..

Fine forget it..Well.. Long time since I blogged. And Yeah! I cant get into Mechatronics Engineering due to my colourblindness.. Why in the hell do you give me the stupid subject for? STUPID NYP! I was told by the doctor to go to NYP to get a letter of exemption for my CB! (colourblind kaes? xD ) if not he wil hadda fail me, which he did... of course i wont get any letter from the NYP stuffs! (staffs) Com'on! I hate the security dudes..now I hate the admins STUFF! Unclear instructions...Lousy systemS!

Event:1
I went to NYP THAT day for THAT issue. k..I thought Singapore's technology wil be advanced enough that I wont need to bring my colourblind cert to NYP..alright..then I didnt. Why cant you guys computerise everything? since you want us to do most of our (singaporeans) applications for whatever shit online? I was told I cant look for the admin officer by the reception stuff if I dont have proof.. then he tells me a joke.. "although I didnt mean that I dont believe you, I cant if you dont have the cert" what in the hell does it mean? so I returned home..Woodlands tO Yio Chu KAng then vice versa? how much does that cost for adult fares already?

Event 2:
So I returned to NYP with the cert, smiling like I had brought some very important stuff along.(did i? hmm) Ok... I was made to waited for half an hour for the receptionist to find the admin officer.. Then I was told I wil had to bring my stupid medical report too? again? but I haven't get my report yet? damn NYP.. Put me on hold for so long...made me waste on fares.. not to mention that I had a bad impressions of the security there already? Whatever it is.. I just wasted time and efforts.

Event zero:
This should be typed before event 1.. This is due to the services at SATA(N) clinic..In short.. I wasted alot of time and urines there..LoL!!

or yeah! I did a naruto quiz! xD

You scored as Genma. You’re Genma, one of the top Jounin in Konoha.You’re calm and collected – in one word, cool – and remain so even when it’s a matter of life and death. People generally respect you and trust. No wonder you get to do the most difficult missions. Genma 94% Hinata 94% Iruka 75% Rock Lee 75% Naruto 69% Shikamaru 63% TenTen 63% Kakashi 63% Neji 56% Sasuke 31% Which Naruto ninja are you most like? created with QuizFarm.com

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Omg... a week had passed le..eh.more than that.. SOrRy..Time passed too fast that i didn't notice i didn't blog
Anyway there is much things to do nowadays..I miss going to school.. BUT I don't wanna work..Whew..

After I got the result for the posting, I had been procrastinating about whether I wanna appeal. Alright, I got the letter typed out. After making it sounds so fabulous, I realized I need to get it print. So I brought it to my friend's house to print. Alright! Nicely done. Oh then I got an envelope there. Nice friend.. What's next nearly cause me to jump out of the window, not to commit suicide.. but to rush for time. I had to rush back home to get the address of the place I want to send.Changed my mind later when I saw the time nearing 5pm. No point!

I figured that next day, I shall bring it personally to the office. Yeah! that should work! After procrastinating for the whole morning, I and my friends reached there at 3. Wooo... The gates closed at 2pm..WHAT?! 2pm!..OH!!! TODAY..THAT DAY WAS SATURDAYYyYY! But hey, there's a nice guy there that helped me open the gate and let me in.. whew..Nice poly student.. Went in.. I took 10mins in there looking for the office. Then I realised that the office is closed during weekends.. "#%@^@&#*#$%#" ran thru my mind. Then I thought of an ingenious plan.. Heh heH!

We waited at Security post..me thinking of asking the security to pass the letter for me. Well he came and the first thing in his mind is to shoo us of.. as we are in the sight of the security cam..what the hell..so I should stay at wher the cam cant see me? what's this? A stealth mission. Then, I asked if he can keep the letter til mon and hand it up for me.. "We wil not be responsible for any loss..balblbalblalb" DOT! what a reply.. Trust you to look after the school. Fine..so we left and walked around AMK..

End of Procrastination.

Slacking the next few days, reflecting on what I had did..Ohh..Right...

19thFeb[edited]

Nice day..
Havent get my PaY..
Went Out...
Played Ball..
Tanned....
Had Fun..
That's All...[edited]

19thFeb

Nice Day..Went Out..Havent get my pay..But Had Fun..Tanned By Sun..That's All

Connecting 24th

Oh yeah..No one taGGed me..SadzMaruuuuu.. Maybe i wrote sth so old..Anyway.. this few days is fun..Kept busy by friends..

ChiTian seems to be revived.. sorta.. as we gathered again to play in school. Tiring but fun.. after that went lan-ing..after that more bball.. Fun.. Guessed everyone got tired out..Just heard that we wil be playing again this saturday.. Oh ya! kick me!

Hmm..Someone was with me again..but why am I feeling indifferent..

ANyway, I wil be going to be able to connect on the 24th.. Able to continue with my second life. Polalion wil be glad? First of all, I won't be using his comp.. Then, I will be able to play games with him online.. Third, ah..uhhuh,, Fourth..#$%^&$721.. =D Hmm..whether if alot of people misses me..haha and..well.. i forgot about some.. damn..

Fine! BYE!SIAM LA!!! POLALION AND SIAO KISU..DIAM!?

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Fine. I finally did something to my blog. Do you guys like it? But from the tons of negative comments on my tagboard, i guessed not. Haha! I just want to give myself some cuteness, cant I? Sadxz..
Nevermind, I wil change the background again when I find a cuter one? Sure. Just remember I'm CuTE!
Finally stopped working for the 'poor' SHENG TAI TOYS, who can only afford me $5/hr pay rate. I might as well work for other brands. LoLx wil employers read my blog?...NO! That's good. Hey friends, how did you guys get to find all those nice paying jobs ah? like $6/hr ones? near to home too.. Cant stand travelling all the way to a far working place and get tied down by all the stuffy regulations from a very "HighClass" working place.
Regulations
1)No T-shirts allowed
2)No Sitting
3)No chatting with other promoters
4)Do not eat or drink
Oh well there is stil others regulations, which almost all the promoters didnt quite obeyed. I think that's what all established company wil stated at the security entrance rite? hmm! fine, just felt that it's stupid.. No other comments.
Wa La La! I'm BoreD!!!.. THere isNt anYThIng To Do tIs Few days Xcept foR BaLlIng AnD EaTiNg..Thanks friends for being around ah.. Haha guess you guys are bored too. Missing school days now? ha.. how nice wil it be to be able to go for the first 3 months..But I guess those studying will be envying uS?
Oh yeah, Os result..although it's not as bad as i think i would be doing.. stil I'm disappointed.. Ha..Guess it's due to my english result..D7.. hmm..But gotten over it already.. Haha..
Choosing Nayang for my first choice, cause it's the nearest of all Polytechnic. Nothing much interests me. All the courses seems stupid though they tried to make it sounds and seems interesting.
Nothing to write about. Not enough time for me to think what i wanna write today. Guess I wil wait til I have connection at home.. SO....BYEZX