Today's sucha boring day. I woke up considerably early around 11am. First thought : "Aren't I suppose to be at my friend house doing project?" Okie...slack off...Go online, talk to Vincent and tell him I will report to work at 12. Work = project.
OMFGBBQ(Oh My Frail Goat is Being BarbeQued)!! I'm going to hate my subject. So damn hard to find research materials online. (Maybe not enough efforts eh?) After awhile, I nearly fell asleep. So, I and Vincent decided to play some games, yeah? Just some. Around an hour plus. Hmm. Project ended at 3. Woah!
Then I bid Vincent goodbye. Dear Koksiang who was meeting me for basketball, called me to buy lunch for him. Apparently, he just woke up but yet readily agreed to play. Today, my body doesn't feel right. I showed such a noob me on the court. Hmm, must be because of my weak opponents. (hwahaha!)
Left basketball at around 6 and went to M'sia with my family. Man, we were stuck at the Causeway til 9? (and, it was jammed at the Singapore Custom. WHERE IS THE EFFICIENY OF SINGAPORE?) We got through Malaysia Custom within 10 minutes. If I was rich enough, I would had complained. (LOL!) Bought lots of movies and food there. W00t! I also bought Initial D soundtrack. nice. Tanning in your sunray. I like that song.
I watched one of the movie already. Really nice. Hmm. Well, that's all. Nitex.
GFGFGFGFGFGFGFGFGF!!!!!
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Why-
It had been raining the past few days.
It's so cold that I covered myself with the blanket.
It's cold, yet I switched on the fan.
It feels even better now, under the blanket.
Rain stopped.
I threw the blanket on the floor and bathed myself under the warmth.
Had anyone see what had I really wanted to write?
Not really a sudden thought, but after reading Ruoying's blog.
Cherish and treasure. Love?
When we are down or lacking of attention, we will seek someone that will definitely be there. The blanket?
It feels so good with the attention of that someone. Warmth?
But we want more, we will make ourself seems poorer. Appearing all alone and left out on the outside, yet crying for more attentions and love inside our hearts. Isn't it getting colder?
More and more attentions followed, and soon we won't need someone to provide us with it anymore. There are other sources. Sun?
We will start to forget who that someone is. Someone who we had all been using. Someone who is different for everyone of us. Is someone on the floor now?
Pick it up and fold it please.
It's so cold that I covered myself with the blanket.
It's cold, yet I switched on the fan.
It feels even better now, under the blanket.
Rain stopped.
I threw the blanket on the floor and bathed myself under the warmth.
Had anyone see what had I really wanted to write?
Not really a sudden thought, but after reading Ruoying's blog.
Cherish and treasure. Love?
When we are down or lacking of attention, we will seek someone that will definitely be there. The blanket?
It feels so good with the attention of that someone. Warmth?
But we want more, we will make ourself seems poorer. Appearing all alone and left out on the outside, yet crying for more attentions and love inside our hearts. Isn't it getting colder?
More and more attentions followed, and soon we won't need someone to provide us with it anymore. There are other sources. Sun?
We will start to forget who that someone is. Someone who we had all been using. Someone who is different for everyone of us. Is someone on the floor now?
Pick it up and fold it please.
Monday, July 25, 2005
Forgotten!!
Whew, I had been busy the past week. Stressed out.(Not really) Just too much stuffs needed to be done. There's just isn't enough time for me to enjoy and do work at the same time eh? Unless if I'm calculating work=force*distance. Is this the correct formulae? *Ponder...* Whatever. By the way, I created another blog to place my pics. This template doesn't seems picture-friendly. I linked it. www.lamimage.blogspot.com
I had planned to blog what I had done and experienced the past few days, but my brain doesn't seems to have being working on those respective days. (or maybe my highly-evolved brain cells had filtered out nonsenscial stuffs of the days,which means most of.)
Thursday, went lan-gaming after school. End.
Vaguely remembered about Judo training. Definitely needs to polish up my skills. This is friday. End.
Saturday! Some sort of Appreciation Day at WGS. I went back because of my many friends going that day. But didn't get to talk much to them. Is that why I'm so down that day? Disappointed? Thanks Ruo Ying(I took a pic with her. oh chio!) and some friends who had noticed this. Maybe I'm tired too. I had a small gathering with a small group of friends.
At CausewayPoint. We had lunch together, but some of us ate during the refreshment time in school. Sat down and talked. Mr Wong(former english teacher) came to ate with us. Woo..Nice..Pastamania. Normal pasta with good sauce. ha.. Then we went to talk neoprints(?!?!?),regretably, Mr Wong had left. So, we took without him. Neoprints are just too small to hold 8 persons at a time? Eien kisu isn't noticable in those puny neoprints.(No, I didn't put the neoprint up. Too small. Plus I'm lazy to plug in my scanner.) After that, I gay-ed around with Jyass,(Picture at lamimage.blogspot.com*wont repeat the add again*) which was requested by RuoYing after taking pictures with me.Then, it was pool which I was too down to play properly already.
More friends stumbled upon us while pool, then I went to play basketball with them. Pool ended when everyone left, which is when "More friends" arrived. Trained 3-point shootings with them.(Hoping to go to the And1 3on3.) Not in the best condition as the ground is stil wet due to a prior rain. I got the best score in the end.
Played WC3 after basketball. Lancraft screwed up. Cant play with Polalion. How sad. So, it was only me and ks who played the whole night til 5am. End?
Sunday. Nothing much. Missed project time. Basketball.(shucked.I shouldn't had stopped playing for such a long time.) WC3 which cant worked again. Blog. End.
Thank you for reading such a long, tedious and boring blog entry. I'm too bored to make it interesting eh? I had also left out lots of details. Chat with me if you want to know? Last time, contradicting myself, I created a blog for images which I had updated too. www.lamimage.blogspot.com <--GO!
I need a girlfriend. Told by someone. LoL. I want love. Nitex.
I had planned to blog what I had done and experienced the past few days, but my brain doesn't seems to have being working on those respective days. (or maybe my highly-evolved brain cells had filtered out nonsenscial stuffs of the days,which means most of.)
Thursday, went lan-gaming after school. End.
Vaguely remembered about Judo training. Definitely needs to polish up my skills. This is friday. End.
Saturday! Some sort of Appreciation Day at WGS. I went back because of my many friends going that day. But didn't get to talk much to them. Is that why I'm so down that day? Disappointed? Thanks Ruo Ying(I took a pic with her. oh chio!) and some friends who had noticed this. Maybe I'm tired too. I had a small gathering with a small group of friends.
At CausewayPoint. We had lunch together, but some of us ate during the refreshment time in school. Sat down and talked. Mr Wong(former english teacher) came to ate with us. Woo..Nice..Pastamania. Normal pasta with good sauce. ha.. Then we went to talk neoprints(?!?!?),regretably, Mr Wong had left. So, we took without him. Neoprints are just too small to hold 8 persons at a time? Eien kisu isn't noticable in those puny neoprints.(No, I didn't put the neoprint up. Too small. Plus I'm lazy to plug in my scanner.) After that, I gay-ed around with Jyass,(Picture at lamimage.blogspot.com*wont repeat the add again*) which was requested by RuoYing after taking pictures with me.Then, it was pool which I was too down to play properly already.
More friends stumbled upon us while pool, then I went to play basketball with them. Pool ended when everyone left, which is when "More friends" arrived. Trained 3-point shootings with them.(Hoping to go to the And1 3on3.) Not in the best condition as the ground is stil wet due to a prior rain. I got the best score in the end.
Played WC3 after basketball. Lancraft screwed up. Cant play with Polalion. How sad. So, it was only me and ks who played the whole night til 5am. End?
Sunday. Nothing much. Missed project time. Basketball.(shucked.I shouldn't had stopped playing for such a long time.) WC3 which cant worked again. Blog. End.
Thank you for reading such a long, tedious and boring blog entry. I'm too bored to make it interesting eh? I had also left out lots of details. Chat with me if you want to know? Last time, contradicting myself, I created a blog for images which I had updated too. www.lamimage.blogspot.com <--GO!
I need a girlfriend. Told by someone. LoL. I want love. Nitex.
Monday, July 18, 2005
Popularity-
Wow, my tagboard was flooded by Mr Eien Kisu. I shall present "Most Bored Young Tagger of the Week!" award to you. Thank you~ Thank you~
Hey Mr. Brightside, I think I'm just lucky to have kind lecturers and teachers wherever I go. Not that strict with me. Whew~! It happens when I start my day without a goal. It will be lonely me, going alone to school. Nah, no enthusiasm to start of my day. I would take more time styling my hair than showering. haha~ =X Brightside, let's organize a late coming party sometime soon(late) kaes?
I shall apologise to Pucca for forgetting who he/she is. I remembered your name but.. Oh well!~ =) Forgive me, my lovely.........tagger. Happy blogging~
Anyway, to the prestigious winnner of the week, I really didn't blog because you said it's fun, ya know? (I SHALL FLAME YOU!!!) I just start to blog when I'm bored, and there you are tagging me, pushing me on to continue blogging. Well, the effort isn't solely yours, but you sure helped abit. *Smiles*
By the way, is there something wrong with my English? Either here or my spoken? Which one is better, which one is worse? Eien Kisu, I'm very much affected by your tag reminding me of my failure during 'O's English. Well, I'm trying to improve on it. Thanks alot, my lovely...gay partner cum winner of the week.
--->blog of the day<----
Monday- Physical Chemistry(PC) and C Programming(CP) Tests
Well, I slept at 0400 this morning and finally woke up at 0830. As usual, I were watching Slamdunk (man! let me finish it!) and studied abit for PC.(A miracle? Ha!) As usual, I were late for my first period,(around 20mins) which was my PC test! *jawless* fortunately, they started late. They were waiting for us!!!! Nice lecturer again. Brightside, see? (wahahah!) I managed to brush through the test due to some revisions on the MRT.
After PC, we had our break then it's our CP test. I had no idea about it til I met some of my hardworking classmates. *No sweat* The test was easy except for one question which we rarely practice in class. Other than that, I don't think I will have any other hiccups. End.
Oh yeah! My dad's new car came. Proton Singapore. Wooo! Better-looking than the previous car, nice colour, spacious seatings and quiet engine. Nothing else that I can ask for. I had some weird feelings though. The car feels lower to the ground. Is this some ways to lower the CG or something? *Imagine getting scratched on the butt by the ground when it goes too low* Physics! Lovely!
And my family were trying to figure out how to insert a cd into the cd player.
"Can't find the hole"
"Don't anyhow press laarh~!"
"Read the MANUAL LARRRRRRRH!~~~"
*...........*
I, the genius of the family, managed to figure it out in the end. *Victory sign!(V)*
ZzzzZ, I'm still missing 2 hours of sleep. ByE!
Hey Mr. Brightside, I think I'm just lucky to have kind lecturers and teachers wherever I go. Not that strict with me. Whew~! It happens when I start my day without a goal. It will be lonely me, going alone to school. Nah, no enthusiasm to start of my day. I would take more time styling my hair than showering. haha~ =X Brightside, let's organize a late coming party sometime soon(late) kaes?
I shall apologise to Pucca for forgetting who he/she is. I remembered your name but.. Oh well!~ =) Forgive me, my lovely.........tagger. Happy blogging~
Anyway, to the prestigious winnner of the week, I really didn't blog because you said it's fun, ya know? (I SHALL FLAME YOU!!!) I just start to blog when I'm bored, and there you are tagging me, pushing me on to continue blogging. Well, the effort isn't solely yours, but you sure helped abit. *Smiles*
By the way, is there something wrong with my English? Either here or my spoken? Which one is better, which one is worse? Eien Kisu, I'm very much affected by your tag reminding me of my failure during 'O's English. Well, I'm trying to improve on it. Thanks alot, my lovely...gay partner cum winner of the week.
--->blog of the day<----
Monday- Physical Chemistry(PC) and C Programming(CP) Tests
Well, I slept at 0400 this morning and finally woke up at 0830. As usual, I were watching Slamdunk (man! let me finish it!) and studied abit for PC.(A miracle? Ha!) As usual, I were late for my first period,(around 20mins) which was my PC test! *jawless* fortunately, they started late. They were waiting for us!!!! Nice lecturer again. Brightside, see? (wahahah!) I managed to brush through the test due to some revisions on the MRT.
After PC, we had our break then it's our CP test. I had no idea about it til I met some of my hardworking classmates. *No sweat* The test was easy except for one question which we rarely practice in class. Other than that, I don't think I will have any other hiccups. End.
Oh yeah! My dad's new car came. Proton Singapore. Wooo! Better-looking than the previous car, nice colour, spacious seatings and quiet engine. Nothing else that I can ask for. I had some weird feelings though. The car feels lower to the ground. Is this some ways to lower the CG or something? *Imagine getting scratched on the butt by the ground when it goes too low* Physics! Lovely!
And my family were trying to figure out how to insert a cd into the cd player.
"Can't find the hole"
"Don't anyhow press laarh~!"
"Read the MANUAL LARRRRRRRH!~~~"
*...........*
I, the genius of the family, managed to figure it out in the end. *Victory sign!(V)*
ZzzzZ, I'm still missing 2 hours of sleep. ByE!
Saturday, July 16, 2005
Clarify-
Epitaph : Wished I hadn't been late.
I was referred to as The late Joseph on Friday by Mr Leeck.(nice name) Interesting lecturer. Hmm. No elaboration. I lost all drives this week. It was the end of the week already, yet it still feels like I had only been through one day of polytechnic. I can't absorb anything in class, usually late for the first lesson, and can't help but sleep after 15 minutes of lecture. I'm pretty screwed up, cause the tests are just around the corner and I still have some projects on my hand.
Hey..Someone help me.. I need to re-learn whatever that was taught this week. I seems to have lost the knowledge of the past few weeks too. Had I been reset? Darn it! Or am I missing something important in my life? Sleep? or Fun? I realised that some days, even if I didn't get enough sleep, I can still survive throughout the day without any rest. I guess it had to be the Fun part. Argh! Boring stuffs get out of my way!
Oh..By the way, I think I should clarify on some stuffs. Some or alot of people are thinking I'm attached now or something. Okay..I'm not. Firstly, I didn't "jio" anyone, neither female nor male. (Imma gay/sway ge. By the way, sway = unlucky.) Dawn, get it in your head!!! xP Seeing me eating lunch with some girl-friend doesn't mean she is my >girlfriend<. Neither is taking train home together or sitting together. Dotzz..seriously, they are not that fortunate to have me as boyfriend. ( I'm living in an inverse world of my own. xD *Trying to say that I'm not that fortunate,kaes?* )
Haha..yeah.. I know some of you are just trying to make fun of me. But some seems serious. Lol. Anyway, I wrote this partly due to nothing better to write eh?? as well as letting those serious dudes know. Whew, so continue to make fun of me with which ever girl. ha! It's fun yeah? *though childish hees :D *
Tata~
*SIngLeBoi*
I was referred to as The late Joseph on Friday by Mr Leeck.(nice name) Interesting lecturer. Hmm. No elaboration. I lost all drives this week. It was the end of the week already, yet it still feels like I had only been through one day of polytechnic. I can't absorb anything in class, usually late for the first lesson, and can't help but sleep after 15 minutes of lecture. I'm pretty screwed up, cause the tests are just around the corner and I still have some projects on my hand.
Hey..Someone help me.. I need to re-learn whatever that was taught this week. I seems to have lost the knowledge of the past few weeks too. Had I been reset? Darn it! Or am I missing something important in my life? Sleep? or Fun? I realised that some days, even if I didn't get enough sleep, I can still survive throughout the day without any rest. I guess it had to be the Fun part. Argh! Boring stuffs get out of my way!
Oh..By the way, I think I should clarify on some stuffs. Some or alot of people are thinking I'm attached now or something. Okay..I'm not. Firstly, I didn't "jio" anyone, neither female nor male. (Imma gay/sway ge. By the way, sway = unlucky.) Dawn, get it in your head!!! xP Seeing me eating lunch with some girl-friend doesn't mean she is my >girlfriend<. Neither is taking train home together or sitting together. Dotzz..seriously, they are not that fortunate to have me as boyfriend. ( I'm living in an inverse world of my own. xD *Trying to say that I'm not that fortunate,kaes?* )
Haha..yeah.. I know some of you are just trying to make fun of me. But some seems serious. Lol. Anyway, I wrote this partly due to nothing better to write eh?? as well as letting those serious dudes know. Whew, so continue to make fun of me with which ever girl. ha! It's fun yeah? *though childish hees :D *
Tata~
*SIngLeBoi*
Thursday, July 14, 2005
Frequency
Ha! I seems to be attracted to blogging nowadays. The frequency of me blogging is going up. That's rare. Maybe I'm just getting bored. Or is it that I want to express my opinions here?
It's already late now. I'm finally feeling sleepy. It's a good sign. My life's getting busier. Less time rest..More stuffs to do. *grumbles* Maybe, I should take blogging off my "list of stuffs". Maybe.
Wednesday,
I lost some sleep due to Slamdunk again. Sleepyhead went out to eat with mom, and then lectures. The feeling is nice. I managed to hold back my sleepiness in class. Ooooh, it explains why I'm tired now. *Remove "sleeping in class" from "list of stuffs"* I nearly thought I had a mild case of insomia. Ha. Excuses. Judo was fun. Tough training today, but I enjoyed it. Ack. Gi stinks today, maybe because I didn't let it dry thoroughly. My bad. Compared to monday, I think I perspired more that day. Randori, I should try it often. *I think I'm having a serious case of talking to myself* Something interesting happened today after training. Everyone "pang seh" the sensei during dinner. WahAhA~! I enjoyed staying together with cca members after training now. I don't remembering having this much fun during my basketball cca in sec school. Gatherings and dinners together. Jokes and craps. Love and hentai. *WaHaHa!~* Cool bunch of people. Diverse my life.
NiteX~
*canseeaddiction2thou.waitin'4withdrawal* Uncertain...
It's already late now. I'm finally feeling sleepy. It's a good sign. My life's getting busier. Less time rest..More stuffs to do. *grumbles* Maybe, I should take blogging off my "list of stuffs". Maybe.
Wednesday,
I lost some sleep due to Slamdunk again. Sleepyhead went out to eat with mom, and then lectures. The feeling is nice. I managed to hold back my sleepiness in class. Ooooh, it explains why I'm tired now. *Remove "sleeping in class" from "list of stuffs"* I nearly thought I had a mild case of insomia. Ha. Excuses. Judo was fun. Tough training today, but I enjoyed it. Ack. Gi stinks today, maybe because I didn't let it dry thoroughly. My bad. Compared to monday, I think I perspired more that day. Randori, I should try it often. *I think I'm having a serious case of talking to myself* Something interesting happened today after training. Everyone "pang seh" the sensei during dinner. WahAhA~! I enjoyed staying together with cca members after training now. I don't remembering having this much fun during my basketball cca in sec school. Gatherings and dinners together. Jokes and craps. Love and hentai. *WaHaHa!~* Cool bunch of people. Diverse my life.
NiteX~
*canseeaddiction2thou.waitin'4withdrawal* Uncertain...
Monday, July 11, 2005
Changes
:4am Monday 11-Jul-05:I was wanting to write about the book "The Celestine Prophecy" but my internet explorer had an error. Not wanting to waste the time to rewrite the whole stuffs, so I didn't. Anyway, I'm wondering if I should be writing in perfect English or should I stick to my old style of writing. Yeah, yeah, I know my command of English still sucks now and my grammars, writing and stuffs are still "gabra~ish!". (Hey gabrille..err..forgot how to spell le) I would be writing something like the way I had wrote in the bracket. Fun..............especially the .............. dots.
Anyway, I know my previous article sounds abit depressed. (It should you know, if not, it must be due to my command of english. haha) It seems to cause some of my friends worry about me. My aloof worked. Feeling better now. (Right? Pola? I think you are the only one who know what I mean here.) Thanks girls. I said that because my guy friends didn't express anything. (ha-ha) Girls are nicer. (THEY ARE!!) It's also partially due to the book polalion lent me. The Celestine Prophecy. I mentioned it earlier.
Since that article and the book, I starts to see things differently. Different perceptions. I should start changing myself. Expressing myself seems to be good. I think it will come out of me subsequently.(It's tiring to type like this.) The week ends with me going home alone, having nothing to do in school. I didn't go for the Judo session because I figured it might be boring. Photocopied 2 thick biomedical books for my project. Together with my leader. We were *pang seh* by the other group members.( %d^@&%c*&@@!include ) On the way to the station, I bumped into Wanshi and Xiaoyun. haha(cant hold back anymore.) They nearly convinced me to head back for Judo. Too bad for them, they will need someone else to pull me back. That's all for that day. Boring eh?
Saturday, I watched Slamdunk with my brother til I fell asleep at..around 5am. And yeah, I'm meeting people for project at 2 the next day. For no apparent reasons, I woke up at 10 in which I can't fall asleep after that. I only feel the fatigue when I was taking the train with my friend to Serangoon.(Going there to do project) Biomaterials project..tough.. 3pm..til 6-7pm..slogging.. Once again, I could feel the fatigue coming back. After that, we rushed off for our friend's birthday party. Happy Birthday Nicholas! LoL! Pretty late, cause it started at 6. We reached there at 8.30. And due to the loss of the address slip, we had to call him mutiple times before we finally figured out how to go his house. Boon Keng. Bendemeer Road. Remote to us. wahahaah~ I guess I missed most of the fun. I didn't feel that fun there. It's a party isn't it? Not as crazy as the birthday boy. Wahaha! Anyway, some people came at 9+. haha good for them! There's still food around!~ LoL Everyone left before 10+. I was thinking that they would stayed or "ton" or something like that. But I guess everyone have their own life. haha.. Just enjoy the company. (Weee..there is like 5 rabbits in his house. Whoa..It's comparable to my 26 hamsters in 2 cages. LoL. Cute animals.)
The day ended with me taking taxi home with my friends.
Sunday, early morning(12am-6am) , as usual I watched Slamdunk with my lil' brother. He fell asleep. I fell asleep. Simple sequence. I woke up early again. After doing the usual stuffs, I ate breakfast.(breakfast is not included in usual stuffs) I wonder how I survived til the evening without enough sleep, but I did. I fell asleep, watching Slamdunk during the eveing. The thunderstorm was terrific. *Eh..wake up..eat your dinner..if not I eat for you..* I was woke up by that sentence. LOL! 12am already..monday? or tuesday? Finally..got back all my sleeps from the previous days. Man..growing fat from all the supper-like dinner. Dinner for me is usually after 9pm. Lunch? What's lunch? you mean Breakfast? I had it at 11am.
Monday 5am, so I'm here now concluding my entry. LoL. Maybe I should go back to sleep. I had been watching Slamdunk before I came to blog. Full of life eh? That's all peps.
Anyway, I know my previous article sounds abit depressed. (It should you know, if not, it must be due to my command of english. haha) It seems to cause some of my friends worry about me. My aloof worked. Feeling better now. (Right? Pola? I think you are the only one who know what I mean here.) Thanks girls. I said that because my guy friends didn't express anything. (ha-ha) Girls are nicer. (THEY ARE!!) It's also partially due to the book polalion lent me. The Celestine Prophecy. I mentioned it earlier.
Since that article and the book, I starts to see things differently. Different perceptions. I should start changing myself. Expressing myself seems to be good. I think it will come out of me subsequently.(It's tiring to type like this.) The week ends with me going home alone, having nothing to do in school. I didn't go for the Judo session because I figured it might be boring. Photocopied 2 thick biomedical books for my project. Together with my leader. We were *pang seh* by the other group members.( %d^@&%c*&@@!include ) On the way to the station, I bumped into Wanshi and Xiaoyun. haha(cant hold back anymore.) They nearly convinced me to head back for Judo. Too bad for them, they will need someone else to pull me back. That's all for that day. Boring eh?
Saturday, I watched Slamdunk with my brother til I fell asleep at..around 5am. And yeah, I'm meeting people for project at 2 the next day. For no apparent reasons, I woke up at 10 in which I can't fall asleep after that. I only feel the fatigue when I was taking the train with my friend to Serangoon.(Going there to do project) Biomaterials project..tough.. 3pm..til 6-7pm..slogging.. Once again, I could feel the fatigue coming back. After that, we rushed off for our friend's birthday party. Happy Birthday Nicholas! LoL! Pretty late, cause it started at 6. We reached there at 8.30. And due to the loss of the address slip, we had to call him mutiple times before we finally figured out how to go his house. Boon Keng. Bendemeer Road. Remote to us. wahahaah~ I guess I missed most of the fun. I didn't feel that fun there. It's a party isn't it? Not as crazy as the birthday boy. Wahaha! Anyway, some people came at 9+. haha good for them! There's still food around!~ LoL Everyone left before 10+. I was thinking that they would stayed or "ton" or something like that. But I guess everyone have their own life. haha.. Just enjoy the company. (Weee..there is like 5 rabbits in his house. Whoa..It's comparable to my 26 hamsters in 2 cages. LoL. Cute animals.)
The day ended with me taking taxi home with my friends.
Sunday, early morning(12am-6am) , as usual I watched Slamdunk with my lil' brother. He fell asleep. I fell asleep. Simple sequence. I woke up early again. After doing the usual stuffs, I ate breakfast.(breakfast is not included in usual stuffs) I wonder how I survived til the evening without enough sleep, but I did. I fell asleep, watching Slamdunk during the eveing. The thunderstorm was terrific. *Eh..wake up..eat your dinner..if not I eat for you..* I was woke up by that sentence. LOL! 12am already..monday? or tuesday? Finally..got back all my sleeps from the previous days. Man..growing fat from all the supper-like dinner. Dinner for me is usually after 9pm. Lunch? What's lunch? you mean Breakfast? I had it at 11am.
Monday 5am, so I'm here now concluding my entry. LoL. Maybe I should go back to sleep. I had been watching Slamdunk before I came to blog. Full of life eh? That's all peps.
Monday, July 04, 2005
Solitary - Comfort Zone
Sometimes I feel that when I'm alone, I will become stronger. Emotionally. But, there will be an urge to find someone familiar. Someone I knew for some time. It happens when I'm not with my new friends. Everytime, when I want to try out something new, I will start asking my new friends for opinions. They affect my decisions. Something different from what I originally wanted to do. Regrets came in later. Wilful or not. Clever or not. Don't I want to make my own decisions?
When I'm left out, alone. The time which I make my own decisions. I do things that I had wanted to do. Instead of me sticking around my friends. Different things happened. For a moment, I'm happy. Then, I felt lonely. I wanted companions who share my ideas, who support my decisions, support me. I would look through my contacts, searching for someone who I can find, who I think will be there for me.
Family doesn't come into mind. It's my friends. Old friends which had went through years with me. Calls and short messages. Then I waited. Looking around me, I felt even lonelier. I feel like going with anyone beckoning me. Someone called me. My heart filled with hope. Hoping it was someone who was close to me. But it was someone new in my life. Someone who had pushed over my decisions. Is it time for me to let go?
Not that lonely anymore. But why? Don't I miss them? Didn't I just hoped for them? Someone called me because he just need someone to be with him til his special someone comes. Why do I care? Wasn't he just using me? Or is he lonely too? I am. But wouldn't I be alone again, after his someone comes? I will be.
I left alone. Holding on. Nothing. I wanted to see no more. Closed my eyes. Trying to make myself oblivious to anything. Anything that will make me appears to be a nonsocial. That day, I snuggled back into the warmth of my home. Early.
*Solitary - Comfort Zone*
Where had "you" been?...
When I'm left out, alone. The time which I make my own decisions. I do things that I had wanted to do. Instead of me sticking around my friends. Different things happened. For a moment, I'm happy. Then, I felt lonely. I wanted companions who share my ideas, who support my decisions, support me. I would look through my contacts, searching for someone who I can find, who I think will be there for me.
Family doesn't come into mind. It's my friends. Old friends which had went through years with me. Calls and short messages. Then I waited. Looking around me, I felt even lonelier. I feel like going with anyone beckoning me. Someone called me. My heart filled with hope. Hoping it was someone who was close to me. But it was someone new in my life. Someone who had pushed over my decisions. Is it time for me to let go?
Not that lonely anymore. But why? Don't I miss them? Didn't I just hoped for them? Someone called me because he just need someone to be with him til his special someone comes. Why do I care? Wasn't he just using me? Or is he lonely too? I am. But wouldn't I be alone again, after his someone comes? I will be.
I left alone. Holding on. Nothing. I wanted to see no more. Closed my eyes. Trying to make myself oblivious to anything. Anything that will make me appears to be a nonsocial. That day, I snuggled back into the warmth of my home. Early.
*Solitary - Comfort Zone*
Where had "you" been?...
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