Alright, currently at my IAP location.

Being some time since I blogged again.

Busy. BBL!

27th Feb Wednesday



Sitting at KouFu, using my friend's laptop. Finally a computer that isn't infested by games that will continue to suck my life away from me. So I decided to do some normal chatting online and typing my blog.



Feeling crappy. Real crappy. The emo part of me acting out again. I can't help but to feel this way. Engulfed by my emptiness. Someone had closed up on me. Made the wrong move. Wrong stuffs. I really didn't hope it will turn out like this. Not the first time I had made wrong decision, I guess. My whole life now is messed up due to wrong decisions.



The wrong result. The wrong me. I wasn't like this.



IAP. Attached to Everfeed Technology. Couldn't even find it on google map. Somewhere new, small, un-noticed. Hope it will be a nice place to work in.



But, it isn't a good place to try to get to. There isn't any public bus services. Well, hopefully there's a company bus that can take me from Woodlands.

Sitting at Macs now as there isn't any power point at KouFu.

Still, I'm feeling very crappy now. Emptiness rox! Sigh. Talking to people is somehow a way to perk me up a little.

Oh shitz. I seems to have forgotten to blog about my zoo trip? Did I?

Alicia even made a powerpoint presentation for it. :D Private stuffs, come my place and I will show you.

Yeah, Alicia, Vinvin and Hao decide to go out as a group that day. It's after exam, and we are all graduating [Let's ignore the fact that I'm doing 1 more semester]. Somehow, Alicia was very concerned whether we will meet up after we get out of polytechnic. True, friendships are fragile, but I think we will maintain it somehow. LOL

I suggested to go to the zoo and they seems pretty ok with it. Alicia even suggests going Night Safari too. Ha. So, we did. Took lots of pictures, lots of fun and laughters. :) It's definitely better than staying home playing dota none stop. =/ The day before the trip, at Edomondo's place, we were doing that. Kinda frustrating as we kept losing. Little kids are pawning us!

:D Yup. Next times

Ah, new day.. Ok, guess all my friends in polytechnic are going to their next phase of life. NS, Uni, or work? I still have one more semester to go. Regrets inevitable.

Anyway, waiting for my results now. LiangK smsed me that I passed. He really takes care of me. Heh. Nice lecturer.

Hey, if you haven't notice, there's this baby egg at the main page of my blog. Help me level it up? :D

Playing Fiesta due to the coercing of my friend. Uh Ok.

Pretty much the same, feel like going out for some bball.

Okay, examinations over now. I wonder when my attachment is coming. Weird.

Stayed over at VinVin's place last night, after playing rounds and rounds of dota. Sucks. Hate losing, but oh well. Ate breakfast at KFC, then went home to shower and rest. Ended up watching animes.

Allen Walker is cool. :P

Alright, went down to Sembawang to play some bball with Leo's and his friend. OH MY GOD. THE BASKETBALL COURTS THERE ARE SO COOL. THERE'S NO ONE THERE. Shucks. Ended up wasting my time playing with small kids and we lost. :P I don't wanna hurt them. =X

Anyway, today is ending in around a minute or so. And I'm going to start work again. The break was nice, but costly. So, Goodnight.

Oh yeah.. being some time since I wrote something here. Kinda busy lately, exam, CNY , and etc.

Yup. About my previous entry, yup. That was the end. Nothing nice to write, unless if you wanna talk about the 25 ants that I ran over, or the 3 blind mices that was squashed, or the big bad wolf that was hospitalized after being hit by me?

Right.

Anyway, CNY. Cool. Food. Food. Food. Drinks. Drinks. Drinks. Fat. Fat. Fat. Lots of chocolate out there tempting me. Vanhouten, Rocher, Herseys, and some other expensive ones. DUDE! WHY IS THERE SO MANY CHOCOLATES OUT THERE? I THOUGHT THERE SHOULD BE MORE BAK QWA?!

Nevertheless, it was fun. Hong-bao moneh was in minute amount but it should be able to sustain me not working for the time being.

Anyway, there's alot of good looking girls out there. Geez. (random remark)

Just ton at polar place yesterday, sorta like a CNY dota celebration. - - JW and takki. Oh well Tired. I should take some rest.

Seeya.

Well, I went out to cycle today. LOL. Ok. Teh End.

Friday Chalet was fun. :D Lots of foods. Lots of it.

Peiying, Brenda, Anthony, Lynn and Feng Tao was there when me, Leo, Ben and Polar reached the pit. Cool. Peiying looked gorgeous that day. :P First time seeing her wearing something else other than gi? Somehow, after Ben reached, they stopped cooking. Sadly. But we got to eat some of the chicken breast that they bbq-ed.

Ben took over, and well, not bad either. Crayfishs, soft shell crabs, chicken breasts and other etc. Dammit. I want more crayfishs. And I brought Dry Gin to share, somehow Lynn got abit high. The usual get together session, and stuffs. And some "childish" gun shooting, should had just use a knife and stab someone. Well, it is on my to-do list now.

Pei Ying and Brenda left around 10.30am. Ivy was told to stay over by her mom. Oh yeah, forgot to mention that she arrived after us. Had fun with GH3, walking around, and stuffs. Anyway, thanks Ivy for being around. I thought of more stuffs.

So, Anthony had his birthday cake and song. And the rest played and played. From this, I know I wasn't paying attention to my surroundings and people. Cause I couldn't write anything else.

All ended in the morning. Ivy pang seh me =/. I woke up from the little nap I had, and got to know alot of stuffs I missed. Lots of stuffs that even I thought wasn't important. It started to think more. Haha.

I lost alot. I really did. I didn't appreciate what people gave to me too. Wasn't really that meticulous as I thought I were.

Worked as usual. Nice working environment. Bleah. Ended. Monday 12am now. What a waste of time. I'm still thinking and searching for a light in my life.

Come on, give me a tag if you are reading. I'm sure you know how to go to the tagboard with the link that is just beside of the link that lead you here.

Cool. Well, nothing much is happening, without considering that the final tests are just around the corner, overspending, Valentines' Day, Lunar New Year, working, hanging out with pals, playing games, NOT going to lessons, overeating, procrastinating, not getting slimmer, blaming life, and there's really nothing else to do.

Today, hanged around in school after school to help Alicia with her scalpel modelling. I found out that she is still VERY angry/frustated/unable to stand/hateful/ZOMFGWTFBBQ with Leo. Sigh, Why do I have multiple gal pals that can't stand some of my guy friends? Sigh Sigh Sigh. Forgive them please?

Anyway, I had also wanted to get a bicycle, but by the time I figured out something for Alicia's scalpel, I had to leave the lab after which me, Leo, VinVin and Hao went down to Kranji to have a budget nasi lemak, after which then we proceeded with my plan of going down to Marsiling to look for the shop, after which we found out that it had already closed for the day , after when on the way home, I met YangHeng who told me that Jiawen was playing bball at the court, so I went to play some bball with him and then after we went to get a drink before going home.

And so, that concluded my day.

I think I have pretty much given up on my emotional needs. Lets fill it up with the materialistic ones. :D Guess I'm just kidding about it. But it seems like it is really tough to be Okayasu.

BRB.

Alright, updating. The aircraft game that I had been talking about is AfterBurner. Cool stuffs, I'm improving, but couldn't advance further than Innocent Sky without finishing 1 credit. Sigh.

Went to church on Friday with Alicia. The one beside Nativity. Smaller one? Punggol Park? Uh well. She booked with me 1 week in advance! I had to go! lol. O well. Come to think of it, I don't remember going to mass. I mean I do, but.. well, I don't remember what happen during then.

Uh, WELL. But, I still couldn't get a hold on what exactly that I want. For life that is. Sigh.

Anyway, there's some stuffs and things I want to do and get. [Am I contradicting myself? ]

Ha. I don't want die working. ALright, gotta get ready to sleep, HAVE to work.

Ah, enough with gloomy stuffs.

Went shooting ducks at the pasa malam at CWP with leo and polar. LoL. Kinda suck with zero calibration and bad shooting skills. Every shot is unique! wow~ So, we didn't win anything from the game. But well, I finally got a plushie for leo in the other game. Cleared 5 cans with 3 balls. :D Patrick plushie.

That was monday.

Today, went arcade after school with Alicia, Hao, and Vin who was with us spiritually. :D Bishi Bashi Training today. Kept playing that with them, while I play some other games like the aircraft game and zaku II.

XD. Alright. Sleep

3:30am

Yesterday was scary. What the hell was I writing... XD EMO surge.

Anyway, Sunday work was pretty teh same and I messed up some stuffs on Sat. Negative feedback. Anyway, what should I be writing on today? Gosh.

Monday Monday Monday. What should I do today?

Sigh. Signing off. :D

Ah, Sat work again. Becoming a part of my life. I think I'm working more regularly than attending school now.

What's the point... at least I don't sleep at much in class now. I think. Future seems so... future to me. I really can't imagine what would I be doing.. at all. Looking at the crowds move, when I'm working, really get me thinking.

I would be thinking. Alot. Where did all these people come from... Do I have a reason to be meeting them? interacting with them? or whatever should I be doing? I kept seeing events that I felt that I had saw before. Memories that I had, somewhere, sometime. It feels unreal, yet.. uh.. Somehow I don't feel real anymore. Can it be that what I'm experiencing now as my 'life' is just part of my imagination, an elaborated dream?

Sigh. It makes me tired. Perhaps it's just my way of running away from life.

My feelings are messing up too. Looking at couples shopping for their new home. I would be wondering about their lifes. How would it be? Different from mine? Different from one and other? Came out with a thought halfway through today's work. I don't want to settle down like them yet. I still want to play around. [If I know how. :D]

No. Not exactly playing around. But, to experiencing more. Kinda feel that my previous relationships were pretty empty. I wasn't working hard for any of them. [ or did I? ] I can't remember at all. Fading memories. But then again, why would I?

What am I anyway? What do my friends think of me? ... Am I part of their lives or just a passerby? My friends are probably just my imaginations of my life which is all but my dream.

2am Sunday.

Signing off then. Make me feel alive.

Keeping my posts short and sweet.

Finished with a few short anime series. Shuffle, Sola, Peach Girl, Yoake Crescent Love... Uh. Ok Fine. All the kiddy love anime. :D They are kinda fun to watch, and it is funny. At least better than Hi 5.

Simple stories. But they can get you touched. Maybe it is rare to see this "simple" stories happening in real life.

Uh, I need to control my spendings. Guess I used up more than 200 in just a fortnight. Gosh. On things that you can't see, or that you can see but utterly useless. [ those frigging plushies =D ]

Uh, well, they are therapeutic.

My thoughts. Locking up in myself again. Even I couldn't understand. This world that I live in, why am I here? Do I have a purpose? Who are all these people who I had never seen before that I saw today? Why am I thinking about all this? -Locked-

Ah, bullz. Life's simpler this way.

More, I have more.

Bye my blog.

Finished watching an anime called Shuffle. Right.

School started. I see.

Bye.

=) I can't think of anything to write. Damm.

1st Jan. WoW. All I do for today is sleep. Seriously, I fell asleep last night around 4am watching D.Gray Man. Got up for a shower at 10, after which I fell asleep again.

Somehow it is already 12.30am now. 2nd Jan. Wow. Good rest for my body and soul, I think.

Life is going back to the boring self again. But it will prolly get busier with school resuming today.

Getting my pay soon. Sigh. It kind of gets me thinking why am I working for. 3 months had passed already since I started working. Sigh. If life's like this when I leave school, I will probably feel lost.

Working to keep ourselves alive by using the money we get to buy food to feed ourselves. If everyone just keep themselves alive by growing food themselves, will the world be different?

Very different perhaps.

Bye.

Great. Xmas dinner at YH's place was as good as you think. The whole place runs like a restaurant.

So, to make it short, it was good. Not a plain Christmas after all.

Watched Dvds til 430 in the morning before leaving the place.

That's Tuesday. Wednesday = Blank.

Thurs. Today, went out with Alicia and Vinvin. Caught the movie MissionSexControl. Somehow, it isn't really .....ah... Hitman is better. Though it was funny at times.

Went back to Woodlands to meet Wai for some bball. Damm ankle. It needs to heal faster!

Nothing much. Same boring life again. Alone.

Sunday work, then went to K pool with Ray and Andy until 3am.

Christmas Eve. Dang. Rejuvenating at home. No one asked me out until 1am. So, I took a cab down to Serangoon Garden to meet Jessica, Shi Jie and Robin. We went to Clarke Quay to chill. Ended up in TCC. Had a hazelnut frappe and some spicy pasta that Jessica couldn't finish. Pasta average, but the prawns are delicious. Jessica kinda drank half of my frappe cause it was too spicy.

Didn't do anything much after that, sat at TCC for another 30mins before leaving. Well, ended up at Hougang to wait for the morning bus.

Eve's over. Christmas dinner at Yangheng place later, gonna try out his brother's cooking.

AH! CRAPPY.

Dammit. The stupid ankle is giving me the chance of slacking! RAH!

Oh well. Bleaching myself for the past few days. It's a nice anime.

Working tomorrow again. Days passed quickly.

See ya.

Alright, Time to write some stuffs. Sprained my ankle on Thurs. BBalling with the usual gang and Wai. Kinda careless with that game.

And so, couldn't do quite some stuffs for the next few days til Sunday, which I went to work. Aki came to meet me after work, was planning for a movie but scrapped that idea cause it was too late. Then we went to play a game at Raiders, after which I sent her home and then took a cab home. Yeah, it was quite late, cause we talked abit.

Monday = Slack. Tues = Work. Ray went down with MC again. Nasty food poisoning.

Anyway, boredom. Been watching Bleach. AH. Ok. Tiring but can't stop.

Shall continue watching. Ciaos.