Heh, thanks for the comment Sun. Yeah. Is it depressing? Blearh.. Not sure.
Wahahaha. I'm also very confused myself. I just want to vent my anger. I want to do things that I know which is wrong. The only thing holding me back is my conscience. I really wonder when will I lose it. :P Heh.
I guess.. sigh. oh well. :)
Time to go out.
Saturday, January 09, 2010
Friday, January 08, 2010
Friday Night.
Hmm, I kinda forgot to blog. Argh, just not comfortable with sharing stuffs online, because I don't know who's reading. Heh.
Busy with life recently. Not the kind of life that I'm looking forward to, but I guess this is how adults get by with? Heh.
Well well, Ernest and Mark are both going through breakup recovery. And, well, I am going through no-gf dilemma. :-P and growing-fat-through-the-break illness too. Dammit. Too much slack is UNHEALTHY.
I wonder when will my rage go off. The feeling to destroy things or destroying myself. Haha. Have I been holding back too much in my daily life? Woot. Ok, sometimes I just wonder if this is normal. RAH!
Ah, crap. Again. Mind's blank. Thinks alot, but write nuts. Maybe another day? heh.
Busy with life recently. Not the kind of life that I'm looking forward to, but I guess this is how adults get by with? Heh.
Well well, Ernest and Mark are both going through breakup recovery. And, well, I am going through no-gf dilemma. :-P and growing-fat-through-the-break illness too. Dammit. Too much slack is UNHEALTHY.
I wonder when will my rage go off. The feeling to destroy things or destroying myself. Haha. Have I been holding back too much in my daily life? Woot. Ok, sometimes I just wonder if this is normal. RAH!
Ah, crap. Again. Mind's blank. Thinks alot, but write nuts. Maybe another day? heh.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
A little busy.
It had been fun and everything. Since when did I feel so busy and not wanting to go anywhere else other than the court to chill out.
Well, mind's blank. Zero inspiration on what to write. Shall continue another day.
Well, mind's blank. Zero inspiration on what to write. Shall continue another day.
Monday, November 30, 2009
New skin..
Alright, I finally changed my old blog skin, accidentally? It has been being so long since I last blogged anyway. A few months in between posts? Who the fuck follow up with my blog anyway?
Argh.
Argh.
Sunday, June 07, 2009
Sighness. At all the chaos going on in the world. H1N1 and economic downturn.
I don't have much to write actually. I will only be lamenting about stuffs as usual.
Too much things that I can do, but I spend little time doing it. Like learning the guitar which I borrowed from Sherry a long time ago and still not return her yet in spite that she called me a few weeks ago and said that it is okay to return her some time when I'm free.
Happy Birthday to Polar dude. Good to see you moving on in life. You don't have that dark shadow over you that you had back then when everything went down for you.
Fine. I guess no one will notice that I had blogged anyway. Too lazy to get the retarded tagbox online. Feh. It just get neglected everytime and die like a tamagotchi. I should start a graveyard soon for all my tagboard 'pets'.
Life is pleasant when you get more than what you expect and yearn for. So yeah. Set it to low.
I don't have much to write actually. I will only be lamenting about stuffs as usual.
Too much things that I can do, but I spend little time doing it. Like learning the guitar which I borrowed from Sherry a long time ago and still not return her yet in spite that she called me a few weeks ago and said that it is okay to return her some time when I'm free.
Happy Birthday to Polar dude. Good to see you moving on in life. You don't have that dark shadow over you that you had back then when everything went down for you.
Fine. I guess no one will notice that I had blogged anyway. Too lazy to get the retarded tagbox online. Feh. It just get neglected everytime and die like a tamagotchi. I should start a graveyard soon for all my tagboard 'pets'.
Life is pleasant when you get more than what you expect and yearn for. So yeah. Set it to low.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Oo Title?
Thursday 11th September 2008 1:21 am Clear night.
Hrm, being a long time since I blogged eh. Had been busy with my "break". Actually, I "graduated" already, so I won't be going to school eh? It just means I have to work right? dammit.
The night is so clear tonight. It was crimson red the past few days. I guess it will rain tomorrow afternoon then. I jogged my usual 5 km in 22:53 today, by referring to the total time of the songs I listened to during the run. Music is becoming a part of my life. It takes away awful feelings from within me, and replaces it with vitality. It takes away the loneliness from my everyday life.
I went to Sentosa last week and got this nice tan/burn. I should had really wore a sleeveless. [ I can't go topless due to my skin condition of my back. ] {Yeah it sucks. } It was fun, going out with all of them. Alex, Armanda, Wei Lun, Ku Chen, Ivan, Edlyn, Jin Pei, Nicholas. Of course, Mark and Jeremy joined me afterwards, but they were damm late due to work. XD It rained but it didn't really affect our mood. [ I was lucky to get some allowances from my sister {Yeah it sucks again, I should work right? } ]
Oh yeah, I started playing with DanceDanceRevolution. -_- lol. Thanks to Edlyn and Jeremy. It is really fun, but hell.. it makes me sweat in an airconditioned environment. -_- Bloody hell... I guess I will bring spare shirt next time. And yeah, I still need more time to become a "veteran".
Okie, I sidetracked a bit and went to travian forums. Guess my short attention span is still haunting me. Ok. I did it again.
Anyway, I went to a wedding dinner this week. It really get me thinking. Wedding/Marriage is really way out of my world at the moment. I had never at once thought of it at all, lest the one time when Yaling asked me. Oo. *shocked* lol. But yeah. As much as I want to find a companion, I have not thought of marriage at all. Is it demeaning? Oh yeah, the groom is 25 this year, and way more handsome than me. :) Grins. The feeling seems so out of reach for me.
Okie. So most of the time that I spent for the past 2 weeks were on BBall and mixing around with new-found friends. And spending it alone at home? =X [ I just have to make myself sound miserable everytime eh? ] I will be going to work tomorrow with Mark and Jeremy.
Ah yeah. Jeremy. It is his birthday today. I noted that my relationship with him improved after I broke up with Yaling. I'm actually spending more time with him now, taking part in his activities and eating meals with him. I have been neglecting my family as much as I thought they had neglected me... I guess.. Double-edged thinking eh? Jeremy actually told me off once about spending too much time with Yaling. I can't remember when, but I guess I was really oblivious about the feelings of my family.
Oh nice. I almost spent 1 hour blogging. Time to sleep. :)
Ciaos. Btw.. my feeling.. Why won't it just die.. What should I do with it..
^^ 2:21 am. Clear night.
Hrm, being a long time since I blogged eh. Had been busy with my "break". Actually, I "graduated" already, so I won't be going to school eh? It just means I have to work right? dammit.
The night is so clear tonight. It was crimson red the past few days. I guess it will rain tomorrow afternoon then. I jogged my usual 5 km in 22:53 today, by referring to the total time of the songs I listened to during the run. Music is becoming a part of my life. It takes away awful feelings from within me, and replaces it with vitality. It takes away the loneliness from my everyday life.
I went to Sentosa last week and got this nice tan/burn. I should had really wore a sleeveless. [ I can't go topless due to my skin condition of my back. ] {Yeah it sucks. } It was fun, going out with all of them. Alex, Armanda, Wei Lun, Ku Chen, Ivan, Edlyn, Jin Pei, Nicholas. Of course, Mark and Jeremy joined me afterwards, but they were damm late due to work. XD It rained but it didn't really affect our mood. [ I was lucky to get some allowances from my sister {Yeah it sucks again, I should work right? } ]
Oh yeah, I started playing with DanceDanceRevolution. -_- lol. Thanks to Edlyn and Jeremy. It is really fun, but hell.. it makes me sweat in an airconditioned environment. -_- Bloody hell... I guess I will bring spare shirt next time. And yeah, I still need more time to become a "veteran".
Okie, I sidetracked a bit and went to travian forums. Guess my short attention span is still haunting me. Ok. I did it again.
Anyway, I went to a wedding dinner this week. It really get me thinking. Wedding/Marriage is really way out of my world at the moment. I had never at once thought of it at all, lest the one time when Yaling asked me. Oo. *shocked* lol. But yeah. As much as I want to find a companion, I have not thought of marriage at all. Is it demeaning? Oh yeah, the groom is 25 this year, and way more handsome than me. :) Grins. The feeling seems so out of reach for me.
Okie. So most of the time that I spent for the past 2 weeks were on BBall and mixing around with new-found friends. And spending it alone at home? =X [ I just have to make myself sound miserable everytime eh? ] I will be going to work tomorrow with Mark and Jeremy.
Ah yeah. Jeremy. It is his birthday today. I noted that my relationship with him improved after I broke up with Yaling. I'm actually spending more time with him now, taking part in his activities and eating meals with him. I have been neglecting my family as much as I thought they had neglected me... I guess.. Double-edged thinking eh? Jeremy actually told me off once about spending too much time with Yaling. I can't remember when, but I guess I was really oblivious about the feelings of my family.
Oh nice. I almost spent 1 hour blogging. Time to sleep. :)
Ciaos. Btw.. my feeling.. Why won't it just die.. What should I do with it..
^^ 2:21 am. Clear night.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
28th August 2008 1:36 pm Not-A-Raining Afternoon Thursday
Yeah. Sheesh. I didn't kill myself after my previous post, and I was not emo-ing during that period of time. Seriously. And.. I wasn't really thinking a lot of my ex gf(s).
Well, I don't forget stuffs easily. That is all. I can always recall and it will always be part of the memory. For example, lamegodzilla is related to Dawn. Oh nooo. But I kinda like the name. The format which I used for heading, was learnt when I started writing my personal diary for YaYa. Oh nooo. I like the format. =) That's all. I remembered that I tore the diary one morning after drinking a tad too much. But it should still be at my place. Somewhere. Along with other stuffs.
Perhaps I shouldn't be so sentimental, and start throwing stuffs away like I wanted to when I tore the diary. =X But well, that's just not me. ( I think the tearing of diary scared my friend who was already heartbroken when she asked me out that time. She never ask me out again! =P )
Anyway, it has been a busy week? No. (- -,) I'm just slacking with my final report and AES + bballing everyday. I went for the NUS art bash 2008 with Esther. Oh my. It is a beauty pageant. And, most of the girls are really attractive. Yeah. Seriously CHIO. Even those that weren't on the stage. But most importantly, Esther's friend won. x) Yeah. She is the most attractive among the contestants. Tracce. And her goal in life is to be a housewife!
Yeah. I won't mind a pretty housewife! Wait. I mean I would love it. Haha. Well, all of Esther's friends, which in my opinion (IMO), are attractive ladies. Janet, Debby and Tracce? Alright alright, Esther is cute too. =) Anyway, Debby, Esther and me went wandering around city area after the art bash. ZOUK's music wasn't really to their liking so they left early. First, we were 'exploring' Clarke Quay with Gillian and Dhan, and ate at Mac. Then we ended up at MindsCafe.
Well. Debby amazed me with her command of english. Oo Yeah. Even Esther too. Shessh. It's kinda sad eh. But well, we had fun during with the games, but it closed at 3am. Damm. I almost figured out that game already! Well, so we ended up walking to Orchard cineleisure. Esther and Debby were singing whenever they have the chances to. =) Nice. It actually feels good being with them, as it wasn't the kind of gathering where it is awfully quiet. Moreover, I only know Debby that day.
And by the time we reach cineleisure, it has already closed all its tix booths. ZOMG! so we walked for nothing! -_- Nah. We sneaked into the cinema to watch the endings for Journey to the Center of the World and 12 Lotus. Ha! Esther was suggesting it. Debby just stood up and walked in once there's no one there. Woo! Go Debby Go! Oh yeah. Debby couldn't understand much of the dialogue in 12 Lotus, but Hey! I can't too. Dialects ftw. Journey was a tad absurd but exciting to watch. =) while 12 Lotus was .... funny yet full of sorrow.... I think I will get emotional if I watch the entire movie instead of "Huh HUh?" like I did at the end.
^^ Sunday sleep. Bball & mess around with young peeps.
Last week of FYP. Yeah. I'm still waking up feeling uber tiredness. I don't get it. I slept early, yet every morning, I woke up to my alarm. I just feel UBER TIRED. Maybe it is the lack of drive in me to go to school everyday. Sigh. But Yeah. I'm working hard.
Anyhow. Seeya. 2:21
Yeah. Sheesh. I didn't kill myself after my previous post, and I was not emo-ing during that period of time. Seriously. And.. I wasn't really thinking a lot of my ex gf(s).
Well, I don't forget stuffs easily. That is all. I can always recall and it will always be part of the memory. For example, lamegodzilla is related to Dawn. Oh nooo. But I kinda like the name. The format which I used for heading, was learnt when I started writing my personal diary for YaYa. Oh nooo. I like the format. =) That's all. I remembered that I tore the diary one morning after drinking a tad too much. But it should still be at my place. Somewhere. Along with other stuffs.
Perhaps I shouldn't be so sentimental, and start throwing stuffs away like I wanted to when I tore the diary. =X But well, that's just not me. ( I think the tearing of diary scared my friend who was already heartbroken when she asked me out that time. She never ask me out again! =P )
Anyway, it has been a busy week? No. (- -,) I'm just slacking with my final report and AES + bballing everyday. I went for the NUS art bash 2008 with Esther. Oh my. It is a beauty pageant. And, most of the girls are really attractive. Yeah. Seriously CHIO. Even those that weren't on the stage. But most importantly, Esther's friend won. x) Yeah. She is the most attractive among the contestants. Tracce. And her goal in life is to be a housewife!
Yeah. I won't mind a pretty housewife! Wait. I mean I would love it. Haha. Well, all of Esther's friends, which in my opinion (IMO), are attractive ladies. Janet, Debby and Tracce? Alright alright, Esther is cute too. =) Anyway, Debby, Esther and me went wandering around city area after the art bash. ZOUK's music wasn't really to their liking so they left early. First, we were 'exploring' Clarke Quay with Gillian and Dhan, and ate at Mac. Then we ended up at MindsCafe.
Well. Debby amazed me with her command of english. Oo Yeah. Even Esther too. Shessh. It's kinda sad eh. But well, we had fun during with the games, but it closed at 3am. Damm. I almost figured out that game already! Well, so we ended up walking to Orchard cineleisure. Esther and Debby were singing whenever they have the chances to. =) Nice. It actually feels good being with them, as it wasn't the kind of gathering where it is awfully quiet. Moreover, I only know Debby that day.
And by the time we reach cineleisure, it has already closed all its tix booths. ZOMG! so we walked for nothing! -_- Nah. We sneaked into the cinema to watch the endings for Journey to the Center of the World and 12 Lotus. Ha! Esther was suggesting it. Debby just stood up and walked in once there's no one there. Woo! Go Debby Go! Oh yeah. Debby couldn't understand much of the dialogue in 12 Lotus, but Hey! I can't too. Dialects ftw. Journey was a tad absurd but exciting to watch. =) while 12 Lotus was .... funny yet full of sorrow.... I think I will get emotional if I watch the entire movie instead of "Huh HUh?" like I did at the end.
^^ Sunday sleep. Bball & mess around with young peeps.
Last week of FYP. Yeah. I'm still waking up feeling uber tiredness. I don't get it. I slept early, yet every morning, I woke up to my alarm. I just feel UBER TIRED. Maybe it is the lack of drive in me to go to school everyday. Sigh. But Yeah. I'm working hard.
Anyhow. Seeya. 2:21
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
20th August 2008 Wednesday, after rain 4:35 pm
I felt like blogging again. Well, after Sun and Cheeka left my lab, it is kinda quiet here. My Ng showed his power of chasing people off without actually saying it again! Splendid display of skills here. :) Heh.
So here I am.. alone, in this cold, brightly lit room. But I'm not thinking negatively at the moment. The mood isn't right. Hrm, Maybe I should turn off the lights eh? Haha. But I can't get someone off my mind. Not the first time this happens. I still couldn't fathom the effect of liking someone. If the liking is genuine, why is it that it changes time to time?
What's the real idea of labeling someone as your respective partner? So that you can have he/she all by yourself? Seriously speaking, whatever stuffs you do with your respective partner can also be done with your respective friends. Well, unless you are too shy to kiss your best friend. Heh. :) Or maybe some other motives. Or perhaps it is a trend from watching too much drama serials where everyone is searching for love.
I actually agree with one of my ex-gf's comment that she said when she requested to break up with me. She said something similar to " I don't need a boyfriend just because I want him to listen to me, be there for me, to care for me, etc. " and followed up by "A friend can do the same. " and then " Let's just be friends? " and then "cries T.T QQ sobs BBQ " . In the end, she got another bf.. well, I'm not sure when.. since we aren't really "friends" for some time after the break up.
Okay. -_- Interesting. Life's full of contradictions. And people always try to sound noble and dignant about whatever they do, or say. But it all falls back to what they want to achieve and receive by doing such acts.
OKAY. What I really want to say, I want to really like someone, love someone. But I can't quantify it in my mind. Do you know that by saying "I don't know if I love you" is actually me being very honest to any relationships I have been in? Of course, that phrase can be followed by "I just wanna see you, but I miss you, but I can't bear to see you cry" to make the perfect combination.
No, I am not lying. Thus I couldn't say "I love you" blatantly. Maybe I'm just a tough shell to crack. I'm just not sensitive enough. I just don't lie enough? Hrm.
*Personally, I think you lied too much to cover my own ass* [ hey, no you didn't. You didn't even bothered to lie about coming late to school, to work, to meet your friends ] *hey, can you just lie about that? and appear all nice and stuffs in your own blog* [ What...? Shessh. Fine. /wrist ]
Why am I thinking about all this? Perhaps I'm just confused. I'm too complicated for my own good.
At least I'm not feeling all negative. :)
* note to self, I'm actually laughing a lot more on the bball court *
Ciaos. :)
5:25 pm
I felt like blogging again. Well, after Sun and Cheeka left my lab, it is kinda quiet here. My Ng showed his power of chasing people off without actually saying it again! Splendid display of skills here. :) Heh.
So here I am.. alone, in this cold, brightly lit room. But I'm not thinking negatively at the moment. The mood isn't right. Hrm, Maybe I should turn off the lights eh? Haha. But I can't get someone off my mind. Not the first time this happens. I still couldn't fathom the effect of liking someone. If the liking is genuine, why is it that it changes time to time?
What's the real idea of labeling someone as your respective partner? So that you can have he/she all by yourself? Seriously speaking, whatever stuffs you do with your respective partner can also be done with your respective friends. Well, unless you are too shy to kiss your best friend. Heh. :) Or maybe some other motives. Or perhaps it is a trend from watching too much drama serials where everyone is searching for love.
I actually agree with one of my ex-gf's comment that she said when she requested to break up with me. She said something similar to " I don't need a boyfriend just because I want him to listen to me, be there for me, to care for me, etc. " and followed up by "A friend can do the same. " and then " Let's just be friends? " and then "cries T.T QQ sobs BBQ " . In the end, she got another bf.. well, I'm not sure when.. since we aren't really "friends" for some time after the break up.
Okay. -_- Interesting. Life's full of contradictions. And people always try to sound noble and dignant about whatever they do, or say. But it all falls back to what they want to achieve and receive by doing such acts.
OKAY. What I really want to say, I want to really like someone, love someone. But I can't quantify it in my mind. Do you know that by saying "I don't know if I love you" is actually me being very honest to any relationships I have been in? Of course, that phrase can be followed by "I just wanna see you, but I miss you, but I can't bear to see you cry" to make the perfect combination.
No, I am not lying. Thus I couldn't say "I love you" blatantly. Maybe I'm just a tough shell to crack. I'm just not sensitive enough. I just don't lie enough? Hrm.
*Personally, I think you lied too much to cover my own ass* [ hey, no you didn't. You didn't even bothered to lie about coming late to school, to work, to meet your friends ] *hey, can you just lie about that? and appear all nice and stuffs in your own blog* [ What...? Shessh. Fine. /wrist ]
Why am I thinking about all this? Perhaps I'm just confused. I'm too complicated for my own good.
At least I'm not feeling all negative. :)
* note to self, I'm actually laughing a lot more on the bball court *
Ciaos. :)
5:25 pm
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
19th August 2008 1:46 pm Cloudy noon?
Oo hrm, I'm 20 now. Sigh. Thanks for the treat at Botak Jones. Polar, JW, KS and my bro? =) At least, my birthday isn't that quiet this year. It is not loud either. I know friends who host parties, bbqs, or chalets just for their birthdays. Yeah. Maybe I should have one, to make myself more like-able-cum-popular? Haha
-Hungry- 1:52 pm -left for food-
-Back- 2:12 pm
Hokay. So I'm back from lunch. Zzz, feeling damm sleepy now. *takes out mp3* hrm.. haha Ok. Much better with some music in my head. ^^ Anyhow, my project work is nearing its end. Yeah. It is gonna meet its marker. LoL. Pun eh? Gonna write up a report/thesis, as well as a webpage showing my project. I mean.. huh? What? My project? Sheesh.
Yeah, that's about ALL I need to do in 2 weeks, BUT I know nuts about the webpage thing. So I'll have to learn from scratch. Oh wellz. Not that tough to learn, as long as I can keep myself from falling asleep and distracting myself.
The ironic part is.. I keep distracting myself from finish this blog entry. Ok.
I'm beginning to feel better. Mr Ng talks a lot, but it isn't that all crap at all. I have to agree with some things that he says. Note that I said some things. =) But alright.
Hrm, 2 more weeks to see if I will stop thinking about her. It is kinda weird though. But I like to see her smile, laugh and play. It's that simple.
3:39 pm -lol long post eh?-
Oo hrm, I'm 20 now. Sigh. Thanks for the treat at Botak Jones. Polar, JW, KS and my bro? =) At least, my birthday isn't that quiet this year. It is not loud either. I know friends who host parties, bbqs, or chalets just for their birthdays. Yeah. Maybe I should have one, to make myself more like-able-cum-popular? Haha
-Hungry- 1:52 pm -left for food-
-Back- 2:12 pm
Hokay. So I'm back from lunch. Zzz, feeling damm sleepy now. *takes out mp3* hrm.. haha Ok. Much better with some music in my head. ^^ Anyhow, my project work is nearing its end. Yeah. It is gonna meet its marker. LoL. Pun eh? Gonna write up a report/thesis, as well as a webpage showing my project. I mean.. huh? What? My project? Sheesh.
Yeah, that's about ALL I need to do in 2 weeks, BUT I know nuts about the webpage thing. So I'll have to learn from scratch. Oh wellz. Not that tough to learn, as long as I can keep myself from falling asleep and distracting myself.
The ironic part is.. I keep distracting myself from finish this blog entry. Ok.
I'm beginning to feel better. Mr Ng talks a lot, but it isn't that all crap at all. I have to agree with some things that he says. Note that I said some things. =) But alright.
Hrm, 2 more weeks to see if I will stop thinking about her. It is kinda weird though. But I like to see her smile, laugh and play. It's that simple.
3:39 pm -lol long post eh?-
Thursday, August 14, 2008
14th August 2008 12:45 pm
Lots of thoughts, and emotions. I wanna scream, tear, rip things apart. No. I didn't quarrel with my bf... =P Like my other friends. But.. it is just.. I don't know anymore.
This world is just too complex. Messy. I don't get it. It is making me complex. Let nature takes its course, but then it is Man who change the nature's course. If we are, but some animals, living, ending life, and leaving life behind, wouldn't it be peaceful?
I want to rest, do things that I like, learn things that I'm interested in, love somebody , be loved by somebody. That's just too many wants. And there's a price to pay for every wants. 24 hours a day, just isn't enough anymore. Average lifespan of 80 years? Not sufficient. And out of that 80 years, 50% of it will be used on earning money for this frakked up world.
No, I do not want to end up working at Cash Convertor carrying a bagpack with me and take MRT everyday and carrying a tummy in front. I was looking at this man on the train. No, I'm not looking down on him. I just don't want to be like him. Be like that. But what can I do?
Sigh.
Lots of thoughts, and emotions. I wanna scream, tear, rip things apart. No. I didn't quarrel with my bf... =P Like my other friends. But.. it is just.. I don't know anymore.
This world is just too complex. Messy. I don't get it. It is making me complex. Let nature takes its course, but then it is Man who change the nature's course. If we are, but some animals, living, ending life, and leaving life behind, wouldn't it be peaceful?
I want to rest, do things that I like, learn things that I'm interested in, love somebody , be loved by somebody. That's just too many wants. And there's a price to pay for every wants. 24 hours a day, just isn't enough anymore. Average lifespan of 80 years? Not sufficient. And out of that 80 years, 50% of it will be used on earning money for this frakked up world.
No, I do not want to end up working at Cash Convertor carrying a bagpack with me and take MRT everyday and carrying a tummy in front. I was looking at this man on the train. No, I'm not looking down on him. I just don't want to be like him. Be like that. But what can I do?
Sigh.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Monday 10:30 11th August 2008
Alrighty, I'm in school at the moment. China VS USA basketball yesterday was much more exciting than the Iran VS Russia version. Hell. Lots of dunks, fastbreaks, 3-pointers, and great passes.
Ok, too busy to concentrate on blogging.
11:51am. lol. I was doing other stuffs. =P
Bye
Alrighty, I'm in school at the moment. China VS USA basketball yesterday was much more exciting than the Iran VS Russia version. Hell. Lots of dunks, fastbreaks, 3-pointers, and great passes.
Ok, too busy to concentrate on blogging.
11:51am. lol. I was doing other stuffs. =P
Bye
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Sunday Afternoon 1:14 pm 10th August 2008
Alright, I managed to rest a bit yesterday morning and noon. Then I was lured out to play some basketball at the evening. :) There wasn't really much match play yesterday, so it was just sit around and talk section.
Anyway, I want to train myself to be a forward rather than a center. More than anything really.
Polar's gathering yesterday was quite quiet for me. I was sitting alone playing my laptop? :) Not that I really mind. Perhaps I'm just used to be alone.
Basketball match on Olympic games. Iran VS Russia. Man, it really isn't anything like NBA. Russia owned in the first quarter, almost getting a lead of 15 points when it ended at 24-10. It looks like Iran is the underdog, and considerably bleak for Iran. But in the 2nd and 3rd quarter, Russia screwed up on their offense and defense. They changed their defensive formation to 1-to-1 which offered lots of opportunities for Iran players which were stronger under the basket.
Iran closed in the differences to only 8 points. In the last quarter, the pace of the game picks up. Iran started to bombard the defenses with 3-pointers and quick lay-ups. It was doing well till Russia went back to their formation defenses at 2:1:2. They managed to stop Iran's quick offenses and rebounds and managed to retaliate with a couple of quick 3 pointers.
By the last 2 mins, Russia had already managed to pull the score difference to 20 points. I was expecting more from the Olympic games though. It was the preliminary round, I guess.
I really want to play basketball again. :)
- and I really need sleep. geee.
See ya.
[ I'm still waiting ]
Alright, I managed to rest a bit yesterday morning and noon. Then I was lured out to play some basketball at the evening. :) There wasn't really much match play yesterday, so it was just sit around and talk section.
Anyway, I want to train myself to be a forward rather than a center. More than anything really.
Polar's gathering yesterday was quite quiet for me. I was sitting alone playing my laptop? :) Not that I really mind. Perhaps I'm just used to be alone.
Basketball match on Olympic games. Iran VS Russia. Man, it really isn't anything like NBA. Russia owned in the first quarter, almost getting a lead of 15 points when it ended at 24-10. It looks like Iran is the underdog, and considerably bleak for Iran. But in the 2nd and 3rd quarter, Russia screwed up on their offense and defense. They changed their defensive formation to 1-to-1 which offered lots of opportunities for Iran players which were stronger under the basket.
Iran closed in the differences to only 8 points. In the last quarter, the pace of the game picks up. Iran started to bombard the defenses with 3-pointers and quick lay-ups. It was doing well till Russia went back to their formation defenses at 2:1:2. They managed to stop Iran's quick offenses and rebounds and managed to retaliate with a couple of quick 3 pointers.
By the last 2 mins, Russia had already managed to pull the score difference to 20 points. I was expecting more from the Olympic games though. It was the preliminary round, I guess.
I really want to play basketball again. :)
- and I really need sleep. geee.
See ya.
[ I'm still waiting ]
Thursday, August 07, 2008
7th August Thursday 10:47 pm
Well, I don't know. Maybe Caryn was right. I'm just feeling dam lonely and empty. I need to get more friends and go out more etc etc.
I guess I'm probably anti-social.
I once wondered, why would Alicia worries about having a boyfriend even though she's confident, expressive, out-going? She doesn't enjoy a smooth ride when it comes to relationships. But there will always be guys that will attracts her somehow in some ways.
Dang. I'm not sure what I want to talk about either. Sigh. Confused mind. Let me think while I shower then.
Be back soon?
10:59 pm
Well, I don't know. Maybe Caryn was right. I'm just feeling dam lonely and empty. I need to get more friends and go out more etc etc.
I guess I'm probably anti-social.
I once wondered, why would Alicia worries about having a boyfriend even though she's confident, expressive, out-going? She doesn't enjoy a smooth ride when it comes to relationships. But there will always be guys that will attracts her somehow in some ways.
Dang. I'm not sure what I want to talk about either. Sigh. Confused mind. Let me think while I shower then.
Be back soon?
10:59 pm
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Wednesday 30th July 2008 11:52pm
Well, I felt like crap again today. Why...? Am I getting ignored? Or am I just paranoid? It is moments like this that make me regret what I say, even though I thought I have thought it true properly.
Maybe I'm just tired. Basketball is fun and all, but my heart tells me to win every matches. I just can't play "for fun" without feeling bad afterwards.
That's all I'm gonna say today. The void is getting serious. It kinda hurt now.
Ciaos.
Well, I felt like crap again today. Why...? Am I getting ignored? Or am I just paranoid? It is moments like this that make me regret what I say, even though I thought I have thought it true properly.
Maybe I'm just tired. Basketball is fun and all, but my heart tells me to win every matches. I just can't play "for fun" without feeling bad afterwards.
That's all I'm gonna say today. The void is getting serious. It kinda hurt now.
Ciaos.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Sunday 27th July 2008 9:55 pm
Well, it had been almost a week since I blogged. My FYP finally started. Truly started. I mean, I'm supposed to run 12000 cycles now and take more than 500 pictures for documentation. I haven't even start recording the data. OMG. Sigh, so much for slacking for so long. Ha. But I'm still falling asleep nevertheless. But I managed to do 700 cycles in 1 day. So, that leaves me with 11300 cycles in 15 days, which I also have to prepare a report and presentation. Yada yada, gotta work harder this week.
Anyhow, I just came back from bball. I got to know this group of WGS students through my brother last week, and I have been playing with them everyday. Somehow, it isn't that bad playing with younger people. At least they are more active than my group of friends. I really cba to call them out to play anymore. They won't even answer my call, or just reject it in some manner.
^^ Fun. Alright. I shall sleep early today. I hope. :)
10:27 ... I took a shower. :P
Well, it had been almost a week since I blogged. My FYP finally started. Truly started. I mean, I'm supposed to run 12000 cycles now and take more than 500 pictures for documentation. I haven't even start recording the data. OMG. Sigh, so much for slacking for so long. Ha. But I'm still falling asleep nevertheless. But I managed to do 700 cycles in 1 day. So, that leaves me with 11300 cycles in 15 days, which I also have to prepare a report and presentation. Yada yada, gotta work harder this week.
Anyhow, I just came back from bball. I got to know this group of WGS students through my brother last week, and I have been playing with them everyday. Somehow, it isn't that bad playing with younger people. At least they are more active than my group of friends. I really cba to call them out to play anymore. They won't even answer my call, or just reject it in some manner.
^^ Fun. Alright. I shall sleep early today. I hope. :)
10:27 ... I took a shower. :P
Monday, July 21, 2008
Monday 21st July 2008 3:20 pm
I'm feeling tired today. I slept early yesterday.. erm.. 1:00 sth am. hehehe.. Broke my own rule. Argh. At least I didn't force myself to stay awake to look after my game. :) So I received a msg from choco cookies early in the morning, which caused me to be on time at FYP today. Wow? Haha
But if I reach on time to sleep in the lab, I rather sleep at home? Sigh. I don't think my lecturer will approve either way. Thumb of rule : Sleep earlier. F EH!
Alright, so in the sleepy morning, Sun and Mary came to have lunch/breakfast with me at 11am. Went down to AMK hawker centre to eat. The wanton mee there is zomgwtfbbq tasteless. Mary bought from one store which serve cooled soup, average mee with lots of 'dark colour' sauce while I got one from another which served hot soup, tasteless mee with minimal sauce. - - Ok. So they were bad. Fortunately, I ordered carrot cake for us to share, at least our tastebuds survived. Sun ate the hokkien mee, which I think, is acceptable for hawker price. =X
Then we went to AMK Hub to play at the arcade. We challenged each other to basketball shooting machine, which both of them died in stage 2 with <90 points. Hehehe, I will be humbled enough not to type my own score here. :) Then we played Daytona which is like WTF? I lose? AGAIN? Yeah. I suck at that. - - Sigh. No matter how hard I tried to use the brake, change gear etc etc. I lost to 2 automatic cars. Managed to beat them the last time on Advanced map. - -
We also played the big drum machine again, which I'm the one saving them by managing to pass each stage when they fail. =P After that, it was Afterburner solo for me. I ended up attracting lots of attentions from a bunch of guys. They kinda crowded behind me. - -? Erm, I only managed to reach Innocent Land with 1 credit laaa. Sigh. I can complete the game with 2 credits. It is back to the basketball machine then which I think I attracted some more attention from more guys. Hehe?
Anyway, yeah. I need to get on with my FYP. Sigh. Lots of things to plan, and my lecturer isn't going easy on me. :)
So, Ciaos.
I'm feeling tired today. I slept early yesterday.. erm.. 1:00 sth am. hehehe.. Broke my own rule. Argh. At least I didn't force myself to stay awake to look after my game. :) So I received a msg from choco cookies early in the morning, which caused me to be on time at FYP today. Wow? Haha
But if I reach on time to sleep in the lab, I rather sleep at home? Sigh. I don't think my lecturer will approve either way. Thumb of rule : Sleep earlier. F EH!
Alright, so in the sleepy morning, Sun and Mary came to have lunch/breakfast with me at 11am. Went down to AMK hawker centre to eat. The wanton mee there is zomgwtfbbq tasteless. Mary bought from one store which serve cooled soup, average mee with lots of 'dark colour' sauce while I got one from another which served hot soup, tasteless mee with minimal sauce. - - Ok. So they were bad. Fortunately, I ordered carrot cake for us to share, at least our tastebuds survived. Sun ate the hokkien mee, which I think, is acceptable for hawker price. =X
Then we went to AMK Hub to play at the arcade. We challenged each other to basketball shooting machine, which both of them died in stage 2 with <90 points. Hehehe, I will be humbled enough not to type my own score here. :) Then we played Daytona which is like WTF? I lose? AGAIN? Yeah. I suck at that. - - Sigh. No matter how hard I tried to use the brake, change gear etc etc. I lost to 2 automatic cars. Managed to beat them the last time on Advanced map. - -
We also played the big drum machine again, which I'm the one saving them by managing to pass each stage when they fail. =P After that, it was Afterburner solo for me. I ended up attracting lots of attentions from a bunch of guys. They kinda crowded behind me. - -? Erm, I only managed to reach Innocent Land with 1 credit laaa. Sigh. I can complete the game with 2 credits. It is back to the basketball machine then which I think I attracted some more attention from more guys. Hehe?
Anyway, yeah. I need to get on with my FYP. Sigh. Lots of things to plan, and my lecturer isn't going easy on me. :)
So, Ciaos.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Sunday 20th July 2008 6:35 pm
Alright. A week has passed again. 4 more weeks till my FYP ends. I managed to prevent myself from failing my National Education. -_-" I have to do one assignment to make up for the missed trip. Good deal eh? :)
Not been going out to jog lately. -_- F EH gaming! I need to moderate it seriously. It kinda loses control every time I start playing. This whole day I have been sitting down in front of my computer, looking at my web based game going on. I don't know what else to do. Game eh? I actually have to find stuffs to do. And DoTA isn't what I want to do today.
I guess I'm starting to like those games that is long term and don't actually last just one hour. It is kinda like RL where you actually work towards a goal, instead of short thrills or profit. [ RL = Real Life ]
Alright. Now for some rules for myself. 1. Sleep before 12am. - - Wow. I hope this would work seriously. I'm tired of waking up tired. Period. [ Thus I'm always late? ] 2. 3. 4. 5. 6.
Ok. Failed at thinking of more. I shall go out and play some more bball today. Good weather. Hope it will lift my spirit a bit. Heh.
Ciaos
6:53 pm
Alright. A week has passed again. 4 more weeks till my FYP ends. I managed to prevent myself from failing my National Education. -_-" I have to do one assignment to make up for the missed trip. Good deal eh? :)
Not been going out to jog lately. -_- F EH gaming! I need to moderate it seriously. It kinda loses control every time I start playing. This whole day I have been sitting down in front of my computer, looking at my web based game going on. I don't know what else to do. Game eh? I actually have to find stuffs to do. And DoTA isn't what I want to do today.
I guess I'm starting to like those games that is long term and don't actually last just one hour. It is kinda like RL where you actually work towards a goal, instead of short thrills or profit. [ RL = Real Life ]
Alright. Now for some rules for myself. 1. Sleep before 12am. - - Wow. I hope this would work seriously. I'm tired of waking up tired. Period. [ Thus I'm always late? ] 2. 3. 4. 5. 6.
Ok. Failed at thinking of more. I shall go out and play some more bball today. Good weather. Hope it will lift my spirit a bit. Heh.
Ciaos
6:53 pm
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
- Don't feel like putting in the date and time today -
I can't help but to feel lost and defeated. Low self-esteem and morale is kicking in, I guess. Playing games allow me to stop thinking about myself, and concentrate as another being. Winning feels better than anything, but it gets me addicted and hunger for more. Losing makes me feel that I am what I think I am. Accepting defeat, not putting up any fight. I'm losing sight of any goal, I will live better blinded.
I feel like I'm being split apart. One is crying out loud, seeking for attention. The other wants to be left alone, prefered to be unseen. One wants to accomplish stuffs, the other just wants to see the end. One wants to be touched within, the other heighten the wall.
- Negativity ends -
Sighing off from FYP.
I can't help but to feel lost and defeated. Low self-esteem and morale is kicking in, I guess. Playing games allow me to stop thinking about myself, and concentrate as another being. Winning feels better than anything, but it gets me addicted and hunger for more. Losing makes me feel that I am what I think I am. Accepting defeat, not putting up any fight. I'm losing sight of any goal, I will live better blinded.
I feel like I'm being split apart. One is crying out loud, seeking for attention. The other wants to be left alone, prefered to be unseen. One wants to accomplish stuffs, the other just wants to see the end. One wants to be touched within, the other heighten the wall.
- Negativity ends -
Sighing off from FYP.
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Sunday 6th July 2008 , 10:18 pm
Alright, feeling sick at the moment. F EH! Shouldn't drink when you are sick. Headache + running nose, and a little tad of sleeplessness. Couldn't go for bball and dinner in the end. Sorry JW and KS. Haha
Being 2 weeks since I blogged, stuffs happened. Work work, presentation. All and all.
I don't know what I should blog anyway. Cooped everything up, and no one knows.
Ciaos
Alright, feeling sick at the moment. F EH! Shouldn't drink when you are sick. Headache + running nose, and a little tad of sleeplessness. Couldn't go for bball and dinner in the end. Sorry JW and KS. Haha
Being 2 weeks since I blogged, stuffs happened. Work work, presentation. All and all.
I don't know what I should blog anyway. Cooped everything up, and no one knows.
Ciaos
Friday, June 20, 2008
Friday June 20, 2008 10:38 am
Alright, this is the end of the fourth week of FYP. Sad to say that I didn't really do much real work. It's kinda sad for me to say this myself. Seriously, I enjoy doing 3D drawings on NX3 over writing dry reports. I don't really get it when during the 3 years of BME, they emphasized on designs and stuffs.
Yeah ok, my academic results suck big time. But the main problem is the chaotic education system. Do you know how boring it is to go through stuffs that you have zero interest in? The system forces you to do things that you may or may not do well in. Jack of all fields, master of none? Look at my polytechnic result up till now. GPA of < 2.0 , Well sounds bad right? Must be a whole lot of failures and bad grades with no As or Bs or Distinction. Nope. I got a Distinction for NX3 drawings, a few As or Bs along the way. Though I do have multiple bad grades.
Yeah, it is probably not justified for me to use this to debuke the system, as many other people are so "successful" with their lives. Making a living but not making life.
Change of topic. I think I am depressed. I went on a spree on chocolates, cravings for it... Damm.
:P Ok. Ciao. 11:46 ......... took so long to blog. Distracted. :P
Alright, this is the end of the fourth week of FYP. Sad to say that I didn't really do much real work. It's kinda sad for me to say this myself. Seriously, I enjoy doing 3D drawings on NX3 over writing dry reports. I don't really get it when during the 3 years of BME, they emphasized on designs and stuffs.
Yeah ok, my academic results suck big time. But the main problem is the chaotic education system. Do you know how boring it is to go through stuffs that you have zero interest in? The system forces you to do things that you may or may not do well in. Jack of all fields, master of none? Look at my polytechnic result up till now. GPA of < 2.0 , Well sounds bad right? Must be a whole lot of failures and bad grades with no As or Bs or Distinction. Nope. I got a Distinction for NX3 drawings, a few As or Bs along the way. Though I do have multiple bad grades.
Yeah, it is probably not justified for me to use this to debuke the system, as many other people are so "successful" with their lives. Making a living but not making life.
Change of topic. I think I am depressed. I went on a spree on chocolates, cravings for it... Damm.
:P Ok. Ciao. 11:46 ......... took so long to blog. Distracted. :P
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