Broke up on the 15th. Talked through it with her though she is the one who suggested it.

Well, its the 17th now, didn't sms once or call. I should let it go then. I wonder why am I still worrying about her. She got 2 other guys actively on her tail, and she is out with them late at night at the arcade when she is supposed to be having a curfew. Alright, let it go Oblivious. It is for her, to let her become happier cause you couldn't do it. Just hope she won't do anything foolish.

Oblivious. Have I mentioned about metamorphosis? Planning to use it as my new nick/motto. Oblivious. Yeah, I really need the metamorphosis. Couldn't be the same anymore.

Had not told alot of my friends or even my family about it. Maybe there isn't a need to. But it feels weird when my friends ask me why she didn't come, or didn't follow me.. or anything related with her. Guess I really spent alot of time with her without me noticing it. I lied to them that she's working. And I didn't expect her to be outside at arcade when I call her at 10pm. I feel bitter. Wanted to send her a sms full of sarcasm, wishing her happiness with her new life.

But, alright.. I'm not that much of a loser. It hurts knowing that my 17 mths relationship is really over. I need to adapt again. I really don't hope to get into a relationship again too soon. I'm certain that I would not be able to do much for "her", empty promises, fading love. After that it will end again.

If I really love her enough, I wouldn't had let her go.

For the last time,
Yaya.. I loved you.