Dont Know.

Lazy to blog. Lazy to chat. Lazy to reply smses. LoL! L for Lazy.

Tues, went for a movie V for Vendetta with the Judokas guys. 8 guys! HA! It's fun. Joking around in a big group, but we cant find anything to do. Walked from PS to Somerset. Walked around in department stores. Looked at VCDs, food, and toys. wth. But it's fun. Funner than staying at home and staring at the computer.

Seriously, this few days, the outings spent alot of my money. I mean my allowance. Hence my mom is nagging. AND SERIOUSLY, all of this have to do with Judo. Birthday, AGM, clearing of clubroom, movie with judokas, doing something for the club crawl. wow. oh, there's also Judo training.

Wed, after Judo, I decided to go to polar's house to watch Initial D fourth stage which he had lost the disc on Sunday but Sensei Francis retrieved it and brought it during the training. Leo and Ks came along, and we watched the discs til morning. All 14 esps. =) kinda boring though. Polar cooked fr us!!

Slept for 7-8 hrs in the morning? my day just started. 6pm cya.

Monday Morning!

How refreshed. Been awhile since I blogged. Lazy to blog as well as nothing for me to blog. Same life everyday. Same nocturnal gaming spree.Until recently.

Slept abit earlier, waking up abit earlier. Somehow, I feel this way makes me feel better. (Though waking up in the afternoon is abit boring as its so hot and I wont wanna go out.) Judo Judo Judo this weeks for the Competition on Sunday. Yeah, yesterday. Sunday.

Inter-Tertiary Judo Championship 2006.
We are supposed to meet at 730 at CityHall o.O , while I woke up at 6 something. and yeah, meeting up with pals at 630. =_= I remembered that I was so excited that I can't sleep..well. Sleepy, teary eyes. Most of them was late for the 630 one.(my pals =D) so, I managed to beg my dad to give me a ride. 5 of us in a Proton car. waha?!

We managed to reach Cityhall in time and meet the rest, then we moved on to SMU. We were even earlier than the coordinators. >_< (Received NYP judo jackets!![made by us, not SMU] ww00t cool~) The games were nice. Just get better with each match. COol throws, great holds. Hmm..well, there are always some bad ones though.

Anyway, I won a gold medal for my catergory. not to be very proud of.

NYP wons alot of medals that day, maybe becus we had many participants. But stil, winning is another thing. =) Celebrated at Zheng Fa. x)) not exactly a celebration. just to fill our stomach. hahax. Played CS after eating with the Judokas. Well, it's fun playing with so many friends. haha. The joy and laughters.

Tired. Happy. =)

Tues

Well well.. yesterday was a fine day. Woke up late. and..was late for Judo. =) no one scolded or anything. ha! =P

Judo training was..well..interesting. hees. didnt really get me all tired. but it does hurt abit. Woke up around 3 something. Felt a sharp pain around my knee when woke up. Must be one of the bad throws someone or two did on me. Blame it on my bad breakfalling. x)) (and I had to miss today's extra training. =/ )

Judo competition coming in the next 2 week. Well, my performance is average, my stamina is unknown. I'm not sure... haha *pause* thinking of the promises she made for me. for the competition. haha sure planned alot that time. just a sudden thought *resume* I wonder how I will fare for it. Any medals? Let's not be over-confident. hees =) but it will suits me better to be that way?

okie..what's that word now.. Sianzationalised. got it. Going Judo does help abit. If only my knee is alright now..

Mondayblues..

Monday..rite.. 2am. Dont feel like doing anything. But it's so boring. Games get boring after some times. What is it that I should be doing to stop feeling bored?

Going out with friends would be a way, but what if all the friends and including you are lazy to. Hmm. Weird. Turning nocturnal already. Sleeping through noon. Waking up at night. Playing games til morning. Yeah. I know some of you will be saying its a boring life. Yeah. I'm starting to feel it already.

Judo training starts again. maybe it will solves this problem, or maybe just lessen it. Come to think of it. Basketball cca for 4 years in sec school. It was never boring for me. But now, basketball..it just feels like..its not the same. Not that much basketball friends to play with. Not that much competition. Not much of training. It felt so different now. But I know when I'm playing it, I am happy in a way. Naturally.

So..is everything else the same for me? I don't know. Dammit. Feeling empty again.

Monday

Ok..Due to popular demands. I'm back.

4 people. =) Good to have this kind of popularity without a need for scandal spamming or mass flaming of people. x))

Anyway, life's the same for me. On the track now. I mean..look. My track happens to belong to a 80s locomotive. It's slow. And waste alot of power. AND will produce alot of noise if you want it to accomplish something like moving from one place to another. x)

Gaming takes up like 70% of my life now. Not professional gaming. Just some weird group of non-sociable guys getting together online to play some no-brainer games to get the satisfaction from defeating and flaming some other non-sociable gays online. Pretty interesting..you will never know..

Great. What should I write now. Maybe I will just end here before I start on my failures for the recent exams.Well. Failures does not mean that I failed, just not getting satisfactory results. =) smiles.

ByeZ.

Monday

How long had it been already..since I blogged.

Haha.. Exam week, study week. Heck care. No mood to study!! wee~ games games games til morning then sleep. x)) Cool. Went out a few times. Well, not that fun. Maybe we chose the wrong activities to do already. LoL!

Sat was Joanna's gathering. Hmm before that I went to play lan with takki and polar. Not bad. Time passed quick. Then after some persuasion, I got them to come with me to Jo's gathering. Whew. Nearly entered Sentosa for no reason. Jo and gangs(plural becus there were really.) were eating at Harbourfront centre.

After that, went to Dhoby Ghaut. -_- planned to go karaoke at a special room which can hold 30+ people. 1500. WHAT!? mesos? NO! S$. what the... went down to Cineleisure Orchard. kk. The gangs split up. Pool. and Kbox. Great.7 ppl 1 pool table. After an hour, our group left. Went to eat macs. The ladies left. A giant came. Great!! Went down to Pardigram for more pool?.. This time..2 table. COol. But was really tired. My EYES BURNED UNDER FLUROSCENT LIGHT?!? wonderful. NR2 and we reach woods. Slept at 8 cuz I gamed. =P hees

Sunday!! Marina Bay!~!~ Woke up at 4? wahaha. Just nice. I was late. so were the guys who went with me. Leo and Polar. =P Zhen Fa!! COok Cook! Lotsa BaconS Lotsa OIL!!! We were deep frying stuffs there. This is new. Ha! Poor prawns. Tortured by Us!!! Oh yeah. This gathering consisted of 5 Judo Guys. No naming.. Arcaded after that. Boring shit! Hate arcades now. (Becus I wasted money and I cant win.) (addon: games are supposed to make you happy..not angry and frustated at the end of the day.)

Went Home. GAMED again!! til morning!!! hees. Then slept til 3pm. W00t. Great. I'm so bored now. Seriously, I need to find more stuffs to entertain myself...but not expensively. Screw YOU POOL!! AND YOU TOO ARCADE!! Maybe my body missed the sweats... Basketball. x)

815pm Monday.

Valentines'

Woot..Tuesday le..

Ha..The test on Friday.. well.. It's fine. Abit slow. Nevertheless, I think it will be an A.

Stayed over at aunt's on Saturday. Played til 5am. Slept til 5pm Sun. Went home. Weekends over.

Monday, missed school due to nuan-ness.

Interesting...Ha? Cant sleep well man. Just lotsa games to distract myself from sleep.

Hees. EPC practical today was crap..=) That's all? The girls brought chocolates for everyone. Sweet. Merci, Hersheys.. x)) Thanks Atirah, Natalia, Diana. Ha!

Happy Valentine's for everyone!..

Wed 0247. Nitez.

Thurs-

ha..Dont think anyone would read my blog..since it had been inactive for so long.

Went to view her blog once more. Maybe I shouldn't have.

Haiz..Need time isn't it. Guess I'm not so tough myself.

Biomodeling test tomorrow. With my capability, it should be an easy task, just hope that my mood won't affect my judgement. =) Os result coming out tomorrow too. Why am stil I bothered about it. stupid xinyi.

I'm tired..but don't feel like sleeping yet. 2am now? ha..go take a shower..

Hey..tag if you read! =)

NewS!

Jasmine Lin Ching Mei and Joseph Ng Jun Wei broke up on the 22th Jan.

Ha..think I have to let everyone know.

I always had that little hope of patching up with her, but now it's already gone. Mistake made maybe I shouldn't had allowed the break in the first place. Another might be I'm not good enough for her.

x) Oh well, that's all. I'm so crap. Impatience. Not ready.

Time to go on with my life..but I will never forget her.

Thanks for the final blow.

Tues..Today

Ha..Busy school today..Went well..just tired..

I think I still like her alot. I do like her alot. Don't ask me to stop wasting my time. Instead I need encouragement. Maybe you think I made the wrong choice. But.. right now.. I can't give up.

What should I do. I'm tired. No. I still can go on. til I lose the strength.

Tues

Hmm, Monday again. So tired.

Some stuffs happened. Well, dont intend to tell it to the masses. So I wont blog it.

Haven't give up yet. Gotta do something about it bah.

Today's lesson = 1hr of Comm skill giving tips for the common test. WoW!
Managed to connect to wireless in school now. Blogging as well as doing some work here.
Anyway, I'm bored. Maybe I will go back to Woods and walk around. ThinK of something bah.

That's all.

Friday

How I wish I have more time..An hour seems so short, morning is short, noon is short, night is short, a day is short, a week is short, a month is short, a year is..well..

Everything seems short to me now. Too busy. And when I have time to think about what I had done. Nothing much. Really. Maybe it's this small bits and pieces of things I manage to do with this short time mass up to something really wonderful at the end of the year. Or maybe when its too late for me to change it. No time limit. You never know when will be enough. I'm not refering to anything in particular but something that is so general that I have no clues about it.

Is it because even if you set a goal, you might change it when you never really hit it. Making it simpler or even difficult, you just never hit it. Change so frequently that, you were never be satisfied.

-paused- think-

Please ignore the above paragraphs. I'm crapping.

NYP opened the house today as well as yesterday. Ha! Took part in it. For my cca. JudO! Woah! Fun! Skipping lesson legally. Look at babes. Look out for shuai guys(potential gay partners) Nah. Wasn't really what I was doing. Just enjoyed the times I spent with the Judokas. Nothing special. In a small dojo. Throwing around. Rehearsing. That alone made my day. Friends. Ha!

Lamerage to the excess, as well as some jokers when we were rehearsing. The Judo performance was nice. Zhonghua Wushu was spectacular. TKD was abit..well...okay..but they do have nice backgrd music. Oh yeah! before that, I went for lesson. Ha! Surprisingly when I can be excused. Did biomodeling. NEW STUFFS! Thank god I went. and I got FULL MARKS FOR THE EXAM TOO!!! ROFLOLMAO!~

After all that, stayed around with a Judo gal and wait for her bf. Well..seems stupid..but she was using my laptop. shun bian had my dinner too.

Now I'm home. Tired out. Tml's PT. Should I sleep? or should I wait for...reply..

End.

Missing..

Wednesday 18th

Yo! Busy busy. Seems to myself that i had gotten back on track now. Not that slack. But am really tired. Is it tiring to be myself? or am I trying to be someone different. =X Anyway, I did say that I will change yeah? ( or did I?..hmm.. )

I went for Judo today again. 2 times in a week! weee! How long has it been? Although I go for lessons now, slack lesser, I stil play games. hahaz Cant stop playing. Oh! rmb I still haven't hand in my organic chem. oh well. heck care (o.0 slacker alert! ) =P

Okie, shall go back to playing game.

Seeya. ya?

Tired.

Monday

Okie..School reopened today. Missed the first lectures (2hrs) but went for the other one.

Kinda pissed my parents off for not going for the first one.

Judo after lesson(2 hrs after). It was a rehearsal for the open house on Thurs, Fri and Satur. It's fun being throw around and throwing people around. Kinda sadistic. Maybe tat's why I love it. x)) My performance = being the aggressor and being thrown by a guy doing self defence arts with Judo. WOW!

Ate dinner after it. Macs. Btw..had my lunch before going 2nd lecture.(like anyone of you would had ask. =/ )

And today ended. 12 midnight. Sleep early then.

(Please tag if you read my blog.)

Holidays

Starting to hate holidays. The pace is completely different. I'm a total different guy during holiday. Should i blame it on the holidays or myself then?.. Hmm.. *deep thoughts*

I'm drained. I have no energy for anything at all. Stil remember the book that I borrowed for Polalion. Talking about energies inside a human's body. Humans gain energies from others' energy. Energies in term of attentions. Good or Bad. Just attentions. Am I lacking from attentions? or had I been giving away too much of my energies?

LoLs! Funny for me phrase it this way. Well, I have no idea. Maybe I'm tired. Drained. x)) This few days. Games and games. Time passed quickly. No complaints. (from me. but there is alot from others.) No dates. No activities. No exercises. Skipping meals. Getting abit sick. Step out of houses once a day only. Life's simple.

Am I such a guy? Somehow or rather, I'm satisfied just like that. Stressless. But it's because of my laptop, because of the network connection,because of the power supply, because of the food, because of the water, because of etc. None are provided by my single-handedly. Just a spoiled brat now.

Good to get spoiled. Good to slack around yet things get done themselves. Good to get sick for reasons to slack. Bad personality. =_=" HA!

Seems to know what I should do for myself.

ANother Break!

Ha! Another week of break now. Actually, it should consider 3rd week of break, as I was slackinng through it. No mood for anything except for games. No mood. Games can really make me forget about the real world I'm in now. Games can be replayed when it was done badly or when you lost it. How relaxing it is.

Been seeking advices from people. LoLS! Interesting to hear from some of my friends. Their theories are good. From breaking up to holding on. Ha! From holding on to looking out for other target. x)) wonder what she will think if I tell her this. =P beetter nooot. lols -pause-

okie..just came back from meeting her. lols. She seems so sianz today. Must be due to too much high-ness the past few days. Rest more!! Im so wet now. The rain is so nice. hmmm..will I get sick? x)

=X

Why do I feel sad when I read her blog. Is it due to the background music? or is it the content? Maybe I should bother myself that much. Stop thinking this much. I do read her blog.

I...

24th XmasEve

Xmas..wow..Xmas Eve plan was to rot at home and see if I will turn into an undead. But Mr polar chua zhao han asked me t go over to Esther's house. I thought there were some kind of class gathering or something, so I agreed to go. Only until i meet him, then he tiold me it will be only 2 of us, and we were suppose to go there listen to carolling.

As we waited, (Carolling party were late.) we ate some scallops. WoW. Nice salty..hmm... We saw how much bikes her dad has, how many consoles they owned, how many HiFi they have in their house. Whew..Then we felt that we should play Xbox console while we waited.

Suddenly! A bang! A boom! The carolling party came silently. (Notice that there isnt any bang or boom.) 40 church members came into the little 4 room flat. wow. Then they sit down at the living room (some left standing,some gotta stand outside, some waited in the kitchen). Christmas Carol. My god. I cant sing. I didnt. =P HEes Listen to one of them talked about Christmas, Jesus coming to the world. ah..boring. the way he spoke. God bless.

After that, we had sme red bean soups. (so did the carollers) then we played Xbox. One round of Metal Slug 4 with zhaohan. If that game were to be played at the arcade, I and him would had spent hundred plus on it. whew. Bored. We take turns to play Star War Lego with Esther on the Xbox. It was fun. But I were sleepy. So I napped. Woke up in an hr time. Played abit. then the game hanged. Oh gosh.. No save. Sob. But I dont mind. SInce im not the one who played for the hr. haha

Sleept til morning. Cold. WOke up. Went to the living room. Slept on the sofa. Esther was plaing maple. wow. no sleep i suppose. hees We left at around 12 after eating some breads. and milo.made by Esther's mom. hees. 25th already. Shall make a new post.

New beginning..

It had been quite awhile since I blogged. I realised this is what I say everytime I blog.

I'm attached now. New beginning. Hmm. It had been 12 days by now. She is so sweet and nice, well, like what I told her, someone I wanted as a girlfriend. We really had fun during the first week, going out everyday together. Talked alot. Played alot. But why am I having such a bad feeling now.

I read her blog. Should I tell her? Sensed from her actions. Am I just too sensitive? Am I assuming stuffs too much? I wonder if she will read my blog. Don't think I wanna confront her with that issue. If it's really a bad premonition, I wouldn't want it to happen. Baka. Now, she's getting busy with her life too. Friends and cca, as well as school too.

It had been a year since... How I wish I can read her mind. =X Don't want this to ... No...

I will just leave it here.

Christmas coming. How should I plan it. What should I do. Been so passive for the pass few years. Man..it's bad. Think harder. I need ideas. hey. if anyone of you read my blog today on the 24th, please contact me or tag me with any ideas. =X So lame. So lame. So troubled.

Blog Blog

Rains! More rain! It's so nice to have a cooling weather. Well, it's cool and it's good for sleeping. Seriously, I can sleep all the way through a rainy day. Oh right, I'm here to write what happened in my life.

Friday-
Schooling as usual. Tough time playing with N3. grrr! School's over and I went to Suntec to meet my dudes. WCG? Seems boring to me. Playing is fun, but....watching?.. oh well. Alicia accompanied me there. Felt bad to have to let her go back on her own. Look: Suntec isn't near to CityHall Station and CityHall Station isn't near to Orchard. Well, she was still early for her date with her dear Michael Brandon Ng. She left on her own because my friends were still lagging abit there. x) Me and dudes(Eienkisu,no nick for him...Jingwei[how abt "Malaysian"=)],Fukushuusha,Polalion) went to Marina Centre to have dinner. And then, lan gaming. and then, home.
End

Saturday-
I played games til early morning and slept all the way til noon. Woke up, had lunch. Slept all the way til evening. Missed jogging by eienkisu. Ate. played games til early morning Sunday. End

Sunday-
Woke up nooon. Ate. Slept. Evening. Missed jogging. Playing. Sian. blog due to request for dsyw. End-ing.

Similarlities eh? yeah. Weekend's boring(to me).