Tues..Today

Ha..Busy school today..Went well..just tired..

I think I still like her alot. I do like her alot. Don't ask me to stop wasting my time. Instead I need encouragement. Maybe you think I made the wrong choice. But.. right now.. I can't give up.

What should I do. I'm tired. No. I still can go on. til I lose the strength.

Tues

Hmm, Monday again. So tired.

Some stuffs happened. Well, dont intend to tell it to the masses. So I wont blog it.

Haven't give up yet. Gotta do something about it bah.

Today's lesson = 1hr of Comm skill giving tips for the common test. WoW!
Managed to connect to wireless in school now. Blogging as well as doing some work here.
Anyway, I'm bored. Maybe I will go back to Woods and walk around. ThinK of something bah.

That's all.

Friday

How I wish I have more time..An hour seems so short, morning is short, noon is short, night is short, a day is short, a week is short, a month is short, a year is..well..

Everything seems short to me now. Too busy. And when I have time to think about what I had done. Nothing much. Really. Maybe it's this small bits and pieces of things I manage to do with this short time mass up to something really wonderful at the end of the year. Or maybe when its too late for me to change it. No time limit. You never know when will be enough. I'm not refering to anything in particular but something that is so general that I have no clues about it.

Is it because even if you set a goal, you might change it when you never really hit it. Making it simpler or even difficult, you just never hit it. Change so frequently that, you were never be satisfied.

-paused- think-

Please ignore the above paragraphs. I'm crapping.

NYP opened the house today as well as yesterday. Ha! Took part in it. For my cca. JudO! Woah! Fun! Skipping lesson legally. Look at babes. Look out for shuai guys(potential gay partners) Nah. Wasn't really what I was doing. Just enjoyed the times I spent with the Judokas. Nothing special. In a small dojo. Throwing around. Rehearsing. That alone made my day. Friends. Ha!

Lamerage to the excess, as well as some jokers when we were rehearsing. The Judo performance was nice. Zhonghua Wushu was spectacular. TKD was abit..well...okay..but they do have nice backgrd music. Oh yeah! before that, I went for lesson. Ha! Surprisingly when I can be excused. Did biomodeling. NEW STUFFS! Thank god I went. and I got FULL MARKS FOR THE EXAM TOO!!! ROFLOLMAO!~

After all that, stayed around with a Judo gal and wait for her bf. Well..seems stupid..but she was using my laptop. shun bian had my dinner too.

Now I'm home. Tired out. Tml's PT. Should I sleep? or should I wait for...reply..

End.

Missing..

Wednesday 18th

Yo! Busy busy. Seems to myself that i had gotten back on track now. Not that slack. But am really tired. Is it tiring to be myself? or am I trying to be someone different. =X Anyway, I did say that I will change yeah? ( or did I?..hmm.. )

I went for Judo today again. 2 times in a week! weee! How long has it been? Although I go for lessons now, slack lesser, I stil play games. hahaz Cant stop playing. Oh! rmb I still haven't hand in my organic chem. oh well. heck care (o.0 slacker alert! ) =P

Okie, shall go back to playing game.

Seeya. ya?

Tired.

Monday

Okie..School reopened today. Missed the first lectures (2hrs) but went for the other one.

Kinda pissed my parents off for not going for the first one.

Judo after lesson(2 hrs after). It was a rehearsal for the open house on Thurs, Fri and Satur. It's fun being throw around and throwing people around. Kinda sadistic. Maybe tat's why I love it. x)) My performance = being the aggressor and being thrown by a guy doing self defence arts with Judo. WOW!

Ate dinner after it. Macs. Btw..had my lunch before going 2nd lecture.(like anyone of you would had ask. =/ )

And today ended. 12 midnight. Sleep early then.

(Please tag if you read my blog.)

Holidays

Starting to hate holidays. The pace is completely different. I'm a total different guy during holiday. Should i blame it on the holidays or myself then?.. Hmm.. *deep thoughts*

I'm drained. I have no energy for anything at all. Stil remember the book that I borrowed for Polalion. Talking about energies inside a human's body. Humans gain energies from others' energy. Energies in term of attentions. Good or Bad. Just attentions. Am I lacking from attentions? or had I been giving away too much of my energies?

LoLs! Funny for me phrase it this way. Well, I have no idea. Maybe I'm tired. Drained. x)) This few days. Games and games. Time passed quickly. No complaints. (from me. but there is alot from others.) No dates. No activities. No exercises. Skipping meals. Getting abit sick. Step out of houses once a day only. Life's simple.

Am I such a guy? Somehow or rather, I'm satisfied just like that. Stressless. But it's because of my laptop, because of the network connection,because of the power supply, because of the food, because of the water, because of etc. None are provided by my single-handedly. Just a spoiled brat now.

Good to get spoiled. Good to slack around yet things get done themselves. Good to get sick for reasons to slack. Bad personality. =_=" HA!

Seems to know what I should do for myself.

ANother Break!

Ha! Another week of break now. Actually, it should consider 3rd week of break, as I was slackinng through it. No mood for anything except for games. No mood. Games can really make me forget about the real world I'm in now. Games can be replayed when it was done badly or when you lost it. How relaxing it is.

Been seeking advices from people. LoLS! Interesting to hear from some of my friends. Their theories are good. From breaking up to holding on. Ha! From holding on to looking out for other target. x)) wonder what she will think if I tell her this. =P beetter nooot. lols -pause-

okie..just came back from meeting her. lols. She seems so sianz today. Must be due to too much high-ness the past few days. Rest more!! Im so wet now. The rain is so nice. hmmm..will I get sick? x)

=X

Why do I feel sad when I read her blog. Is it due to the background music? or is it the content? Maybe I should bother myself that much. Stop thinking this much. I do read her blog.

I...

24th XmasEve

Xmas..wow..Xmas Eve plan was to rot at home and see if I will turn into an undead. But Mr polar chua zhao han asked me t go over to Esther's house. I thought there were some kind of class gathering or something, so I agreed to go. Only until i meet him, then he tiold me it will be only 2 of us, and we were suppose to go there listen to carolling.

As we waited, (Carolling party were late.) we ate some scallops. WoW. Nice salty..hmm... We saw how much bikes her dad has, how many consoles they owned, how many HiFi they have in their house. Whew..Then we felt that we should play Xbox console while we waited.

Suddenly! A bang! A boom! The carolling party came silently. (Notice that there isnt any bang or boom.) 40 church members came into the little 4 room flat. wow. Then they sit down at the living room (some left standing,some gotta stand outside, some waited in the kitchen). Christmas Carol. My god. I cant sing. I didnt. =P HEes Listen to one of them talked about Christmas, Jesus coming to the world. ah..boring. the way he spoke. God bless.

After that, we had sme red bean soups. (so did the carollers) then we played Xbox. One round of Metal Slug 4 with zhaohan. If that game were to be played at the arcade, I and him would had spent hundred plus on it. whew. Bored. We take turns to play Star War Lego with Esther on the Xbox. It was fun. But I were sleepy. So I napped. Woke up in an hr time. Played abit. then the game hanged. Oh gosh.. No save. Sob. But I dont mind. SInce im not the one who played for the hr. haha

Sleept til morning. Cold. WOke up. Went to the living room. Slept on the sofa. Esther was plaing maple. wow. no sleep i suppose. hees We left at around 12 after eating some breads. and milo.made by Esther's mom. hees. 25th already. Shall make a new post.

New beginning..

It had been quite awhile since I blogged. I realised this is what I say everytime I blog.

I'm attached now. New beginning. Hmm. It had been 12 days by now. She is so sweet and nice, well, like what I told her, someone I wanted as a girlfriend. We really had fun during the first week, going out everyday together. Talked alot. Played alot. But why am I having such a bad feeling now.

I read her blog. Should I tell her? Sensed from her actions. Am I just too sensitive? Am I assuming stuffs too much? I wonder if she will read my blog. Don't think I wanna confront her with that issue. If it's really a bad premonition, I wouldn't want it to happen. Baka. Now, she's getting busy with her life too. Friends and cca, as well as school too.

It had been a year since... How I wish I can read her mind. =X Don't want this to ... No...

I will just leave it here.

Christmas coming. How should I plan it. What should I do. Been so passive for the pass few years. Man..it's bad. Think harder. I need ideas. hey. if anyone of you read my blog today on the 24th, please contact me or tag me with any ideas. =X So lame. So lame. So troubled.

Blog Blog

Rains! More rain! It's so nice to have a cooling weather. Well, it's cool and it's good for sleeping. Seriously, I can sleep all the way through a rainy day. Oh right, I'm here to write what happened in my life.

Friday-
Schooling as usual. Tough time playing with N3. grrr! School's over and I went to Suntec to meet my dudes. WCG? Seems boring to me. Playing is fun, but....watching?.. oh well. Alicia accompanied me there. Felt bad to have to let her go back on her own. Look: Suntec isn't near to CityHall Station and CityHall Station isn't near to Orchard. Well, she was still early for her date with her dear Michael Brandon Ng. She left on her own because my friends were still lagging abit there. x) Me and dudes(Eienkisu,no nick for him...Jingwei[how abt "Malaysian"=)],Fukushuusha,Polalion) went to Marina Centre to have dinner. And then, lan gaming. and then, home.
End

Saturday-
I played games til early morning and slept all the way til noon. Woke up, had lunch. Slept all the way til evening. Missed jogging by eienkisu. Ate. played games til early morning Sunday. End

Sunday-
Woke up nooon. Ate. Slept. Evening. Missed jogging. Playing. Sian. blog due to request for dsyw. End-ing.

Similarlities eh? yeah. Weekend's boring(to me).

Friday Morning-

Hey, midnight passed.

Thursday really isn't an enjoyable day. My whole body was so stiff. It aches. My head aches. Fortunately, no one trampled on my mood today, if not, I think I would had thrown that chosen one off the building.

Well..think I had overtrained on Wednesday training. My body isn't ready yet. damn it.

I really into Japanese language. Can't say I'm that lazy anymore~!

Anyway, Sayoonaro.

Tuesday

Aloha! Days passed like ....bacteria reproducing..whatever. Querying for any special events that took place. Not that I took noticed of. Except for my Fucked Up stamina after a month of passive smoking. %&^^$*(*&#@..

That Sunday, went out to have a jog with beloved Jiawen[a guy]. I finally realised I'm having problem breathing and my heart aches. Nothing sad happened to me lately. Hmm.. The same thing happened to me during my Judo training last wednesday. Sickening.

Oh! btw, I'm now yellow dan for Judo. NYP Judo that is. Er, Yeah. That's all.

Well did I even wanna mention about it when I don't know what to say. Man! Why am I talking to myself?

Sicking feelings are getting back into my mind. I'm not sure if there is anyone who know what I mean. The feeling. Argh! Maybe I should just concentrate on my works.

Sayoonara!

A week gone.

Time passed quickly this week. Wasted alot of it on game and complaining that I'm very tired. Procrastinator had not been able to finish any homework completely, but did enjoy the process of getting more knowledge. "Hey, maybe I'm not the stupid after all."

I didnt get to see any drastic changes in my friends. A month isn't enough to change someone [in terms of character and appearance]? but some of them got better/different/"unique" hairstyles. x)

=/ I cant think of anything to write. Maybe because I just woke up. Felt like I had been writing craps for the 2 paragraphs. Blog more. Is hard. Aloha.

*Smiles*

4am in the morning, I can't get to sleep. Gonna work full tomorrow too. So I blog.

I went through friendster. I went through the messages. From July 2004 til the time I stop receiving any messages. Time passed so quickly. I had already forgotten what I had said, what I had done for the past months, years. No reminiscence. Abit of regret. Abit of sadness. Abit of sweetness. Abit of agony.

My thoughts went back to the time before the O level. The time when I'm still different. Different from now. I had changed. Woah. How long had I not miss basketball? I misses it. How many friendships seemed to had paused or stopped entirely? I lost counts. How many new ones started? I lost counts too. Have I been losing stuffs? Am I getting better ones?

Hey, I got a job last Christmas. Hey, I'm working at a different place now. Everything had lingered out of my memories. When did I get together with her. When did I broke up with her. No. I should remember it. I should. So many stuffs. Too much. I'm starting to forget even now. I wanted so much to type it all down. What is it that I forgot?

I shall save this in case I forget to. Publish. Bye. Reminiscence. Day by day, moving on.

Work Work! Something for me?

I have been working the hell out of myself for the past 3 weeks already. Some knew. Some doesn't. Interesting. Hmm.

Not much of a free time to enjoy myself, unless if I'm talking about the restless nights I spent playing online with friends. That seems to be the only thing I can do after work. JC promos just ended. So had the secondary's end of year papers. Woah!..

BACK ONLINE!!~

Hey!.. I'm back.

Well..Actually being online for some time already. But, I was busy with stuffs. eg. gaming, chatting, whatsoever-deemed-important-to-me-and-you-need-not-know-stuffs.

I will be working for the whole month next month. Man, I won't be able to enjoy myself through the holidays.

Nothing much to update for now. Life's pretty dry.

Be back soon!

Missed-

Man, I had not been blogging for so long. Nah, I'm not that busy to miss blogging. Well, without a computer, I cant blog. So, if you wanna see me blog, please buy me a computer. Notebook or desktop. Anything? x)

2nd, I don't like blogging on a school computer. hmm, I have other things to do when I'm using a school computer. Reasonable because I wouldn't be in school for nothing. Anyway, I'm in school blogging now because people are so vexed when they cant read my blog after so long. *Famous Lami*

-Examination week-
Yeah, it's the dreaded week again. The study week was brief. Well, 2 days? Nah, 2 days to study? not even 100 days are enough. After all, I have so much stuffs to do. Work, sleep, meals, toilet breaks, etc...... x)) I assume I will be failing 2 papers already. damn. tough life. All hail the security guard for telling me that there will a retest. Whew..M i relieved. hees

-Life-
I'm not having the motivation for anything. Except for working. Except for money. Except for fun. Well, study isn't really my focus now(though it should be). Maybe it's just my excuse for not. I just can't sit down and read something and get it in my mind. 10mins maybe. But for me to finish the whole topic of a module of a course of a polytechnic of Singapore of Mother Earth of the Universe. Okie, maybe I missing some stuffs here. But..Whatever right? I can read your mindsss. So puny. x)) (Please forgive my rudeness . for being so frank. lols. just kidding eh!)

-Now-
I'm in school to rush a project.
I'm in a rush to finish a meal before work.
I SHOULD be in a rush to meet my friend after I eat.
I'm dily-dalying with my blog here.

Ciaos! Miss you all! x))

Back!

Sorry for being out of service for yet so long!

Haha, life's been tiring the past few weeks.. [err...when is the last time I blogged], but it was all time well spent. Man, if only a day isn't 24hrs, I would had accomplished more things. It had been near 20 days since I blogged! Mainly due to the fact that , my computer had crashed on me.

Alright..now to recap on my life for the past 20+ days. If I'm not wrong, I had finished 2 presentations,both badly done. Well, hope I can get some points for wearing formal[and tie?]. LolS! Wooo, it's so nice to hear others saying I look handsome in formal wear.
[I nearly did want to wear formal wear everyday after that. BUT I figured it will be too hot and I don't have much formal wears to change into every different day.]

Seriously, last minute projects won't end up well. Well, I went for Judo. and Judo. and Judo. Well, I think I skipped some. LoL. Had to rush my last minute project? and some gaming? and...? x) Judo, I'm starting to lose my urge for it. [My skills had been losing the standards.] I shall start getting serious with it. haha.

Last Saturday, it was physical training(PT) for Judo. 10 in the morning in school? Man..My mind was rejecting the idea of going in the first place. But the thoughts of training with my Judo pals, my body came first. x) I was late [ as usual]. How cute. Four people came for training. FOUR?! and that included ME!? Man! Where is everyone else? damn it. Er, and one thing..our trainer,Mr Dennis, was late too? LoL!

The PT includes a 2.4km run[record now:11.53], pull-ups[record:3? x)], err..Im not sure what to call that. Lifting logs? er, the one you usually get to see at the physical corner. [record now: 14...(it's heavy, and I had to do it continuously)], Sit-ups(20x3),Step up(20x3), Squats(20x3). Haha, and in some sets of sit up, we had to twist our body. Complain: Why do I have to carry the heavy log though polalion is bigger?!. Complain: Why cant I rest like polalion? x) okie..well.. Polalion did complete his first 2.4km run. hees. Im glad. But I guess it drained all of his energy for him to do anything else, as he skipped all. lol

After PT, we went for a short break at Macs, then we went for a swim. It was only a dip fortunately, and it was fun playing in water[and in rain]. [Raindrops feel like bullets(or pins) on the skin.] We had lunch after that, and I left them, to join Mr Dennis(well, let's just call him Dennis) for basketball. I must be nut to promise him that I will be going for basketball. I played well in the first few games. Top scorer-cum-rebounder and stuffs but during 5v5 game. I start having cramps. Thighs and calves. Damn it! Lost all those matches because of it.!!!! [I'm turning vengeful.] I reached home at 12.30am that day.

The next few days was a horrendous experience for me. My thighs are tight, my body is aching and well, some bruises here and there. I can't use the stairs comfortably. I can't move around that much. I'm tired. Luckily, there wasn't any physical or strenous activities for me.

This is too long already! Thanks guys and girls for tagging. I will blog again soon!

Busy-_

Whew, it's nearly 3am now. Alright. Blog. I have to apologize for not blogging for so long, as I was training hard. x) I took part in And1 3on3, so I trained everyday. Hey, I missed out on lots of stuffs because of it. Especially my Judo classes. (I must be hated by them now.)

Okie...People who know me, I have to apologise for not able to recap on what I did the past few, really few, days(S). As you know, my brain isn't big enough (due to a thick skull) though my head is big. Rubbish shall be trashed.

-Sunday-7/8
And1 3on3.At Downtown East D'marquee. What can I say. We lost. But man, I was really boring. I woke up early in the morning. Registered. Played the first match. Man! It was challenging! Their center is(I think he stil is thus the present tense) bigger than me. Stronger than me. Well, but I think I can jump higher and last longer(stamina ^.^"). I was trashed around by him. WooHoo! They dominated the first half. Yet, I was so relaxed. *Smile*
-Pause-
Comments on the basketball court, hoop and scoring system:
The damn court was damn damn slippery. The hoop and board absorb shocks.(Whack the ball on the board as hard as you want! It will go in anyway.) Scoring system..1 point when you are in nearer to the ring and 2 points when you shoot, well, around 1.5m away from the ring. What the heck! Give me a normal non-slippery court with a semi-circle 3-point line instead of a square and normal scoring system!
-Resume-
2nd half, we scored first by shooting 1.5m. Gradually, with me jumping and pushing around, we managed to cut down the lead. In the last second, I managed to score a 2point which tied the game. Penalty free-throw shootout.
-Pause-
We are allowed to shoot once at free throw line each. Final score determines by which team scored more.
-Resume-
Okie. I missed. The big guy missed. Their small guy missed. Jingwei hit! Their forward missed. We wON! Who cares, Fukushuusha hit the 2nd ball.

After that, their rowdy forward came to look for some little troubles. Jingwei, well I think he pushed him accidentally(?), are confronted. Com'on! Rowdy tried to elbow me in the game too. But he missed (-.-"), which caused him to be blocked by me! WahHa! I wondered why he didn't confront me. (Because he's smaller[size/age/maturity] than me?) Team Experience [we shall not be called the ballers(sounds like ball-less)] ignored him totally. He tried a flying plastic bag attack but it nearly hit a bo-chap camera man. x) He walked off, and then came back later with a prejudice for guys who squat to urinate. (Please ignore/ask me for details on this)

The 2nd match takes place 2 hours later. (WTFCUKTV!!) I was sleeping. Man. No mood to win anymore. Don't bother to talk about it. End! Team Massacres won. Not the worst name there. Team Bo Co Len?

3rd match. I checked the scoreboard, due to the walkover of the 1st team for the other 2 teams, we had definitely lost the group. So, we decided to have a friendly match with team You Yi! (Aww, Friendship or Yaoi ?) Okie, we lost. They have a nice shooter, but if I had wanted to win, their center doesn't stand a chance.(Objections, anyone?)

Wee, then we went home. At 5? 3 games only? From 9am to 5pm? Whatever. We enjoyed a nice shower.(individually) Ate at CWP then went home. We had wanted to LAN that evening. LoL!

Friday-8/8
School! Boring! PC surprise test due to overwhelming result for assignments. (What the heck?! Assignment scores was removed.) LAN at school. Computer programming. BORING!! LAN at school. Then, I went home early to argue with my brother. NO! I just wanted to do my project with the freaking computer! Bought dinner on the way home.
-End-

Tuesday-9/8 REACH OUT FOR THE SKIES~ 40yrs old lao bei bei!
Morning. Sleep. Afternoon. Slack. Evening. LAN. Night. Project work. Midnight til now. Project work + blog. After now. Sleep! + wash face + brush teeth + slap my brother on the bed + log off.

Nights~! Hi TriciA~!