Rant Rant!

Damm shit feeling.

I always feel like ranting when I'm back here. Or rather. I will be back here when I wanna rant. It is almost a year already ya?

Life has been kind to me. I met a girl. Got together. But it happened pretty much after lots of bball fun with my gang.

I kinda miss my bball fun. Gang. It was so nice to waste time together.

Anyway, I wanna rant. RANT RANT! I hate it how I feel inferior. I hate it how I have to tolerate. I hate it how it feels to be me.

Why do I feel this way? Where's the feeling of love?

Why do I feel so despised?

Why do I feel disrespected?

Why do I feel that I'm being taken for granted?

Why!

Ha. It can go on and on. I rather not ask myself why. It will build up my internal "boiling" point.

I feel like I have been holding back all this anger, that I do not want to show. At least not to this special someone. I have taken it out on my parents, my friends, my colleagues.

I have always held back things about myself.

Should be sleeping..

I miss typing things. Heh.

Saturday..

Heh, thanks for the comment Sun. Yeah. Is it depressing? Blearh.. Not sure.

Wahahaha. I'm also very confused myself. I just want to vent my anger. I want to do things that I know which is wrong. The only thing holding me back is my conscience. I really wonder when will I lose it. :P Heh.

I guess.. sigh. oh well. :)

Time to go out.

Friday Night.

Hmm, I kinda forgot to blog. Argh, just not comfortable with sharing stuffs online, because I don't know who's reading. Heh.

Busy with life recently. Not the kind of life that I'm looking forward to, but I guess this is how adults get by with? Heh.

Well well, Ernest and Mark are both going through breakup recovery. And, well, I am going through no-gf dilemma. :-P and growing-fat-through-the-break illness too. Dammit. Too much slack is UNHEALTHY.

I wonder when will my rage go off. The feeling to destroy things or destroying myself. Haha. Have I been holding back too much in my daily life? Woot. Ok, sometimes I just wonder if this is normal. RAH!

Ah, crap. Again. Mind's blank. Thinks alot, but write nuts. Maybe another day? heh.

A little busy.

It had been fun and everything. Since when did I feel so busy and not wanting to go anywhere else other than the court to chill out.

Well, mind's blank. Zero inspiration on what to write. Shall continue another day.

New skin..

Alright, I finally changed my old blog skin, accidentally? It has been being so long since I last blogged anyway. A few months in between posts? Who the fuck follow up with my blog anyway?

Argh.

Sighness. At all the chaos going on in the world. H1N1 and economic downturn.

I don't have much to write actually. I will only be lamenting about stuffs as usual.

Too much things that I can do, but I spend little time doing it. Like learning the guitar which I borrowed from Sherry a long time ago and still not return her yet in spite that she called me a few weeks ago and said that it is okay to return her some time when I'm free.

Happy Birthday to Polar dude. Good to see you moving on in life. You don't have that dark shadow over you that you had back then when everything went down for you.

Fine. I guess no one will notice that I had blogged anyway. Too lazy to get the retarded tagbox online. Feh. It just get neglected everytime and die like a tamagotchi. I should start a graveyard soon for all my tagboard 'pets'.

Life is pleasant when you get more than what you expect and yearn for. So yeah. Set it to low.